Steven Bartlett hired Amy Golding six months pregnant. She accepted.

Amy has built and sold a £100M company, founded a tech training business that’s changing who gets into the industry, and is now CEO of Steven Bartlett’s private office. She is also one of the most honest voices on the internet about what all of that actually costs.

In this episode we talk about the myth we were all sold about having it all. The apology she went back and made to women she managed before she had kids. Something she’d never shared before — what she was carrying privately through one of the most important weeks of her career. Why work-life balance is a phrase she hates. And why the world has to make space for you, not the other way around.

Funny, sharp, and more honest than most people dare to be.
This is Motherloading.

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Every child just wants to make their mum and dad proud.

Josh is the founder of Fit For All, a football coach with over 500,000 followers, and someone who's spent years working with kids navigating confidence, comparison, and the pressure to be perfect. He's also one of the most grounded voices on what children actually need to hear in a world full of noise, screens, and unrealistic expectations.

In this episode, we talk about:
– why comparison is killing kids' confidence (and the bird analogy that changes everything)
– how social media is making children feel like they're never enough
– why nerves are just excitement you haven't learned to trust yet
– teaching kids that their best is their best (and it doesn't need to match anyone else's)
– the power of compliments, even when they feel cringy
– why you can't be your strongest until you admit weakness
– celebrating looking silly as part of the process
– stop saying sorry for things you're not sorry for
– passing responsibility, making excuses, and over explaining yourself
– why girls are often easier to coach (and what that tells us)
– the invisible pressure kids carry to make their parents proud
– screen time, parenting effort, and the sacrifice that's needed
– how confidence is bred from parents, not found on a pitch
– why he's raising £1 million for Young Lives vs Cancer

This conversation is honest, grounding, and full of lessons that apply far beyond the football pitch. For anyone raising kids, coaching them, or just trying to understand what they're quietly carrying, this one will stay with you.

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She didn't know she was ADHD until the psychologist assessing her son turned to her and said, "So you've obviously been diagnosed."

Hester Grainger is a former TV and BBC Radio presenter, certified ADHD coach, and co-founder of Perfectly Autistic. She's also a mum to two neurodivergent teens, married to a neurodivergent partner, and didn't realise she was ADHD herself until her 40s.

In this episode, we talk about:
– the moment she was diagnosed (and why no one was surprised)
– raising two autistic ADHD children without knowing she was neurodivergent herself
– masking, performing, and the burnout that comes when you stop
– why perimenopause can be the moment the wheels fall off
– locking herself in the toilet just to breathe
– navigating meltdowns, sensory overload, and big emotions as a family
– the guilt of looking back and realising what you didn't know
– why her 16 year old was told "you don't look autistic"
– how she and her husband built a strong partnership through chaos
– setting boundaries, choosing your battles, and raising kind humans
– the invisible load of parenting neurodivergent kids
– what workplaces actually get wrong (and what they can do better)
– why so many women are blowing up their lives in their 40s

This conversation is honest, grounding, and full of insight. For anyone navigating neurodiversity, motherhood, identity, or just trying to work out what the hell is going on underneath the surface, this one will stay with you.

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She walked away from £24 million.
Two weeks before giving birth.

Sedge Beswick is a founder, former CEO, and one of the most honest voices on what it actually costs to build a business, become a mother, and decide what matters most when the two collide.

In this episode, we talk about:
– why she turned down a multimillion pound deal days before her due date
– the invisible pressure to work like you don't have kids and parent like you don't have a career
– responding to Slack messages in the labour ward
– sobbing uncontrollably on her first day back in the office
– stepping away from the business she founded to reclaim time with her daughters
– why confidence is sold to women as something we lack, not something we already have
– how ambition doesn't die in the delivery room but identity, time, and clarity all shift
– being told she "ruined it for women" because she chose motherhood over an exit
– the millennial career crisis and why quitting isn't failure
– financial freedom, shared parenting, and setting boundaries that actually work

This conversation is raw, grounding, and unapologetically real.

For anyone navigating ambition, motherhood, identity, or the messy middle of all three, this one will stay with you.

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If you've ever handed your partner a list and felt quietly furious that you had to write it in the first place — this one's for you.

Alex Trippier is a couples coach, host of the Be a Happier Parent podcast, and a dad who spent years studying why parenthood quietly dismantles relationships from the inside out. In this episode we get into cognitive labour and why your brain genuinely cannot switch off, the bumbler versus superhero parent dynamic, weaponised incompetence, and his concept of relationship prehab — the conversations you need to have before the resentment fully beds in.

