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October 27 12. THE ROOT OF BITTERNESS – UNFORGIVENESS OF THE HEART / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
THE ROOT OF BITTERNESS - UNFORGIVENESS OF THE HEART / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION Episode 12
Trapped by Unforgiveness
Fences and defenses
Walls and hurtful words
We think they will protect us from the pain
Closing off all avenues
Shutting off our love
Never will we be so hurt again
Locked within our fortress
Isolation reigns
Loneliness becomes our closest friend
Withdrawal and rejection
Bitterness and hate
Trapped by Unforgiveness in the end
THE ROOT OF BITTERNESS - UNFORGIVENESS OF THE HEART Episode 12
THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
Hebrews 12:14-15 (KJV)
“Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord; Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;”
I was here. In this place of Brokenness, in this place of Bitterness. Trapped by Unforgiveness in the end. After years of living with this Raging Angel,14 years,15 years,16 years, I lost heart, and I lost hope, and I harbored Hatred in my heart. I hated this man whom I had married. I hated myself for marrying him. I hated God’s plan for my life! What was this Life, anyway?
I hated my testimony. I hated my story. I was ashamed of being THIS person. I was ashamed of marrying someone who screamed, and raged, at me all the time. I was ashamed in front of my friends. I was ashamed in front of my family. I was ashamed in front of my church. I WAS the SHAME of my husband. Voiceless.
This was what I had chosen. This Person. This Man. This man, who called himself a Believer, and wanted to be an Evangelist, yet took the LORD’s Name in vain, every day. This man, who spoke to me with disdain, every day. This man, who called himself a Believer, yet was the ultimate Deceiver, who manipulated, abused, and controlled me? I couldn’t believe this was happening to me. What had I Believed? I had been Deceived. This was my Life. What was I to do?
He was taken captive by him at the devil’s will. (2 Timonthy 2:26) I was beaten by his own Bitterness. I was resented by his own Rebellion. I was attacked by his own Anger. I was ravaged by his own Rage. I was victimized by his own Violence. I was murdered with the Slander of his own tongue. I was caught in the overflow of his own Unforgiveness. The Hatred he harbored in his own heart. Spewing itself all over me. I was living inside his private Hell with him. I was living within a Spiritual Battle of Bitterness.
There was a Spiritual Battle raging all around me, Raging at me, invisible forces of Evil that I couldn’t Name. How could I have known my Enemy? How could I have seen my perpetrator was The Principality of Bitterness?
UNFORGIVENESS AND A ROOT OF BITTERNESS
I was living in Violent conditions. A Spirit of Violence. I was living within a Raging Spiritual Battle. A Spirit of Rage. I was living in a whirlwind spewing Hatred. A Spirit of Hate. It was a Spiritual Attack of the enemy. A Spiritual Root of Bitterness. I was SEEING EVIL, SEEING SIN, and KNOWING SIN coming against me, but I believed it was coming from an Evil man. It was a Spiritual Battle.
At the beginning of THE BROKENNESS, at the beginning of the Abuse, I Believed he was a GOOD Man who was occasionally BAD tempered. At the end of things, I Believed he was a BAD Man who was incapable of doing GOOD.
I lived in FEAR of a man I was supposed to LOVE. I couldn’t LOVE him. I became The BITTER. I became The HATER. He became my Enemy.
When someone VIOLATES US we make him, or her, Evil along with the Evil they have done to us. We see the person AS EVIL, and the person becomes our Enemy. We are not able to separate the person who is bringing our pain, from the pain of their SIN.
So, we are unable to Forgive. However, their SIN is our Enemy, NOT THEM. Their SIN is our Enemy, not them. We have not seen our invisible Spiritual Battle.
When we are in conflict with one another, I am NOT your enemy. When you are in conflict with someone who is in front of you, stirring up dissension, or discord, and giving you grief, MAKING you want to get Angry, he, or she, is NOT your enemy. Your partner is NOT your enemy, and you are NOT his.
When we separate ourselves, and confess, repent, and turn from our sins, we are forgiven. The ENEMY rallies against us, TEMPTING us to choose to walk in disobedience to God’s Law, and to follow the Law of Sin.
God allows us to reap the consequences of sin in our lives, still. We can be sinning Saints, or sinning Sinners, and have the same Disease in our bodies, because we are following, and serving the same SIN. God will always honor His Word.
Jeremiah 2:9, 17-19 KJV
9 Wherefore I will yet plead with you, saith the Lord, and with your children's children will I plead.
17 Hast thou not procured this unto thyself, in that thou hast forsaken the Lord thy God, when he led thee by the way?
18 And now what hast thou to do in the way of Egypt, to drink the waters of Sihor? or what hast thou to do in the way of Assyria, to drink the waters of the river?
19 Thine own wickedness shall correct thee, and thy backslidings shall reprove thee: know therefore and see that it is an evil thing and bitter, that thou hast forsaken the Lord thy God, and that my fear is not in thee, saith the Lord God of hosts.
In the Book of Jereremiah, Jeremiah tells us we have brought this upon ourselves, because we have FORSAKEN the Lord, our God. He tells us, our own Wickedness will correct us, and our Backslidings will rebuke us. We will Reap the conequences our SIN, Emotionally, Physically, and Spiritually. We will also KNOW and SEE it as an EVIL and BITTER thing, when we have forsaken the Lord, when the FEAR OF GOD is not in us.
You must be able to SEPARATE people from their SIN. We were not created by God with Sin. We were created by God as Saints, Holy, and Beautiful before Him Eternally. We have Become separated from Him because of The Brokenness, because of SIN. SIN SEPARATES.
You are His Beautiful Believer, yet even as Believers, after we are converted through Faith in Jesus Christ, we still need to learn about Sin, and the hold it has on our lives, and the Process of The Sanctification of the Heart.
We need to learn to walk in THE BEAUTIFUL. The Beautiful is The Word of God. The Beautiful is the Will of God. The Beautiful is having a Spiritually Transformed Mindset, rather than The Brokenness we have Believed, and Become. This is why I am teaching you, so you can KNOW and SEE the Truth, the Truth to set you FREE.
THE PRINCIPALITY OF BITTERNESS
Bitterness is a Principality of the Enemy. We open the door to Bitterness in our lives when we choose not to forgive. Bitterness is the number-one Spiritual Root that produces toxicity in our bodies at the cellular level, opening the door to disease. Namely Cancer. Unforgiveness is the number-one Block to healing.
Bitterness is a Principality, under it and answering to it are 7 spirits.
1. Unforgiveness. When the root of bitterness in Hebrews gets a foothold, the first thing that happens is a record of wrongs. Unforgiveness recalls every bad thing that someone ever did to you and brings it up to your remembrance. Flashbacks of things that this person did to you.
2. Resentment. Resentment is the record of wrongs being fueled by feelings of holding onto it and starting to meditate on it. We think of him in our mind, it we hold it in our heart. Resentment is a spiritual problem. This is what separates us from others and is the foundation of fear, which may come as fear of man, fear of rejection, fear of failure, and fear of abandonment. We begin to hide.
3. Retaliation. After resentment has started to simmer, we find ways to get back at the person who caused us our pain. Retaliation wants to make the person pay for what they have done and feel the pain we suffered.
4. Anger. After retaliation gets a foothold, then anger starts to set in. Unforgiveness, resentment and retaliation have been building and now a strong feeling of anger comes.
5. Hatred. After anger sets in, there comes hatred. Hatred says this: “Because I’m remembering what you did to me, I’ve been meditating on it, I resent it, I’m going to get even. Hatred says you have no reason to exist and I cannot stand to be around you. Hatred begins to go into the elimination mode.
6. Violence. After hatred comes violence. Violence says this: “Before I eliminate you, you are going to feel my pain. You are going to hear my voice. You are going to know my hatred. You are going to experience it.
7. Murder. Once violence erupts, the final fruit of bitterness is murder. This can be physical murder or murder with the tongue, which is character assassination or verbal abuse. When hatred and murder and violence are in someone’s life, they feel they are justified and everybody else is going to pay the price.
The Root of Bitterness is the Spiritual Principality. Each one of the 7 spirits after it, is progressively worse than the one preceding it.
REPENTANCE, FORGIVENESS AND PEACE
Believe the Beautiful!
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October 08 11. THE UNBELIEVING BELIEVER / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
THE UNBELIEVING BELIEVER Episode 11 THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
Contemplation of My Lot
I am not of noble birth, nor am I of any esteeming, so where did the idea of being deserving of anything other than the lot I have come to mind? Being so romantically inclined, I believe I thought it all up myself, seeing as that is what my heart desired, I created a dream of what life would become for me.
A heart of poetry, of romance, would create nothing less than the perfect love. And someone as fragile as I could never have imagined being shattered so by the harshness of humanity. However, life is filled with tragedy and what would a true love story be without one?
My tragedy, however, begins at the beginning. The Wedding- a dreamers dream, the climax in the first chapter, only to be followed by blow after blow of despair. The frailty of my poetic heart was unable to withstand the hard truth of my reality. My joy fell silent. I died inside, with every coarse word like a sword dashing against my soul, ripping away my hope, my love, my dreams. I built a wall of disappointments so high I cannot see over.
All I had prayed for tragically lost before our love could even begin. And myself now locked in a story I never intended on being in. I am trapped alone, with my God as my only comfort, inside a covenant that can never be broken.
Seeing however, that God created me to be as fragile and as poetic as I am so inclined to be, it puzzles me that He brought me to this place, knowing full well that the weight of it would crush my spirit. Nevertheless, I live the life that was given me, yet I am less than I used to be. I continue on, as does each day, and I feel myself passionately awaken inside only as I see another in love. Yet the sorrow of my soul overwhelms me as I long for that same experience. So I look away, and I lock away my tears and continue on my path.
I had so much passion that is dead now… lost with my dreams. My solace, my refuge, is in the Lord. He alone can save me. He alone can restore this Broken vessel that He made to pour out His love. He is with me to feel my pain, to sense my loss. He has felt the pain of death for me. He has felt the sorrow of death in me.
I cannot believe, however, that this torment of despair is God’s ultimate purpose for me. But then again every life has its’ pain to cause us to come to Him. As we are then baptized into His sufferings we too can be comforted by His love. We can then reach out past our pain, through our pain, to comfort others in their pain.
With this in mind I pray, less fervently for lack of energy, less faithfully for lack of hope, despairingly because it’s been so long.
THE UNBELIEVING BELIEVER Episode 11
THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
The Unbelieving Believer. What is an Unbelieving Believer? How is there such a Saint? Why do we know, and not see? Why do we see, and not know? How do we SEE the sincerity of the HEART of a Saint?
