Momming On The Go

One year ago today I gave birth to my second son, Promise.  This past Saturday was a really hard day that started out in deep and passionate mourning and ended with 3 different people/groups showing me and my family the love we needed to feel. 

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

I recently had the honor and privilege of sharing my experience with death at a class for seminary students at my alma mater, Dallas Theological Seminary. I am really honored I got to share, and I am thankful to the kind students who grieved with me and asked me thoughtful questions that have helped me process my experience further. Thank you, Dr. Thacker, for that opportunity!

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

And I'm back! Covid, Pneumonia, school, life, have kept me busy. How am I doing in that busy-ness? I am doing well, but I am also still grieving. I invite you to grieve with me. 

Scripture Reference: Psalm 56:8

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

My kids went from praying every night the baby growing inside would stay alive to praying that we wouldn't die. I wrestled with my feelings dealing with my second baby boy dying in 6 months. There have been lots of feelings in my house. 

We have talked about prayer with our kids and how God does not always answer how we want Him to BUT He still hears and He walks gently with us through the painful answers.

Scripture:
Psalm 56:8

People/Books/Author Mentioned (simply because I like them):
Amy Carmichael
"Hinds Feet On High Places" by Hannah Hurnard
"Jewel of the Nile" by Tessa Afshar

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

On Thursday I had a c-section to deliver a still born son at 16 weeks 3 days. For the second time in less than 6 months I have given birth to a tiny little boy. My body hurts and my heart hurts. Thank you for all the people who have been and continue to surround me with love and are letting me grieve for this little son, Emmanuel: God with us. 

Scripture Reference: 
Psalm 34:18

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

Today was Promise's Due Date. The day has not snuck up on me, and the last week and a half have been emotional. But. In the sadness I know that God is with me. I believe that truth and I am teaching it to my children. 

Scripture: 
2 Kings 6
Isaiah 40:11

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

A month ago I embarked on potty training the little lad. One thing I learned with my daughters was that the same parents and the same technique do not yield the same results so I was not looking forward to this battle of change.  Through potty training the little lad I was convicted of the wet diapers in my own life I cling to. 

Every year on our anniversary my husband and I go on a date. This last Thursday, our 9th anniversary, my husband called me on his way home from work to pick me up for our date and told me his truck had broken down. Our life together is an adventure and I am thankful I get to be journeying it together with him.

Scripture Reference: Romans 8:38-39

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most

I had the honor and privilege of sharing an exhortation for mom's at my church yesterday. Mother's Day is a day of great joy, but also great sadness. I have lost children. I know the pain. I know many others who have also lost children, and many more who long for children. I hear you. God hears your cries. He is near to you. 

This week my home has been invaded by ants. There have been various reinforcements called in to help me win this battle and I have been reminded of the importance of diligence and perseverance. 

Scripture Reference: 
Romans 5:3-5

Music: It Is Well With My Soul
Lyricist: Spafford, H.G. / Arranger: Bliss, P.P.
Public Domain, played by Paul Most