Honest, research-backed, and the episode you'll be sending to your partner by the end.

Find Alex at @alextrippier on Instagram and his podcast Be a Happier Parent wherever you listen.

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You can look like you’ve got it together…
and still feel like you’re quietly unravelling.

You’re showing up.
You’re doing everything.
You’re functioning.

But underneath?
It feels heavy.
Overwhelming.
Like you’re just about holding it all together.

In this episode, I’m joined by psychologist Dr Tuesday Watts to unpack what’s actually going on beneath the surface.

We talk about:
– why so many women feel overwhelmed (even when life “looks fine”)
– the mental and emotional load no one sees
– why high-functioning women often feel the worst internally
– how shame quietly sits underneath it all
– and why this isn’t about coping better… but understanding what you’re carrying

This isn’t surface-level advice.
It’s language for something a lot of women are feeling… but can’t quite explain.

If you’ve ever thought:
“Why does this feel so hard when I should be fine?”

This one’s for you.

🎧 Listen now

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Motherhood, identity, exhaustion, intimacy-and the body that no longer feels familiar.

This episode of Motherloading explores postpartum body grief-the side of motherhood that often goes unspoken. After the baby arrives and the outside world moves on, many women are left navigating a body that feels different, a mind under pressure, and an identity that is shifting in unexpected ways.

Topics covered include:

• Postpartum body image and identity loss
• The disconnect between mental strength and physical recovery
• Hormonal changes, brain fog, and emotional overwhelm
• Sex, intimacy, and relationships after children
• The invisible mental and emotional load of motherhood
• Why “I’m fine” often hides a deeper struggle

This is an honest look at matrescence-the transition into motherhood-and the physical, emotional, and psychological changes that come with it.

For anyone who has looked in the mirror and felt like a stranger, this conversation offers reassurance: this experience is more common than it seems.

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She built a 6-figure brand by talking about poo.

But the real story is even better.

This week on Motherloading, we’re joined by Joely Gabrielle, former Head of Beauty at Grazia and now co-founder of gut health brand We Are Regular.

In just five weeks after launch, the brand hit six figures — by tackling one of women’s last taboos: talking openly about poo.

But this conversation goes far beyond gut health.

We talk about:

• traumatic pregnancy and postnatal anxiety
• the identity crisis of motherhood
• leaving a safe corporate career
• launching a business with your best friend
• building something ambitious while raising a child
• being pregnant again while scaling a startup

Plus we introduce a new Motherloading segment — The Load Audit — exploring the invisible mental, emotional and ambition load women carry.

Funny, honest and wildly relatable — this episode is for anyone navigating the messy middle of motherhood, ambition and starting again.

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After a break, Motherloading is back.

In this opening episode of Season 2, Nicky and Michelle catch up on everything that’s happened behind the scenes — from new babies and body changes to burnout, relationship strain, identity shifts and one huge career decision.

Nicky opens up about quietly hitting a wall, questioning everything, and ultimately quitting her high-paying corporate job after realising the invisible load had become too heavy to carry.

Michelle shares what early motherhood with Devin has really felt like, from unexpected calm to body confidence struggles, mental load and learning how to protect her peace.

Together, they unpack the messy middle of modern motherhood — the part nobody really talks about.

In this episode:

• the invisible load women carry every day
• body grief after kids
• relationships, libido and resentment
• burnout, hormones and feeling unlike yourself
• career pivots, self-doubt and the millennial identity crisis
• why season 2 of Motherloading is going deeper than ever

This isn’t just a podcast about parenting. It’s about identity, ambition, intimacy and power — and everything women are carrying underneath the surface.

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Welcome back to another episode of Motherloading with hosts Nicky and Michelle - and this one is a special one.

In this Season 1 finale, we’re waving goodbye to an unforgettable year as we close out 2025 by celebrating the journey, the growth, and the community that has formed around Motherloading. This highlights episode brings together the very best moments from the season - from tears and vulnerability to uncontrollable laughter and empowering conversations.

These clips capture exactly what Motherloading is all about: raw honesty, emotional depth, humour, resilience, and female empowerment. It’s a reflection of the courage it takes to have the conversations women aren’t having enough of - and the impact those conversations can make when shared openly.

This episode is also a moment to acknowledge the hard work, determination, and heart Nicky and Michelle have poured into building a podcast that feels like a safe space - one where women feel seen, heard, and supported.

Whether you’ve listened from day one or you’re just discovering Motherloading, this finale is the perfect reminder of why honest storytelling and community matter. A celebration of motherhood, womanhood, and everything in between - and just the beginning of what’s to come.

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