How can we KNOW the heartfelt Belief of a Believer? We cannot Know. We cannot See.
God Knows. God Sees. God Loves anyway
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Proverbs 18:14 King James Version (KJV)
14 The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity; but a wounded spirit who can bear?
We have lived the Broken. We have believed the Brokenness. We have Become the Brokenness we Believe. We have borne the Burden of the Broken before us. We have borne the Burden of the Broken among us. We have borne the Burden of the Broken around us. We are The Broken.
As a Broken Body of Believers, we have seen and have lost loved ones, suffer and die, in Sickness and Disease. We have seen our Churches separate, isolate, and dissipate, because of multiple Seasons of Suffering, serving the Brokenness of the Pandemic, and now living in its’ aftermath. We are living in constant Crisis, in constant Chaos, in constant Crushing.
We have seen our World change before our eyes, from what it was, to what it is today. We have on-line Church services and Zoomathon businesses. We have All Aloners, Stay at Homers, and Midnight Groaners. We have Lonesome Lovers, Worried Mothers, and Gambling Gamers. We have Hopeless Haters, Destructive Dangers, and Arising Abusers.
We have seen horrible happenings in our Homes. We have witnessed Death and Destruction on our streets. Hospitals overcrowded and overrun with The Rampant, and Raging Rona, and the Rules, and regulations regarding it. All keeping Loved-Ones away from family, at their most frustrating, fragile, and failing moment. Now, suffering the aftermath of illegal issues of the Laws Broken, and of Victims Voices.
We have seen Flags burning and Riots raging on University campuses, with the Flaming Violence of Antisemitism rampant across our Lands. We have seen Rules and Borders Broken, Drug overdosing, Violence winning, Death and flagrant Killing. We have seen Lawlessness arising, our Constitution crashing, and Assasination attempts with no Defense.
We have seen Out-of-Control, flaming, Furious Fires bringing destruction across the Globe. We have seen Heat of epic proportions and Winter’s frigid, freezing Cold. We have seen Tornadoes tearing up towns, and Hurricanes on our Harbors. We have seen skyrocketing Prices arise, causing shortages of our Supplies. We have seen Wars waging and gas prices soaring right before our eyes.
We have been beaten down by the News. We have been torn down, attacked, and Accused. We have been beaten down by the very words, or lack thereof, of Parishioners, of Pastors, of Preachers, of Parents, and of Pew sitters. We have seen Major Preachers steeped in Sin, stepping down from the Pulpit again, and again. We have lost Hope, and we have lost Heart. We have lost Faith. Surrounded by Unbelieving Believers, we have lost our Way.
In the middle of our Pain, a pain that happens over, and over again, we turn away from God. We stop Believing. And when we stop Believing, we Stop. We stop, whatever it was we had hope for. We stop Seeking. We stop Asking. We stop Trying. We stop Doing. We stop Praying. We stop Believing, even in ourselves. Especially, in ourselves.
We stop Believing in a God, we cannot See, or Feel, or Hear, and we begin Believing the Brokenness we are experiencing, that is VERY real, that we can SEE, FEEL, and HEAR. We turn our heart in Unbelief. We turn our heart to Unbelief, becoming Unbelieving Believers. Where is God?
Psalm 34:18
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Matthew 22:37-40 KJV
“Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.”
SEPARATION IN RELATIONSHIP
This is God’s Command to us, to walk in LOVE. On these two Commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets. When we can actually do this, we are walking in Obedience to THE LAW OF GOD, and we are fulfilling The Law. Can you see why Satan works so hard to separate us, keeping us Isolated, independent, out of fellowship, and away from the Body of Christ? This is what has happened. We are out of RELATIONSHIP. We are out of Relationship. We are out of Covenant.
DISEASE that has a SPIRITUAL ROOT begins with SEPARATION on three levels:
• Separation from God and His Word, His Person and His Love
• Separation from yourself by not Loving yourself, not Accepting yourself, having Guilt, Shame, Self-Rejection and Self-Condemnation
• Separation from others by Breaches of Relationship
BAD ROOTS REAP BAD FRUITS
Bad Roots reap Bad Fruits. This is a Spiritual Issue of the Heart. Satan is harvesting Disease in our Physical bodies NOW, because he planted Bad Roots A LONG TIME AGO into our hearts. We have chosen to follow THE LAW OF SIN instead of following THE LAW OF GOD. “The Root” of the Disease would be the Sin Issue behind it. The Root would be the “Cause”. The Bad Fruit that grows from Bad Root is the Disease manifesting.
Bad Roots of:
-Ungodly Belief Systems
-Learned Wrong Thinking from our Parents
-Stinkin’ Thinkin’ - Lies about God, Lies about ourselves, Lies about others, planted by our Spiritual enemy, we have listened to and chosen to Believe
-Lack of Ability to Discern our Spiritual Battle
We haven’t realized the ‘Patterns of Sin’ we have fallen into. We haven’t realized we have been shutting out God, or shutting out others, or shutting ourselves away, in order to protect ourselves. We haven’t realized that we have chosen another Way, instead of God’s Way, because it is our Way. It is who we have BECOME. It is our personality.
We haven’t realized we have become Judge. We haven’t realized we have become our Parents. We haven’t realized we have become Self-Critical to the point of Depression and Disease. We haven’t realized our own Anger is affecting us on the inside. We haven’t realized the Bitterness of our Hearts, is manifesting as Cancer in our Bodies. We haven’t realized we are in a Spiritual Battle. We are where we are because of our own Lack of Knowledge.
Hosea 4:6 KJV
“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children.”
FORGETTING THE LAW OF GOD
My Beloved, Beautiful Brothers and Beautiful Sisters, who are Unbelieving in your Heart today. We have often, forgotten our way as Sons and Daughters, of the Most High God. We lose sight of the Truth of God and who He is, in the midst of the pain of our Past, in the midst of the pain of our Present, in the midst of pain of the Pandemic, in the midst of the pain of the Process.
We have lost our way, because we have not known our way. When we feel we are lost in the Wilderness, doing lap, after lap, after lap, we often have complained Bitterly, and have turned our Hearts away. We have turned our Hearts away, from Him. Many of you are in another Wilderness, right now. Don’t turn your Heart away from the Heart of Heaven. He is your Healer.
God KNOWS us, God SEES us, and God LOVES us. God wants to be Reconciled to every Beautiful, one of us. We are forgetting the Goodness of God. God WANTS TO HEAL. This is the HEALING HEART OF HEAVEN. God can Heal your Woundedness, and Brokenness, too. He can Heal Your Broken Heart. Forgive me for Forgetting, Father. Forgive me for Forgetting.
HEALING THROUGH RESTORATION
The beginning of all HEALING is RESTORATION.
1. Coming back into Alignment with God, and into right relationship with God, His Word, His Person, His Nature and His precepts, and what He planned for you on this earth since the Beginning of Time.
2. Accepting Yourself in your relationship with God. Getting rid of your Self-Hatred, getting rid of your Self-Bitterness, getting rid of your Guilt, and coming back in Line with who you are in the Father, through Jesus Christ.
3. Making peace with your Brother, your Sister, and all others, if at all possible.
RESTORATION!
GOD IS LOVE.
1 John 4:16
And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love: and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.
Ephesians 3:14-19
King James Version
14 For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
15 Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,
16 That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;
17 That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,
18 May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;
19 And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.
I am A Silhouette of Suffering. I am A Survivor. I am A Warrior. To know the Father’s LOVE. This is the Heart of Heaven, for the whole Family of God. I repented of my Unbelief, and I began to Believe again, the Truth about His Character. Once we can BELIEVE the Truth about God’s Character, we can begin to receive His LOVE, and to accept His Sovereignty in our lives, whatever our circumstances may be. We can BELIEVE again! We can RECEIVE again! We can LOVE again! And we can BE HEALED again! Father, FORGIVE ME FOR FORGETTING!
Forgive Me For Forgetting
Forgive me for forgetting
The Beauty that You are
Forgive me for forgetting
The King who holds the stars
Forgive me for forgetting
The Masterpiece You made
Forgive me for forgetting
The Foundation that You laid
Forgive me for forgetting
The Miracles You wrought
Forgive me for forgetting
The Sacrifice You brought
Forgive me for forgettiing
The Blessings of Your hand
Forgive me for forgetting
The Greater Master plan
Forgive me for forgetting
The Salvation of the King
Forgive me for forgetting
The Freedoms that You bring
Forgive me for forgetting
The Love Eternally
Forgive me for forgetting
The Life You gave for me
Believe the Beautiful!
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September 30 10. BEARING THE BURDEN OF THE BROKEN / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
BEARING THE BURDEN OF THE BROKEN Episode 10 THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
Arise. Survive. A Thorn in My Side.
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2 Corinthians 12:5-10 NKLV
5 Of such a one I will boast; yet of myself I will not boast, except in my infirmities. 6 For though I might desire to boast, I will not be a fool; for I will speak the truth. But I refrain, lest anyone should think of me above what he sees me to be or hears from me.
7 And lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to [a]buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. 8 Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. 9 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Arise. Survive. A thorn in my side.
The Lord is calling me to “Arise”
yet has allowed “A Thorn in my side”
A Raging pain with no relief
A Burning bone bringing great grief
A Battle to rise above Brokenness
Learning to walk in total trust
Fighting through the heartbreak of
The desperate Fire of Heaven’s Love
Arise. Survive. A thorn in my side.
A Battle I’ve been through before
Waiting helpless before you Lord
Remembering that abusive place
Daily falling on my on my face
Struggling to walk or even breathe
Until you helped me finally leave
Rescued from my prison cell
Emancipated from a Raging Hell
Arise. Survive. A thorn in my side.
A Battle I’ve been through before
Fighting yet a different War
Chemo. Radiation. Surgeries.
Desperately calling me to my knees
Raging deep inside my chest
Diving deep within your depths
Bringing Death into your Life
Defeating Cancer and Bitter Strife
Arise. Survive. A thorn in my side.
A Battle I’ve been through before
Learning to walk yet Still the roar
Racing thoughts within my head
Trauma’d Brain tied me to bed
Disabling Disease to face me first
Lost within a symptoms' Curse
Defeating Darkness in my Mind
Rescued in your perfect Time
Arise. Survive. A thorn in my side.
A Battle You’ve been through before
Teaching me to Win the war
Carrying me through my Battles of grief
Breathing your LIFE to bring relief
Delivering me from a Desperate place
Rescuing me from Hell’s Embrace
Suffering Hell that I might Survive
Saving my Life from A thorn in my side.
Arise. Survive. A thorn in my side.
Bearing the Burden of The Broken
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Days turn to Weeks, and Weeks turn to Months, and as I bear weight for the first time on my Broken Leg, I realize that all that was there is gone. The strength I had is lost.
