So today's moving day, I'll have a bit more space. I think it'll be a noisy space. I don't think with my hypersensitivity, I'll be happy with the space. But I also see my ungrateful bitchiness coming through. So we'll see how it goes, this mess will be, at least in a bigger space. The moving process is slow going. I think I strained my back a little bit. And I'm a little bit sick, I started to get sick yesterday, my throat, kind of a bit of a fever. But usually when I get sick, it's not too bad. And I haven't taken any brain guest rodon or CDP calling for two days because I ran out and I'm not going to replace them until closer to the time that I'm supposed to start going downhill again. When it seems my brain cells start to die back and go into past past stuff. And tomorrow will be the last day of CDP calling, which I'm also not going to replace because those three are kind of on the more expensive side. So to keep track, I made a note in iCal to buy them a month before the eight and a half month mark. And I'm pretty sure that mark is mid April. So starting the mid March or something like that, which isn't that far away. And the other thing I've been trying to do lately is relax my face. I'm getting this like big scour line, which not only is kind of icky, but it's sort of indicative of being angry or something. And I remember when I was in the hospital of April, in April 2016, when I was put on those anti psychotics, I was really holding a lot here and I took a picture of myself and it was really pronounced. And then I realized, well, I'm taking those anti psychotics every night 50 milligrams of Cotai been so that's probably contributing to that tension. So I didn't really think I was holding tension there. But I can release that tension whenever I put attention in that area, which is probably quite a few times a day just remembering to relax. And I find when I do that, when I relax, it's a little harder to open my eyes, I feel kind of like my eyes are looking down more and just relaxed. And then to actually lift them as harder than if I'm kind of like focusing and lifting my eyes. And why is this important? Well, how we hold our bodies kind of is mirrored and indicative of our internal state.

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