My foundation of stability has been shattered. The muscles that give me the ability to walk, the ability of mobility, have left the building, lying in a bed of immobility. I am bearing the burden of the Broken.
Living Broken breads Barrenness. Living Broken breads Brokenness.
Living Broken breads Breathlessness. Living Broken breads Restlessness.
Everyone bearing the weight of my Burden, bearing the weight of my Brokenness, bearing the weight of me, unable to bear my own weight, is weighing heavily as a Burden. Bearing the Burden of the Broken, Is weighing heavily as a Burden, on those who are bearing the weight, I cannot bear on my own, I cannot bear alone.
It becomes Unbearable. It becomes a Burden. I become a Burden.
The weight I bear on this Broken leg is unbearable. Bearing the weight to Walk is unbearable. But bearing the weight, is the only way to Build.
Bearing the weight is the only way to build Bone, to build Muscle, to build Strength. Bearing the burden of the Broken, is the only way to Build the Body.
Bearing the burden of the Broken, is the only way to Build the Body of Christ.
BEARING THE BURDEN OF THE BROKEN Episode 10
THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
My Beautiful Believer, as a Broken body of Believers, we are all Bearing the burden of the Broken. We are Suffering the Sins of our Fathers. We are listening to the lies we are living in. We are Weary and Wounded Warriors. We are Spiritually Sick Soldiers. We are Physically Broken Believers. We are unable to bear the burden of the Broken in the Body of Christ around us, because we are The BROKEN.
What Burden are you bearing? The shame of a Mother’s Scorn? The Depression of a desperate place? The Unloveliness of your loneliness? The Rejection of your reality? The Bitterness of your bondage? The Sorrow of suffering Sickness? The Disappointment of another Diagnosis? The Anger of your Abuse? The Grief of your greatest loss? The Rebellion of your Restitution?
We cannot see The Beautiful, because we are blinded by our Brokenness. We cannot see GOD through our GRIEF. We harbor HATRED in our Hearts. We hold onto UNFORGIVENESS and we BECOME The Broken. We become The BITTER. Our Hurts are never Healed. Our Hearts are never Healed.
We have BECOME The BROKEN, and we LIVE the LIE, and Believe it. NOW, we are the BROKENNESS we BELIEVE. We are the BROKENNESS we BREATHE. And we are Spiritually Bearing the burden of The Broken, before us.
We Become the Shame of our Mother’s scorn, and now we are The scorning Mother Shaming our children. We Become The Depression. We Become The Unloving. We Become The Rejection. We Become The Bitter. The Sorrowful. The Angry. The Grief Stricken. The Rebellious. The Hater.
We BECOME the SIN that has come against us. We become ONE with that SIN and we BELIEVE it. We are now BEARING THE BURDEN OF THE BROKEN. We are Spiritually Reaping the Fruit of the seeds that have been sown into our own Hearts. The seeds of Dis-cord, the seeds of Dis-trust, the seeds of Dis-harmony, the seeds of Dis-ease. The seeds of Spiritual Death.
Can you SEE? Look and SEE the SEEDS. The SEEDS of Unrighteousness. The SEEDS of Sin. The SEEDS of The Curse.
Genesis 3:15
15 And I will put enmity Between you and the woman, 
And between your seed and her Seed; 
He shall bruise your head,
 And you shall bruise His heel.”
We have BECOME the same SIN that came against us. We have becorne the Fruit of the Spiritual SEED, Satan has sown into our heart, over, and over, again. We have Believed it. We have Agreed with it. We have become ONE with it in our Heart.
Believe the Beautiful!
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April 16 8. BELIEVING BROKENNESS / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
BELIEVING BROKENNESS Episode 8
THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
LIFE AMONG THE ASHES
The Paths that we oft’ travel 
are full of loss and pain 
The Hearts of all the Broken 
cry tears that fall like rain
It seems we are surrounded  
by Death at every door
 And Hope beyond the turmoil
 is what we’re searching for
Lost, with no direction
 isolated by our pain 
we hide within our Loneliness
 and feed our sense of Shame
Desperate in our Darkness
 we search for meaning there 
We feel Anger and Confusion 
How could a Good God care?
How can we find rejoicing 
amidst these trials of grief? 
How do we mend our Brokenness? 
When will we find relief?
When finally we reach our end 
and look to find the Light 
God’s beams of Love pour down on us  
and hold us in our Fight
Bridges of Compassion  
reaching over thorny trails 
bring comfort to our empty souls 
His Hands first bore the nails
Our Grief He took upon Himself 
our Sin and Sickness too  
He took our Shame upon the Cross
 He carried these for you
Life among the Ashes
 begins with just one Breath
 A gift from our Creator 
Overcoming Death!
For in this Breath, this moment 
we are given Life and Choice 
Our Suffering and Sorrow
will never steal our Voice
Compassion for the Hurting
 is the Prize we will receive 
And Passion with a Purpose 
to help Rescue those in need
BELIEVING BROKENNESS Episode 8
THE BROKENNESS - Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual CONDITION
We live in a world of Brokenness. Broken Relationships, Broken Lives, and Broken Hearts all have affected our ability to experience God’s LOVE in the midst of our own Suffering circumstances. We are Spiritually Blind. We are Living The Broken. We are Believing Brokenness. We Believe it with our whole Heart. It is all we KNOW. It is WHO we are. It is who we have BECOME.
Our Brokenness defines us. It is our Story. It is our History. Our Brokenness becomes who we define ourselves to BE. It is what we have overcome; the Battles we have fought, the Battles we have been bruised, or beaten by. The Battles we still bear.
It is the secret Scar that is never shared, but is always present. It is the failures of our Past, the furious fight for our Future. It is the Giant Goliath we meet in the mirror every morning, and yet we see it as ourselves.
We know nothing apart from it. We are the Brokenness we Believe in our Heart. It is the Pain that pushes us forward on a path to restitution, or to resolution. It becomes our Identity, Righteous or not. We are Believing Brokenness. We own it. And yet, we can have Victory over it.
The Sufferings we suffer, become the Brokenness we Believe. We live, and Breathe, the Battles we fight. They are the passion of our Purpose. We live within an Abusive place, stealing our face, stealing our Voice. We live within an Invisible War, against the Traumas we have survived in silence.
We live within the symptoms of a Sickness. We deal daily with a diagnosis of a Disorder, or a Disease. We are defined by our own survival. We are Survivors. We are Warriors. Yet, we are weary of the War. The War becomes the weapon we are crushed under.
We live within the sufferings of a Broken Body, or a broken Bone, isolated, and battling the fight all alone. Waiting for recovery, and trapped in a place of Brokenness, often leading to Hopelessness. Crushed by the crushing. We live, and Breathe, and Believe Brokenness.
We have not understood the Spiritual Reality of the Brokenness we believe, nor have we known how to be beyond it. Therefore, as a Broken Body of Believers, we BECOME what we Believe. We stop Believing the Beautiful. We stop Believing in the Word of God. We stop believing in the Healing Heart of Heaven. And we hold Hatred in our Hearts
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We stop Believing the Beautiful, and we begin Believing Brokenness. We believe the Brokenness because we have lived the Brokenness. We BECOME what we Believe. We ARE what we Believe in our Hearts. “As a man thinketh in his heart so is he…” “As a woman thinketh in her heart, so is she.” Proverbs 23:7 (KJV)
We have become Spiritually Sick Soldiers. We have become Weary & Wounded Warriors. We have become Physically Broken Believers. We have become the Broken Body of Christ. We have BECOME what we BELIEVE in our Hearts.

We are hoping for our Healing, and yet we are not Healed. We are left hopeless in our Hearts. We are weary in well doing, because we are bearing the Burden of the Broken, and yet WE ARE The Broken.
We are Believing Brokenness. We have not understood the Spiritual Reality of our Brokenness. Therefore, we have not been Healed Emotionally. We have not been Healed Physically. We have not been Healed Spiritually.
We are Bound by it again, and again, and again. Trapped within the Bondage of our own symptoms. Suffering, and hating ourselves in our Hearts. Suffering, and hating God in our Hearts. Suffering, and separating ourselves from the LOVE of God, from the LOVE we so desperately desire.
We are suffering from Spiritual Blindness. We have not understood the Spiritual Reality of our Healing, even as Faithful Followers of Christ, therefore we are prayed for, and yet we are not Healed. We are anointed with oil, and yet we are not Healed. My Beautiful, beloved Pastors, Preachers, Ministers, and Teachers, in the Body of Christ, have not understood Spiritual Issues of the Heart, or Biblical Principles of Healing. They have not been taught. They have not Believed. They have not sought. They have not Received.
There are so many Beautiful Believers who are dying in their Disease. There are so many who are Living Broken in the Body of Christ who have left the Church. Hurt, disillusioned, disappointed, and Unbelieving. All because of a lack of understanding concerning HEALING within the Broken body of Christ. They have put their Hope in Man, rather than in God. They have put their Hope in Man’s Wisdom, rather than in GOD’S WORD.
All HEALING is Spiritual first. All LIFE begins and ends with God, therefore, all Healing begins and ends with God. This means ALL HEALING begins the same because Healing begins in the Heart. The Brokenness of our Hearts, the Brokenness of our Physical Bodies, and the Brokenness of the Spiritual Body of Christ, are all a result of own, and individual Brokenness. They all are the result of our own, and individual Spiritual Health.
We are Believing Brokenness. Our Brokenness is our truest reality in our Physical realm. Our Physical senses tell us this. Our Physical symptoms tell us this. Our Physical circumstances tell us this. Our Psychological screenings tell us this. Our Doctor’s Diagnoses tell us this. Our X-Rays tell us this. We are Broken, Physically, Emotionally, and Spiritually. We have become the Brokenness we Believe in our Hearts.
We Believe it. We Agree with it. We Receive it. And we are ONE with it. And the Deceiver whispers his lies in your ear…”You are Broken! Look at yourself! You will never Be Beautiful! You will never be truly Accepted! You will never be truly LOVED!” And you listen to the lies of Temptation, of Accusation, and of Rejection, and you believe his words over the Words of God, your beloved Crafter and Creator, who says, “You are My Beautiful Believer!”
You have become the Brokenness you Believe. As a devious Dart of the Enemy, pierces and penetrates the Heart, and has stolen what was rightfully yours: Love, Joy, Truth, Honor, Respect, Honesty, Purity, Beauty, Riches and Glory, Peace, Purpose, and Protection. LIFE. He stole LIFE. He stole the Unity, and Wholeness of Being ONE with Us, in Spirit, in Mind, and in Body. My intended Purpose. ONE with LOVE itself.
Instead you have become ONE with Sin. ONE with Sickness and Disease. ONE with Death. ONE with that which Separates you from Me. You have listened to the lies of The Brokenness, and you have become ONE with it, in Spirit, in Mind, and in Body.
It has become your First Truth. It has become your only Truth. Believing as Truth, what you can SEE rather than what you cannot SEE. Believing a LIE only leads to Death. Sin begets Sin. Brokenness begets Brokenness.
LOOK with the eyes of the Spirit. LISTEN to the Love in your heart. BELIEVE in the Hope of your Calling. Believe in Me. Believe My Word. Believe the Beautiful!
You are reaping the consequences of the SEED you have sewn. You are reaping the consequences of the Brokenness you have Believed. You are reaping the consequences of the very words you SPEAK, of whatever you BELIEVE, and Agree with in your heart.
Romans 10:8 (KJV)
8 But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach;
Romans 10:8 Tree of Life (TLV)
“But what does it say? The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart; that is the word of faith we are proclaiming:”
Luke 6:45 (KJV)
45 A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.
Proverbs 18:21 (KJV)
21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.
Romans 10:9-10 (KJV)
9 That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
10 For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
Mark 11:23 (KJV)
23 For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.
James 3:10 (KJV)
10 Out of the same mouth proceedeth blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not so to be.
Luke 4:38-39 (KJV)
38 And he arose out of the synagogue, and entered into Simon's house. And Simon's wife's mother was taken with a great fever; and they besought him for her.
39 And he stood over her, and rebuked the fever; and it left her: and immediately she arose and ministered unto them.
Romans 10:8 (TLV)
“But what does it say? The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart; that is the word of faith we are proclaiming:”
Psalm 34:11-14 (KJV)
11 Come, ye children, hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
12 What man is he that desireth life, and loveth many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile.
14 Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.
A Season of Sorrow
Sleepless nights beget me
Tears are a constant friend
You alone can change my course
When will this Season end?
Suffering now my companion
Grief sustains my heart
This is only the beginning
Of the painful lonely part
How am I Lord, to serve you?
In this desperate place of mine
Each day a physical struggle
To take one step of this climb
Body Broken and Battered
By wars to Heal my heart
Sanctification has marred me
Crippled now from the start
Wounded by an Enemy
A Spiritual Battle ensues
Listening to the lies of the lost
I’m captured by the muse
Battling scars of rejection
Loneliness tears me apart
Calling me to the knees my failures
Only Love can heal my heart
Lost in a Season of Sorrow
My Brokenness calls me to You
Restore the Joy of my Salvation
Father, hold me until Your through
Believe the Beautiful!
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April 14 7. THE BROKENNESS DEFINED / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION
THE BROKENNESS DEFINED Episode 7
THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION
Living Broken for Your Throne
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Who is it I’m supposed to be?
Reckless emotions mess with me
Plans I planned are all of naught
Nothing happened as I thought
Stripped out from beneath my feet
Hollowed bones need now to treat
Trampled, tripped up by my own
Whirling, crashing in my home
In an instant rush of pain
Living Broken once again
Your Beauty broken in a day.
Was I headed the wrong way?
Was I not supposed to teach?
Who am I supposed to reach?
Was I to sit and not to stand?
Apparently this is Your Hand.
Shamed within this Brokenness.
Brought back to my helplessness.
New scars now mark this fragile frame.
Sunken muscles. Almost lame.
Lost direction. Lost my voice.
Lost my witness. Lost my choice.
Lost my freedom in this place.
Bound by Brokenness, Hell’s embrace.
Suffering silence once and still.
Lost my Heart, my Hope, my Will.
Submitting to Your Sovereignty.
Is this, O LORD, My Destiny?
There is nothing that I hold
You are my Breath, my Life, my Gold
You alone hold me in place
Mended healed in Broken Space
My Brokenness is Yours to bear.
You alone can take me there.
You have suffered for my pain.
Make me strong to walk again.
By Your stripes I am made well.
Guard me from this living Hell.
One day down and three steps back.
Forgive me for the faith I lack.
The days I bathe myself in tears
Father take my pain, my hurt, my fears.
And when I shelter in Your Wing
Give me strength to soar again.
Lift me from this Broken place
Cover me with love and grace
Be the balm I need to Heal
Let your Beauty be revealed.
Hold me when I’m all alone.
Living Broken for Your Throne.
I give my life to Glorify.
To share Your Work and Testify.
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THE BROKENNESS DEFINED Episode 7
THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION
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The consequences of Adam and Eve’s Act of Disobedience brought with it, not only Spiritual Death, and Separation from God, but also brought with it the curses of Generational Sin, Pain, Sickness, Disease, and with it premature, or early Death, which we are ALL now suffering from on a Daily basis. We are reaping the consequences of our own Sins of Disobedience. We now live within this reality of BROKENNESS. It is a SPIRITUAL REALITY.
We now live within a Spiritual Battle within our Physical realm, in which we are Spiritually reaping the Consequences of our Physical choices. Obedience and Disobedience both have Spiritual consequences. We are always given a choice. Adam and Eve were given a choice. We reap the consequences of the SEED we sow.
SPIRITUAL BROKENNESS OUR NEW REALITY
There are Spiritual consequences of sowing and reaping, through our own actions of Obedience or Disobedience.
The Law of God has fruit.
The Law of Sin has fruit.
The fruit of obedience is Health…Life and Peace.
The fruit of disobedience is Disease and Death.
Following the Law of God produces Health.
Following the Law of Satan produces Disease.
We will follow one Law or the other. This is a Spiritual Truth. We bear the fruit of the Seed we sow, Good or Evil, Blessing or Cursing.
God did not give us Disease! Through the consequences of following the Law of Sin, we have reaped the fruit of Disease in our lives. We are going to reap the Consequences of one kingdom or the other. We are bearing the fruit of the Seeds we have sown, and we are bearing the fruit of The Sins of our Fathers. Spiritually.
Whenever we choose Death over Life, Disobedience over Obedience, we make Satan our lord in one area of our life, and we force God to withdraw from His lordship in that place. It is our Choice. God gives us free choice, and yet we each individually, reap the consequences, Physically, Emotionally, and Spiritually, of the choices, we each, individually, make.
I am responsible before God, for my own choices of Obedience or Disobedience. And no one else. You are responsible before God for your own choices of Obedience or Disobedience. And no one else.
We have learned, our Invisible Enemy still deceives us now, through Thoughts and Impressions, or Feelings, which are Vain Imaginations. He tempts us in our Minds. He tempts us with Thoughts sounding like our own.
Yet, they are not our Thoughts. These are the Temptations of evil spirits, trying to lure us into Agreement with them, and lead us to Fall into Sin. We hear them as though they are our own Thoughts, and so we are tempted to Believe them to be True.
We listen to the Lies of the enemy, and we Believe them. Then, they become our Thoughts. Then, they become our Truth. And, we have fallen into Agreement with the Enemy.
Romans 7:19-21 (NIV)
19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21 So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me.
Romans 7:22-23 (NIV)
22 For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; 23 but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me.
We have been Trained in these areas, and they have become our instant responses. We have Become THE BROKENNESS we Believe in our Hearts. We have Become ONE WITH SIN. We have become an Invisible Enemy ourselves, bearing the Fruit of the seeds we have sewn.
God said, “Who told you were Naked?” “Who told you to be Afraid?” “Who told you to be Depressed?” “Who told you to be Hateful?” “Who told you to Blame, and to Accuse?” “Who told you you were Ugly?” “Who told you to Reject yourself?” “Who told you to Reject others?” Who told you?
Paul said the LAW OF SIN resided in his members—his Spirit, Soul, and Body.
“It is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me.” It is SIN living in me. YOU are not the problem! Just because you have been struggling with SIN in these areas of your life, does not mean you are a bad person. It just means you have been Trained in the LAW OF SIN, and you think it is you, but it’s NOT. It is a Spiritual Battle. It is another Law, waging War against the Law of God in your Mind. It is the LAW OF SIN.
Adam and Eve’s thoughts were not their own. Paul had thoughts that were not his own. It is the LAW OF SIN at work within. They were TEMPTATIONS. These thoughts you struggle with, these thoughts you wrestle with, these thoughts you are tempted with, are not you! They are NOT you. They are Evil Temptations, from Evil spirits, manifesting their Evil Nature, in your thoughts, and in your imaginations.
REDEEMED FROM THE CURSE OF THE LAW
The Curse of the Snake, of the Man, and of the Woman, begatt the Beginning of Brokenness, and with it The Blessing of the Broken, or The Curse of the Law. A Spiritual Heritage, as our inheritance, and a New Beginning of SPIRITUAL BROKENNESS.
Brokenness begets Brokenness, from one Generation to the next. We reap the consequences of the Seed we sow. Our children reap the consequences of the Seed we sow. It is a Spiritual Inheritance of Brokenness. Now, we suffer the SINS OF OUR FATHERS as a Spiritual Inheritance.
We have been Battling invisible forces of Evil, keeping us in Bondage to our own Brokenness. To the Brokenness before us. The Darkness gets Darker, yet the Light has already come. We have already been Freed, and Jesus Christ has already Won. He has reached down into The Brokenness, and is Breathing His Healing Breath of Life into her. Arise, Shine, for the Light has come, and the Glory of the LORD is risen upon you! No more Curses! No more chains! Only the Beautiful Bride, in the Becoming!
We have been trapped in a cycle of Sickness, where we reap the consequences over, and over, again. We have been trapped in a cycle of Disease, coming down through our Family Trees. We have been caught up in the curses of The Generations coming before us, as a consequence of their Acts of Disobedience, and are reaping Generational Curses, and the Spiritual Oppression of it, Physically, Emotionally, and Spiritually.
We are suffering the consequences of our own Sins. We are suffering the consequences of the Curse. And yet, Jesus has REDEEMED us from the CURSE OF THE LAW! The SEED OF THE WOMAN, Jesus Christ has brought Victory from The Blessing of the Broken, and has brought Healing in Redemption, for every Beautiful Believer, Living Broken, for now and forevermore!
It is a Finished work! The Bible testifies, and bears witness, that Jesus bare our sins in His own body on the tree. His body was Broken for you. His was body was Broken for me. His body was Broken for our Healing. We are dead to sins, now living unto righteousness, which is our Sanctification. Now, we are able to walk as His Beautiful Believers, with a Spiritually Transformed Mindset, from Brokenness to Beautiful, Spirit, Mind, & Body. By His stripes we are Healed!
An Invisible Voice
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Who is it for ABBA, when no one is listening? When I cannot speak?

An Invisible Voice battling to breathe, trapped beneath the surface of a calling. Gasping for air to be free, yet no one can hear or see. The Words all lost in the Falling.
An Invisible Voice burning in me, that shouts in my Spirit, Run! Be Free! But I cannot run, because of an Enemy. Trapped inside a room, again. Trapped inside a barrier again. Words trapped inside my Heart.

I cannot run! I cannot play! I cannot get away! I am all alone. I am lonely still, always and again. I cannot Speak, again. Living Broken Again, alone. I cannot get out. I cannot shout. Being Broken for a cause. Being Broken for the lost. I have nothing to say and have no one to listen. An invisible Voice.
An Invisible Voice screaming inside me, remembering the rage, remembering the cage, where I lost my Voice, where I lost my choice. Spirit broken with no Words spoken.

Day after day, I can’t get away. Run! Be Free! But I cannot run, because of an Enemy. Trapped inside a room, again. Trapped inside a barrier again. Words trapped inside my Heart.
I have nothing to say and have no one to listen. An Invisible Voice.

Your Words Jesus, with no words. As You went to the Cross. As You hung on the Cross. An Invisible Voice battling to breathe. You had done it all, finished Your call. An Invisible Voice calling for us, screaming for us to hear You!
Who is it for ABBA, when no one is listening? When I cannot speak?
Psalm 118:17
“I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord.”
Believe the Beautiful!
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March 18 5. THE BETRAYAL OF THE BEAUTIFUL / THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION
THE BETRAYAL OF THE BEAUTIFUL Episode 5
THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION
The Garden of Affliction
“Then the LORD God took the man and put him in the Garden of Eden to tend and keep it. And the LORD God commanded the man, saying, “Of every tree of the garden you may freely eat; but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.” Genesis 2:15-17 NKJV
In The Garden of Eden, there is Perfect Beauty. There is Perfect Relationship. There is Perfect Protection. There is Perfect Love. There is Perfect Provision. There is Perfect Choice. There is Perfect Work.
And with every new day, there is a New Beginning, and there is a job to do, to tend and keep what God has given. There is a God given Garden to tend, and a Divine Work to Do within it.
The Beauty of Eden. The Beautiful in the Beginning. The Beautiful Work of Creation given to me. Given to you. Can you See it? Can you Breathe it? God Breathing LIFE.

Everything that lives, Breathes LIFE. God’s LIFE. God’s Breath-of-LIFE. It is mine. It is yours. There is God given LIFE, and there is a Choice to make, to cultivate, and to create, something Beautiful from the ground God has given. To create something from the Garden God has put me in.
With every new day there is opportunity to stay, within the Boundaries of Obedience. I can choose to eat of any tree of the garden, or I can choose Death.
In The Garden of Affliction, there is Perfect Beauty. There is Perfect Relationship. There is Perfect Protection. There is Perfect Love. There is Perfect Provision. There is Perfect Choice. There is Perfect Work.
And with every new day, there is a New Beginning, and there is a job to do, to tend and keep what God has given. There is a God given Garden to tend, and a Divine Work to Do within it.
The Beauty of Affliction. The Beautiful in the Becoming. The Beautiful Work of Creation given in me. Given in you. Can you See it? Can you Breathe it? God Breathing LIFE.
Everything that lives, Breathes LIFE. God’s LIFE. God’s Breath-of-LIFE. It is mine. It is yours. There is God given LIFE and there is a Choice to make, to cultivate, and to create, something Beautiful from the ground God has given. To create something from the Garden God has put me in.

With every new day there is opportunity to stay, within the Boundaries of Obedience. I can choose to eat of any tree of the garden, or I can choose Death.
Within The Garden of Affliction, I can choose LIFE or I can choose Death. I choose LIFE!
What will you choose?
“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” Romans 8:18
THE BETRAYAL OF THE BEAUTIFUL Episode 5
THE BROKENNESS: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION
I am taking you on a Biblical Journey, through The Betrayal of the Beautiful, when SIN Entered In, to the place where we begin BELIEVING BROKENNESS. Today I am going to explain, and expose, the “WHO” of our BATTLE against ALL Brokenness.
The Entrance of our Spiritual Enemy.
We will begin BEFORE BROKENNESS, in The Beautiful Garden of Eden, where we left off last. Picture Heaven’s Heart for every BEAUTIFUL BELIEVER. Picture yourself there, in His Heart.
You are His Beautiful Creation. His Beautiful child. His Beautiful Son. His Beautiful Daughter. Perfection, exactly AS you are.
You are a Spirit breathing Life, with a Soul, living in a Physical body. Created as an Image Bearer of LIGHT, of LIFE, and of BEAUTY. You are a Bearer of THE BEAUTIFUL, begotten by God. You are a child of GOD.
You are Spirit, and Mind, and Body, and you have intimate Fellowship WITH GOD. You walk with Him, and you talk with Him, in Perfect Relationship, in Perfect Communion, in Perfect Harmony.
You know NO FEAR. You know His HEART. You know His VOICE. You know His LOVE. You know His PROVISION, and His PROTECTION. And, you know His COMMAND.
Genesis 2:15-25 (NKJV)
”15 Then the Lord God took [a]the man and put him in the garden of Eden to [b]tend and keep it. 16 And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, “Of every tree of the garden you may freely eat; 17 but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you[c] shall surely die.”
This is why it is so important to SEE and KNOW, WHO we were created to BE, and WHO we were created to BELIEVE. This was a test of their faithfulness, through Obedience.
Obedience and Disobedience both have consequences. We are created with Free Will, and Choice, so that we might choose obedience. We reap the consequences of the choices we make, of the seeds we sow.
The consequences of the Choice of Obedience are: Spiritual Life, Health, and the abundant Blessings of God’s Provision, Protection, and Peace with God; which is intimate fellowship, and communion with God.
The consequences of the Choice of Disobedience are: Spiritual Death and Separation from God; a loss of Intimacy, loss of Provision, Protection, Life, Health, Peace, and Communion.
So the enemy, distorted The Word of God. He used a portion of the Truth, but not the whole Truth, of the Word of God, to manipulate her thinking. He made her question God’s Words, and question God’s Authority in her situation, as though God had withheld something good from her…Wisdom!
She was deceived by the Lies, and by Satan’s manipulation of the Word of God. As she was Tempted, she saw that the fruit was good for food, the Lust of the Flesh, that it was pleasing to the eye, the Lust of the Eyes, and that it was desirable for gaining wisdom, the Pride of Life. This is the same way Satan tempts us all today.
-He lies to us about our circumstances.
-He distorts the Truth of the Word of God to manipulate our thinking.
-He tempts us to question God’s intentions for our good.
-He tempts us to doubt God’s Authority in our circumstance.
-He tempts us to Believe that what he has to offer us, is better than what God has already given us.
-He tempts us to Believe his word as truth, over the Authority of God’s Word as Truth.
-He tempts us to disobey the Word of God, and sin.
This was a Physical act with Spiritual consequences. Sin, and Death, entered humanity through this Act of Disobedience. Now, there was not only Good in the Garden. Now, they had knowledge of both GOOD and EVIL. The eyes of both of them were opened, and they KNEW. (Genesis 3:7) They knew EVIL. Evil entered into the world, through an Act of Disobedience to the Command of God.
GRASPING YOUR GRACE
When there seems but a glimpse to hold onto
I close my eyes to make Fear go away
and my Heart lifts its’ cries up to you, LORD
grasping Your Grace for today
I rest in the Peace that surrounds me
when there is no peace to be found
Lost in the list of Confusion
as yesterday’s News brought me down
LORD, You are my Strength and my Courage
My Resting Place when I am weak
You are the Rock that I stand on
the Foundation of Love that I seek
Faithfulness comes to the Faithful
when all we Believe slips away
And Your arms are the Wings that we fly on
when everything else goes astray
Believe the Beautiful!
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March 11 4. BEFORE BROKENNESS / THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
BEFORE BROKENNESS Episode 4
THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
The Beauty of Being.
After the Abuse, After the Cancer, After the Miracle.
The Darkness of my night is over
and I am Awakened to BEAUTY.
I am Awakened to
The Beauty of Being
The Beauty of Being here
The Beauty of Being loved
The Beauty of Being beyond
The Beauty of Being able
The Beauty of Being alive
The Beauty of Being free
The Beauty of Being transformed
The Beauty of Being a Butterfly
The Beauty of Being me
BEFORE BROKENNESS Episode 4
THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
Genesis 1:1- 4 NKJV
“Thus the heavens and the earth, and all the host of them were finished. 2And on the seventh day God ended His work which He had done. 3Then He blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it He rested from all of His work which God had created and made. 4This is the history of the heavens and the earth when they were created, in the day that the LORD God made the earth and the Heavens,"
Then He blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because He rested from all the work which God had created and made. in the day that the LORD God made the earth and the Heavens. God Blessed and Sanctified His completed work. (Genesis 1:3)
Imagine a place where you are encompassed by LOVE itself, communing with God, Before Brokenness, living in The Beautiful in the Beginning. The Beautiful Garden of the LORD. Living in The Garden of God, with GOD. Surrounded by The Beautiful, surrounded and safe, living within a Boundary of Obedience.
Imagine a place where Beauty, and Harmony, and Order, coexist together. Sound and Light emanate from every Living thing. Color, itself has LIFE, LIFE that dances.
Imagine a place where your Words have creative, and imaginative Substance. Whatever Adam called each Living creature, that was its’ Name (Genesis 2:19). His task was to Speak, to Declare, and to Name, every Living creature. And so it was. The Tiger. The Leopard, The Jaguar, and The Chimp. The Giraffe. The Lion. The Stallion, and The Imp.
The Beauty of a Word. The Beauty of Creation. The Beauty of a Creative Word. The Beautiful in the Beginning. The Creative force of a Living Word. Spoken. You Speak, and it Becomes. You Declare, and it is So.
Isaiah 55:11 NKJV
“So shall my word be that goes forth from My mouth;
It shall not return to Me void,
But it shall accomplish what I please,
And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.”
Imagine, a place where there is Righteousness and Holiness, Purity and Justice. It is the purity of innocence, that has no Shame. Imagine the Freedom, and the fullness of Joy, expressed just by BEING.
Imagine, there is a Foundation of Truth, on which all knowledge, and wisdom, is understood. The Knowledge of God is perfect, and pure, His Wisdom, endless. There is Peace that passes understanding. There is Hope that never ends. GOD WITH US. Perfect Communion. Perfect Union. Perfect Trust.
Imagine, there is no ugliness, there is only BEAUTY. Imagine a place without Fear, Hatred, Anger, or War. Imagine a place without Suffering. Imagine waking up and living without Pain, or Sickness, or Disease.
God’s Perfect creation. Perfectly Free, perfectly Loved, perfectly Beautiful, perfectly Whole, The Beautiful in the Beginning, in The Beautiful Garden of the LORD, EDEN. God’s Kingdom come, on earth as it is in Heaven. Blessed and Sanctified.
Imagine LIFE without Brokenness. Imagine your LIFE without Brokenness. Imagine LIFE Before Brokenness. Image LIFE Beyond Brokenness. Imagine LIFE Healed. Imagine LIFE Healed, Whole, Holy, and Complete.
Imagine, the BEAUTY of such a place. The Beautiful in the Beginning. Imagine BEING there in the Beginning, Before Brokenness. Imagine, the Beauty of Being. The Beauty of Being in the Presence of God, all the time. Walking with God in Glory. Talking with God in Glory. Imagine THE BEAUTIFUL.
Imagine THE BEAUTIFUL. This was The Beauty of Being, in the Beginning, Before Brokenness. This is the LIFE God intended for all of us, as His Beautiful Creation, as His Beautiful Children. As His Beautiful Believers. As His Beauty Bearers. As ONE with God.
This is the LIFE God intended for every Beautiful Believer. This is the LIFE God intended for you. LIFE in Eden. He calls you, “My Beautiful Believer.” You are ONE in Him, and you are ONE with Him, you are ONE in relationship. You are ONE with the Heart of Heaven.
Before Brokenness, was Perfection.
Here, in the Book of Isaiah, Isaiah, Prophetically speaks of EDEN as a place of flourishing LIFE. It is a place of Completeness and of Wholeness. It is a place of God’s Comfort, of Compassion, and of Love. EDEN is a place of Promise, of Healing, and of Hope. It is a place of Restoration and of BEAUTY to Zion, to the People of God. To you, My Beautiful Believer! YOU are Zion!
Isaiah 51:3 NIV
“The Lord will surely comfort Zion
And look with compassion on all her ruins;
He will make her deserts like Eden
Her wastelands like the garden of the Lord
Joy and gladness will be found in her,
Thanksgiving and the sound of singing.“
This is God’s Promise of Redemption, for His Beautiful Ones, Living Broken. It is a promise to you. It is a promise to me. He says, “I WILL.”
He looks with Compassion on all your ruins. He not only sees them, but He Promises to comfort you, in the midst of them, on the journey, in the waiting, and on the way. In the problem, in the process, in the promise, and in the pain.
What ruins are you living in, My Beautiful One? What desert are you living in? What place of Brokenness are you needing to be Healed from, Rescued from, Delivered from, or Saved out of? A Step of transformation, to your next step of Beauty.
He Promises to deliver you OUT of them. He promises to Heal your Brokenness and to Recover your Beauty. He promises to bring you back again to The Beautiful Garden of the LORD. To bring you back again To EDEN. To a place of Transformation. To a place of ONEness. To a place of Relationship. To a place of Completeness. To a place of Beauty and Harmony, WITH Him. Back to The Beautiful in The Beginning.
Your ruins, your deserts, and your wastelands are Transformed into The Beautiful Garden of the LORD! To a place, to a state of Being. To The Beauty of Being. Before Brokenness. To a place of Restoration, of Healing, of Wholeness. Joy and Gladness are found there, Thanksgiving, and the sound of Singing!
To Believe is Beautiful. To Believe and obey, is to do it God’s way. Healing begins by walking in Obedience.
Psalm 119:73-80
NKJV
י YOD
73
Your hands have made me and fashioned me; Give me understanding, that I may learn Your commandments.
74
Those who fear You will be glad when they see me, Because I have hoped in Your word.
75
I know, O Lord, that Your judgments are [a]right, And that in faithfulness You have afflicted me.
76
Let, I pray, Your merciful kindness be for my comfort, According to Your word to Your servant.
77
Let Your tender mercies come to me, that I may live; For Your law is my delight.
78
Let the proud be ashamed, For they treated me wrongfully with falsehood; But I will meditate on Your precepts.
79
Let those who fear You turn to me, Those who know Your testimonies.
80
Let my heart be blameless regarding Your statutes, That I may not be ashamed.
YOU ARE MY PEOPLE!
Isaiah 51:12-16 New King James Version
12 “I, even I, am He who comforts you.
 Who are you that you should be afraid
 Of a man who will die,
 And of the son of a man who will be made like grass?
13 And you forget the Lord your Maker,
 Who stretched out the heavens
 And laid the foundations of the earth;
 You have feared continually every day
 Because of the fury of the oppressor,
 When he has prepared to destroy.
 And where is the fury of the oppressor?
14 The captive exile hastens, that he may be loosed,
 That he should not die in the pit,
 And that his bread should not fail.
15 But I am the Lord your God,
 Who divided the sea whose waves roared— 
The Lord of hosts is His name.
16 And I have put My words in your mouth; 
I have covered you with the shadow of My hand, 
That I may [a]plant the heavens,
Lay the foundations of the earth,
And say to Zion, ‘You are My people.’ ”
Beautiful in its’ Time.
Ecclesiastes 3:11 
"He has made everything beautiful in its’ time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
He has made everything Beautiful in its’ time. 
I am who God created me to be, yet I am not who I will Become.
 
Today, I am exactly where God wants me. 
I cannot move ahead at a faster pace,
nor can I choose to change my place.

 I cannot turn back time to yesterday 
And my tomorrows will always arrive, as another today.
 I am in the center of God’s will right here, right now. 
His Eternal time clock has set my course in Divine measure. 
I cannot arrive at its’ end too soon, nor can I be late. 
His perfect purpose has already been set in motion. 
There are Blessings behind and there are Blessings ahead, 
yet I cannot fathom what God has done from Beginning to End. 
He has given me Life and Breath and Today. 
Therefore, I can rest in this Truth in peace, and be thankful. 
He has made everything Beautiful in its’ time.
This Dream Jeremiah 29:11
This Dream
I have a Dream
That I Believe
I have my Faith
In something I can’t see
I know one day
This Dream I have in me
Will finally
Be my Reality
This Dream
This Dream within me
Has become a part of who I am
And the Hope that this Dream gives me
Keeps me Walking when I can’t stand
And I know
Deep in my soul
That this Dream is what points me toward a goal
And as long as God is in Control
I’ll never let it go
I have a Dream
That I Believe
I have my Faith
In something I can’t see
I know one day
This Dream I have in me
Will finally
Be my Reality
This Dream
This Dream within me
Is more than wishing on a star
Because Dreams are all from Heaven
A gift of Hope, planted in our Hearts
And I know
Deep in my soul
That our Dreams are meant for us to hold
And as long as you have the strength to Hope
Never let it go
God can make our Dreams come True
He has put your Dream in YOU!
I have a Dream
Jeremiah 29:11
New International Version
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Believe the Beautiful!
0 min
March 04 3. BORN TO BE BEAUTIFUL / THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
BORN TO BE BEAUTIFUL Episode 3
THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical, & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
- A Mother’s Heart -
There is something about a Mother’s heart
Unending love right from the start
Given by God knit in the womb
Woven whispers that burst into bloom
Melodious harmonies of life can be found
With every heartbeat creating new sound
Visions of Purpose planted within
Creating its’ path again and again
Love interwoven into each breath
Never abandoned even at death
At the miracle of birth Angels burst into song
Rejoicing the life God has carried along
Seen and created in that Secret place
Known and wrapped in God’s warm embrace
Made perfect and pure, protected from harm
Till it can be held in its Mother’s arm
A heart that believes in Love at first sight
will carry her through the darkness of night
No shame, no regret, for the choice she has made
of the gift of a child God created to save
Though others throw stones rejecting the Truth
This life has great worth of purpose and proof
A future bought for by death on a Cross
Already given, paid at a great cost
The heart of a Mother sees Beauty and Grace
Every time she sees that beckoning face
Her heart has a hold that nothing can tear
A bond not broken but burdened to bear
A Mother’s Heart, holds Heaven in hand
Spirit breathed LIFE purposed and planned
Heavenly glimpses of Glory on earth
God’s Image Bearers of Beauty at birth
You were Born to Be Beautiful. Before the foundation of the world, God saw you and knew you. Out all of creation, He chose you. He chose you, and He created you, just as He purposed you to BE.
He knew the day, the time, and the season of your Birth. He knew your form, and stature, and the value of your Worth. He knew the sparkle of your eyes. He knew the things that make you cry. He knew the freckles on your face, and the days you would need Grace. He knew the Love placed in your heart, and the Dreams that He would start.
He knew you before you Became. He knew the Righteousness you would gain. The Beauty from ashes you will Proclaim, and the Glory you’ll bring to His Name. He knew the rebellious time of your youth, the search for Love, Security and Truth. He saw the adventure in your eyes, and the hope for Dreams, not yet realized. He knew the passion, and fire inside. The days you would run and hide. He KNEW you then, and He SEES you now.
He knew everything about you, intimately and perfectly. His perfect creation. Perfectly Beautiful. And He breathed His Breath-of-LIFE into YOU. And He looked at all that He had made, and it was Very Good!
Psalm 139:13-16 NKJV
“For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully
and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest
parts of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my substance,
being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
Your days were fashioned for you, by God, before any of them came to BE. You were, before You Became. You were in the Heart of Heaven. His eyes saw your substance, being yet unformed, being yet unborn. And in Your book they all were written, the days You fashioned for me, before I came to BE. “I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works!” (Psalm 139:14)
Just as God Spoke everything into creation through a creative and Living Word. You have been created, and are ALIVE, through that same creative, and LIFE giving, Living Word. Created to BE, by God’s Breath of LIFE! Apart from God, we are BREATHLESS!
Song of Songs 2:10-15 The Passion Translation
10
The one I love calls to me:
Arise,[a] my dearest. Hurry, my darling.[b]
    Come away with me![c]
    I have come as you have asked
    to draw you to my heart and lead you out.
    For now is the time, my beautiful one.
11
The season has changed,
    the bondage of your barren winter has ended,
    and the season of hiding is over and gone.
    The rains have soaked the earth[d]
12
and left it bright with blossoming flowers.[e]
    The season for singing and pruning the vines has arrived.[f]
    I hear the cooing of doves in our land,[g]
    filling the air with songs to awaken you
    and guide you forth.
13
Can you not discern this new Day of Destiny
    breaking forth around you?
     The early signs of my Purposes and Plans
    are bursting forth.[h]
    The budding vines of new Life
    are now blooming everywhere.
    The fragrance of their flowers whispers,
    “There is change in the air.”
    Arise, my love, my beautiful companion,
    and run with me to the Higher Place.
    For now is the time to Arise and come away with me.
14
For you are my dove, hidden in the split-open rock.[i]
    It was I who took you and hid you up high
    in the secret stairway of the sky.
    Let me see your radiant face and hear your sweet voice.[j]
    How beautiful your eyes of worship
    and lovely your voice in prayer.
15
You must catch the troubling foxes,
    those sly little foxes[k] that hinder our relationship.
    For they raid our budding vineyard of love
to ruin what I’ve planted within you.
    Will you catch them and remove them for me?
    We will do it together.
God is calling you to Himself. He has heard your HEART cry. He is drawing your Heart to His. He is beckoning you to come, and to BECOME, all He has called you to BE. He is drawing you out of your hidden place, and leading you out of your Brokenness. He is calling you into a new Day of Destiny. Now is the time, My Beautiful One! Come.
The Season has changed. The Bondage of your barren Winter has ended, and the Season of hiding is over, and gone. The Season for Singing, and pruning the vines, has arrived. It is a New Day of Destiny, breaking forth around us.
You are His Beautiful companion. He is calling you up to a Higher Place. He wants to see your radiant face, and hear your sweet voice as you sing! Arise, My love, My Beautiful One. He says, “Run with me to the Higher Place.” Won’t you run with Him?
YOU ARE CHOSEN! Isaiah 41: 8-13 NKJV
8 “But you, Israel, are My servant,
Jacob, whom I have chosen,
The descendants of Abraham My friend,
9 You, whom I have taken from the ends of the earth,
And called from its farthest regions,
And said to you,
‘You are My servant,
I have chosen you and have not cast you away:
10 Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you;
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
11“Behold, all those who were incensed against you
Shall be ashamed and disgraced;
They shall be as nothing,
And those who strive with you shall perish.
12 You shall seek them and not find them—
Those who contended with you,
Those who war against you
Shall be as nothing,
As a nonexistent thing.
13 For I, the LORD your God, will hold your right hand,
Saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.’
“Fear not, I will help you.” Isaiah 41:13
He is calling you to BE CROWNED WITH HIM IN GLORY, and out of the Shame of an old Abusive story. He is calling you to BE THE RIGHTEOUSNESS OF GOD IN CHRIST, past the Burdens you have bourne, yet have carried all your Life.
He is calling you to BE HOLY AS I AM HOLY, Sanctified by Him, and Healed in Spirit, in Mind, and in Body. He is calling you OUT OF THE DARKNESS and into HIS MARVELOUS LIGHT. He is calling you to BE THE BEAUTIFUL BRIDE OF CHRIST. He has already done it. He has made The Way for you. “This is the way, walk in it.” (Isaiah 30:21)
You are A WARRIOR! You wear Warrior Wings! You will Defeat Darkness! You will Overcome by the Blood of the Lamb, and by the Word of your Testimony! You will be Washed in the Water by the Word! God has already done it! It is a finished Work on the Cross! Take up your Spiritual Authority, and Walk in it!
You were BORN TO BE BEAUTIFUL. You have ALL Spiritual Authority over ALL the power of the enemy, in Jesus name! God has already won the Battle! You will take up your Sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God, and you will slay your Spiritual Enemies! The Battle is not yours but God’s. (2 Chron. 20:15) Take everything back the Enemy has stolen! In the Mighty Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth! Amen!
They Are Who You Are
They are who you Are
They are the Echos of your eyes
The Voices of your shadow
The Pattern of your life
They are who you Are
The Force within your soul
They are the Promise of your future
These Children that you hold
They are who you Are
They are the Product of your seed
The Living, breathing meaning
That Drives this life you lead
They are who you Are
The Treasures of your worth
They are the Greatest contribution
You will have upon this Earth
They are who you Are
They are the Chisels in God’s hand
The reason that I Love you
The Making of the man
He Sent His Word and Healed them!
Psalm 107:19-22 New King James Version
19 Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, And He saved them out of their distresses.
20 He sent His word and healed them, And delivered them from their destructions.
21 Oh, that men would give thanks to the Lord for His goodness, And for His wonderful works to the children of men!
22 Let them sacrifice the sacrifices of thanksgiving, And declare His works with [a]rejoicing.
An invisible Voice from the inside out.
Believe the Beautiful!
34 min
February 25 2. THE HEART OF HEAVEN HERE At CREATION / THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
THE HEART OF HEAVEN HERE At CREATION Episode 2
THE BEAUTIFUL IN THE BEGINNING: Our Emotional, Physical & Spiritual POSITION and CONDITION
Beautiful for You
I want to be where I can feel Your presence
Let me come before You LORD
and Worship from my very soul
I want to love You from my very essence
and give to You my everything, my all
LORD take me to the place of true submission
Where nothing in my life
would keep my heart from being true
I want to be a pure and Holy vessel
So I may be Beautiful for You
I want to be Beautiful for You
I want to be Holy through and through
I want to be everything
You want me to be
I want to be Beautiful inside
where I have nothing left to hide
LORD, I want to be
Beautiful
The Beauty of this World is ever fading
and the confidence I have
cannot be in what others see
My deepest longing is to have a life that pleases You
A life that shows an inner purity
I want to be Beautiful for You
I want to be Holy through and through
I want to be everything
You want me to be
I want to be Beautiful inside
where I have nothing left to hide
LORD, I want to be
Beautiful
You sacrificed Your life out of Love for me
and every day I live my life so selfishly
Won't you cleanse me from my sin
Purify me from within
that I might truly be
Beautiful
LORD, I want to be
Beautiful
“I will give them a HEART to know me, that I am the LORD. They will be my people, and I will be their God, for they will will return to me with all their HEART.”
Jeremiah 25:7
The Heart of Heaven. Who can see an invisible force of LOVE? Or the PATH it takes? Who can know it? Who can speak of it?
It is in the wind, as the Breath of GOD. It shines as Beauty in the mountains, and on the sands of the seashores. It rises with every morning, and beats its’ beat. The Heartbeat of Heaven. Hallowed in the Heavens, and on the Earth. It fills all space and time, throughout Eternity, yet cannot be measured. It is Holy, and it is Infinite. It is LOVE.
Its’ GLORY feeds the sunrise, and the sunset. The Heartbeat of Heaven sustains all LIFE. It is in the flower. It is in the forest. It is in the lion. It is in the lamb. It is in the bug. It is in the butterfly. It is in every fish of the sea, in every bird of the air, and in every beast of the field. It is in ALL of Creation.
But the most BEAUTIFUL of all creation is YOU.
Genesis 1:1-4 NKJV
“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters.
3 Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. 4 And God saw the light, that it was good; and God divided the light from the darkness.”
“Then God said, “ Let there be light”; and there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good; and God divided the light from the darkness.”(Gen.1:3-4) In Heaven there is Light. In Heaven, there is no Darkness. In Heaven, there is LIGHT, and LIFE, and LOVE, and BEAUTY, and the fullness of the GLORY of GOD, and all that is Good, and Holy, and BEAUTIFUL.
GOD Spoke into the Darkness and there was Light.
GOD Spoke into Creation and it was so.
GOD, The Living Word, Spoke.
John 1:1-5 NKJV
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was in the beginning with God. 3 All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. 4 In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. 5 And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.”
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with GOD, and the Word was GOD. (John 1:1) The Living Word. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was Life. In Him IS Life. The Life IS the Light of men. (John 1:3,4)
All Light, and Life, and Beauty, were Created with the creative force of A LIVING WORD. The Living Word spoke, and it Became living. The Living Word spoke, and it Became creation. The Living Word spoke, and it BECAME.
The Living Word of GOD, spoke The Beautiful in the Beginning. The Living Word of GOD spoke LIFE, and LIFE was. The Living Word of GOD spoke LIFE, and it obeyed, and Became, all that GOD had purposed, planned, and intended it to BE, in the Beginning. The Living Word of GOD spoke, and it Became. It was performed, and perfected, and accomplished.
The Beautiful in the Beginning, is the Creative force of The Living Word of God spoken, obeying, and Becoming. It is God’s Word in fulfillment. The Living Word of God is perfect, and pure. The Living Word of God is Holy, and True. The Living Word of God is Beautiful.
From the HEART
 From the HEART of WORSHIP springs a fountain
Overflowing melodies rejoice within the soul
From the HEART of FAITH there lies a mountain
Overcome by knowledge that our God can do it all
From the HEART of BROKENNESS lies wisdom
For there is the beginning of a life that God can use
From the HEART of PRAYER flows God’s forgiveness
To overcome the bitterness and pain from Hell’s abuse
From the HEART of THANKFULNESS comes laughter
Gratefulness and worry cannot mingle side by side
From the HEART of SERVICE grows a leader
Humility is honored far above our Human pride
From the HEART of HEAVEN comes a Healer
Who reaches past the walls we’ve built to shut out all our pain
From the HEART of GOD comes our Redeemer
A Savior sent to DIE for us so we can LIVE AGAIN!
A Little of You
I look around at others
And I see You work in them
I see You in their lives
I see You in their eyes
I look at myself in the mirror
And I look for a little of You
My face looks back at me
But what do I really see?
I see a simple reflection
Of what my appearance is
I see the outside picture
Without seeing what is within
I know that my inspection
Is only one point of view
I hope that through their eyes
They see a little of You
I know that You are with me
And You’re making me more like You
You are building me into
A smaller reflection of You
But even though I’m changing
I still see the “me” that I was
Lord, I want others to see
A little of You in me
I want others to see Jesus in me…
I see a simple reflection
Of what my appearance is
I see the outside picture
Without seeing what is within
I know that my inspection
Is only one point of view
I hope that through their eyes
They see a little of You
HIDDEN IN YOU
Hidden in You
You are my Refuge
Hidden in You
You are my Peace
Hidden in You
You bear my Burdens
Hidden in You
I find Release
Hidden in You
You are my Sustenance
Hidden in You
You are my Breath
Hidden in You
I find my Comfort
Hidden in You
You are my Rest
Hidden in You
You are my Confidence
Hidden in You
You are my Strength
Hidden in You
You are my Righteousness
Hidden in You
I’m made Complete
Hidden in You
You are my King of Kings
Hidden in You
You rescue Me
Hidden in You
You are My Beautiful One
Hidden in You
You set me Free
Hidden in You
You rise in Majesty
Hidden in You
I will Believe
Hidden in You
Baptized in Holy Fire
Hidden in You
My Destiny
Hidden in You
You are my Life Line
Hidden in You
You are my Love
Hidden in You
You are my Butterfly Dreams
Hidden in You
Blessed from Above
Look at Your HEART
Look at your Heart
What do you See?
Do you feel Trapped?
Do you long to be Free?
If you answered Yes
Then here’s what to Do
Trust in the Lord Jesus
He’s Calling for You
He’ll fill in the Void
You’re feeling Within
He’ll answer your Prayers
And cleanse you from Sin
He’ll show you He’s Real
When you ask from your Heart
He’ll change your whole Life
Giving you a New Start
So if Life seems as though
It’s not worth the Pain
Then there’s nothing to Lose
But only to Gain
Try talking to God
It’s the right thing to Do
And you’ll find New Life
It’s Waiting for You
Proverbs 2:1-8 (KJV)
My son, my daughter, if you accept my words
And store up my commands within you,
Turning your ear to wisdom
And applying your heart to understanding,
And if you call out for insight
And cry aloud for understanding,
And if you look for it as silver
And search for it as for hidden treasure,
Then you will understand the fear of the Lord
And find the knowledge of God.
For the Lord gives wisdom,
and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.
He holds victory in store for the upright,
He is a shield to those whose walk is blameless,
For he guards the course of the just
And protects the way of his faithful ones.
Romans 14:17 (KJV)
For the kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost.
Our HEALING will not come out of Good Nutrition, but from A Spiritually HEALTHY HEART.
In Your Presence
Psalm 16:11
English Standard Version
11 You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
In Your Presence
I bask in Your Glory
In Your Presence
There is fullness of Joy
In Your Presence
I am drawn to Your Throne room
In Your Presence
I am transformed and Whole
In Your Presence
I am changed by Your Beauty
In Your Presence
I am wrapped in Your Love
In Your Presence
I am righteous and Holy
In Your Presence
I am raptured above
In Your Presence
I worship The King of Kings
In Your Presence
I cry tears at Your feet
In Your Presence
I am Broken before You
In Your Presence
I am made Complete
In Your Presence
I worship You in Holiness
In Your Presence
I am lifted on Angel wing
In Your Presence
I am dancing in Your Glory
In Your Presence
I am worshiping my King
In The Shelter of Your Presence You Hide Us
Psalm 31:19-24
New King James Version (NKJV)
19 Oh, how great is Your goodness,
Which You have laid up for those who fear You, 
Which You have prepared for those who trust in You
 In the presence of the sons of men! 
20 You shall hide them in the secret place of Your presence
 From the plots of man; 
You shall keep them secretly in a [a]pavilion 
From the strife of tongues.
21 Blessed be the Lord, 
For He has shown me His marvelous kindness in a [b]strong city! 
22 For I said in my haste, 
“I am cut off from before Your eyes”; 
Nevertheless You heard the voice of my supplications 
When I cried out to You.
23 Oh, love the Lord, all you His saints! 
For the Lord preserves the faithful, 
And fully repays the proud person. 
24 Be of good courage, 
And He shall strengthen your heart, 
All you who hope in the Lord.
Believe the Beautiful!
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February 18 1. THE SANCTIFICATION OF THE HEART From BROKENNESS to BEAUTIFUL – The Path of LIFE on this Journey
THE SANCTIFICATION OF THE HEART From BROKENNESS to BEAUTIFUL - The Path of LIFE on this Journey Episode 1
Are You Weeping?
Are You weeping Lord Jesus, when Your Spirit is grieved
as You watch while Your children are slowly deceived?
Do You sigh as a mourner, who mourns for the lost
While You see Your own Sheep pay a desperate cost?
They are losing their lives, giving in to Disease
as they pray not for Healing but only for peace.
They have lost all their Faith in “the God who Heals Men”
saying yesterday’s Wonders were only for then.
They no longer Believe in the Wonders and Signs
that You Sovereignly did within Biblical times.
And they say that those gifts You dispersed to your sheep
were for only a few, and for them not to keep.
For the Words of Your Power have been somehow misread,
and the babes are then taught from those sadly misled.
The whole of this Teaching is the fruit of a Lie
and because of this fruit there are people who Die.
Lord we claim all the Power that You have to give.
For we know that in You, we may reign, not just Live!
At the moment You died, by Your blood we were sealed,
our sins all forgiven; by Your stripes we were Healed.
And that Power which raised You to where You now sit
was meant also for us, if we’d just Ask for it.
For Time has gone by, it seems Ages have passed,
yet the pool is untapped because no one has asked.
Father, pour out on us Your incredible might.
Pour upon us Your Spirit that we might Win the fight.
Let Your Healing begin through the vessels You’ve made,
for it’s time that we Build on the groundwork You’ve laid.
Let the Blind see again and the Lame start to walk.
Let the Deaf hear the sound of the Mute as they talk.
Let the Faith of a child raise the Sick from their bed.
Let the Voice of a Warrior call men back from the dead.
Let the Body of Christ prove your Power and Word,
And let Faith follow quickly when your Message is heard.
Through the Oneness of us, Your Temple will stand,
and the Works we will do will be that of Your hand.
And all Glory and Honor will be given to You
as the world sees the Signs and the Wonders we’ll do.
And Your Children who doubted will no longer say,
“The Spirit of God does not move today!”
Psalm 56:12-13 King James Version
12 Thy vows are upon me, O God: I will render praises unto thee.
13 For thou hast delivered my soul from death: wilt not thou deliver my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of the living?
Ezekiel 34:11-12 NKJV
“For thus says the Lord God: ”Indeed, I Myself will search for My sheep and seek them out. As a shepherd seeks out his flock on a day he is among his scattered sheep, so will I seek out my sheep and deliver them from all the places where they were scattered on a cloudy and dark day.”
Our local Pastors, Ministers, and Lay Leaders are not trained or equipped to minister Healing to the Emotionally Broken, to the Physically Broken, or to the Spiritually Broken Body of Christ, within our own Congregations, or within our Surrounding Communities. As the Global Church, here and around our World, we have not sought God first, for our Healing.
As a Society, within the Body of Christ, we seek first our Medical Communities when we need Physical Healing, and we are helped, yet we are not Healed. We seek first our Psychological Communities when we need Emotional Healing, and we are helped, yet we are not Healed. We seek first our Churches, or Religious Communities when we need Spiritual Healing, and we are helped, yet we are not Healed. And yet somehow as Believers, we are all still Living Broken.
As a Broken Body of Believers, we have stopped Believing in the POWER of God to Heal us. We have stopped Believing in The Healing Heart of Heaven. We have not understood our Spiritual responsibility for this Mandate of Ministry among us. The Church of Jesus Christ is supposed to be a place of HEALING for the Sick, for the Oppressed, for the Rejected, for the Abused. For The BROKEN.
We, as sheep, have been scattered. Because there was no Shepherd. We have become food for all the beasts of the field. Scattered over the whole face of the earth. We, as a Broken Body of Believers, have sent our own Broken Ones away, and out of our midst for Healing ministry. This is NOT Scriptural. There is nowhere to go. There is no HEALING MINISTRY among us for Believers within the local Body of Christ. We have erred from the Truth.
We have sent our Emotionally Weary & Wounded Warriors away. I was one of them Battling Abuse.
We have sent our Physically Broken Believers away. I was one of them Battling Breast Cancer.
We have sent our Spiritually Sick Soldiers away. I was one of them Battling a Traumatic Brain Injury, and the hereditary Disease of Huntington’s,
We have sent those with Broken Bones, and Broken Bodies away. I was one of them Battling a Broken Femur, and out of our midst for HEALING MINISTRY.
We have LOST our way, because we have not known our way. I am here to help show you The Way to Healing Brokenness and Recovering Beauty.
The Truth is, all Healing is Spiritual first. All LIFE begins and ends with God. Therefore, all HEALING begins and ends with God. All Healing begins at The Spiritual Level, through a Process of the Sanctification of the Heart.
All Healing begins the same, because Healing begins in the Heart. The Brokenness of our Hearts, the Brokenness of our Physical Bodies, and the Brokenness of the Spiritual Body of Christ, are ALL a result of our own, and Individual, SPIRITUAL BROKENNESS. They all are the result of our own, and individual, Spiritual Health.
Ezekiel 34:5-6 NKJV
“They were scattered because there was no shepherd; and they became food for all the beasts of the field when they were scattered. My sheep wandered through all the mountains, and on every high hill; yes My flock was scattered over the whole face of the earth, and no-one was seeking or searching for them.”
We have Believed the Lies so long that we don’t BELIEVE anymore. I have SEEN the Broken Body of Christ. I have BEEN the Broken Body of Christ. Our Spiritual Body, as a whole, is Broken and needs to be Healed. It is through this Spiritual Brokenness that we have become weak and unable to stand.
We are Spiritually Sick as a Church, as THE Body of Christ! This is why we are NOT being Healed physically. This is why we are not being Healed when we are prayed for, and anointed with oil. This is why we are Sick, and dying in our Disease.
We are not being trained in righteousness. We are not being taught how to fight our Spiritual Battles. We are Spiritually Sick Saints, and we are suffering as a Church Body, and we are not being ministered to in the area of Spiritual, Emotional, or Physical Health.
We are taught about Salvation. We are taught about Evangelism. We are taught about Missions. We are taught about Grace. We are taught about Ministry. We are taught to serve, and to Minister to the needs of those around us, all around the World. And yet, we are NOT TAUGHT to minister to the Spiritual, Emotional, and Physical Brokenness of those who are within our own walls, of our Houses of Worship.
We are NOT taught about Healing! We are not taught about the Sanctification of the Heart. We are not taught How to Heal the Broken. We are all LIVING BROKEN, and we are in desperate need of the Healing Power of God within the Church. We are in desperate need of THE HEALING HEART OF HEAVEN!
My Beautiful One,
You were BORN TO BE BEAUTIFUL! You were born from the HEART OF HEAVEN to BELIEVE in your HEART. You were created PERFECTLY in my sight and in my image. As an image-bearer of LIGHT and LIFE and BEAUTY. As an image-bearer you are triune in being, created in SPIRIT, in MIND, and in BODY.
You are ONE, just as I AM ONE. Together we are ONE.
The BROKENNESS of this world and SIN have brought brokenness to our RELATIONSHIP, to all relationships. SEPARATION, ISOLATION, and REJECTION are all a result of this BROKENNESS in MY BEAUTIFUL BODY of BELIEVERS. Unity & Community are BROKEN as a result.
The HARMONY of My beautiful Body of Believers has been broken. The HEART of My beautiful Body of Believers has been broken. The HOPE of My beautiful Body of Believers has been broken. You have not known THE HEART OF HEAVEN. You have forgotten your first LOVE.
You have forgotten THE HEART OF HEAVEN, but Heaven has not forgotten you! YOU are THE HEART OF HEAVEN, MY BEAUTIFUL BELIEVER. I AM …. BREATHING LIFE into the BROKEN.
ONLY BELIEVE!
My beloved spoke and said to me,
“Arise, my darling, my beautiful one, come with me.”
Song of Songs 2:10
Your Heavenly Father
Believe the Beautiful!
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