I was supposed to do some stand-up comedy but it's a big snowstorm here so I'm not going to be going when the cool thing about snow is that the traffic is way slower moving on my street so I'm not hearing engine noise all the time so I really like that I was at the farmers market the other day and I ran into a man that I've talked to a few times at the farmers market and he follows a man named matt khan and i think i mentioned him in one video but i'm not a fan of how he makes people repeat stuff just gives me the heebie-jeebies a bit but this man that I ran into he said I could watch this video on the key of intention or something like that so I watched it and he talks about how for his thing which is something about the Love Revolution he said the only thing that you need to do is to change the meanings you ascribe to the symbols that you experience or the symbols that we subjectively perceive and I think this is an alignment with a lot of different things I've talked about regarding trans consciousness or map consciousness I talked in earlier videos about how map consciousness is a hyper meaning state and is trying to give new meanings to things and I feel like we actually need that to happen so what Matt Khan is saying to intentionally do is something that the universe is doing through certain people it's a mechanism of the universe anyways so I could consciously sit here and create an intention he'll say every time I have a sip of water may all beings in the world have clean water and he says by doing this we raise our vibration so by changing our intentions are creating these big leaps in intention so I feel like that sometimes what happens in map consciousness one can feel like if I turn off this light switch the world is going to end and I remember feeling like if I eat all this honey I'm going to go into a diabetic coma and die that was part of my suicide attempt and I had other ones too I had all these interesting perceptions I remember feeling like there was some significance to crows like if I saw a crow it meant a certain thing so what I'm trying to get at here is in the state of map consciousness one starts to ascribe odd so-called odd meanings and values to things and what Matt kata saying is to set those intentionally like for example taking a sip of water and having the intention that everybody have clean water I feel like part of what I'm doing through self dialogue is assigning different meanings to so-called mania and psychosis and I could go step further and feel like may all beings be able to create their own context through which to navigate this mysterious and incredible human experience and I feel like what he's talking about is it's pretty good stuff in terms of setting the intentions but then again a person might be limited by the types of intentions when is setting maybe not I'm not sure about that one I think anything that is supposedly positive is a good thing so if it's helpful it's a good thing and I do like what he's saying about that it's a way to keep one's energy a bit higher and he also said we don't change the labels we shift the meaning and when you shift the meaning the experience changes and that's what I feel like I've been doing through self dialogue I'm not necessarily trying to remove the label I have of bipolar but I'm changing the meaning it has for me I'm creating a lot of different meanings and i feel like when i start to embody my mania more what Matt cotton is talking about in terms of setting intentions and really silly intentions with mundane behaviors are pretty extravagant intentions with mundane behaviors I remember doing that in manic consciousness the first time I remember feeling like a strong sense of something being true as an intention like if I gave ten dollars to somebody who looked like they could use a nice meal I felt more beyond just that I felt like it was healing more than just that gesture to that one person and I felt it pretty strongly so what I'm trying to say with map consciousness this intention process sort of happens and changes and creates things and creates meanings and evaluations automatically it's creating these different ones than we would normally ascribe meaning to things the way we regularly ascribe meaning is by the ego and the values of the dopamine so I feel like one can still be too identified possibly with those linear words one is saying about oneself it sounds like it could help lift a vibration of a person but it also sounds like it could possibly be turned into pleasure and then it would just be another way of a person to get dopamine and I don't know how much that would actually raise one's vibration though the protective mechanism could be in that most of the intentions he caves examples of setting were things to do with healing the entire world and for all beings which is an altruistic intention I feel like if a person was able to actually just be altruistic and those things in daily life that would also raise one's vibration versus just thinking altruistic thoughts but I guess it's a good way in a way because he said that even if you put a big intention on something not so great it will raise one's vibration to the point where the person will no longer do that not so great thing and I guess a person would have to test that out to see if it's true but it's interesting I feel like I feel like what he was saying was sort of how a person at least was sort of how a person can get in manic consciousness like one can feel magical one can feel like I'm gonna wave my fingers and that's going to make the Sun Shine and it often does happen so one can make those sort of magical intentions but it's usually in the map consciousness state I feel it's more immediate like it's actually a feedback loop where one is actually seeing that could be true for real right now versus what Matt kata socking boat but in a way doing that what he's talking about intentionally might actually bring one to a state of map consciousness that might bring one to an embodied manic state in a way what he was talking about sounds to me like something i can imagine myself experimenting with and feeling quite manic if i'm starting to think that by taking a sip of water i'm healing the world those are the sorts of things that manic people would think and I'm not saying there's anything wrong with that I'm saying that that could be good that could actually be a way for one to work oneself into a mania and it also sounds like it could be made into something very very silly and fun and and in a way to it could be a way to get to synchronicity because I was talking about synchronicity and I still I'm not sure how it works but it's something I want to explore and I feel like if there's all these bits of information in the field of reality if one is always consistently making one's own meanings then one can start to actually notice meanings synchronizing and noticing that one is the author and creator of that synchronicity so there could be a synchronicity and a person won't see it and if you don't see it and act on it the next one won't be made available so it has to be seen and made meaning of and made meaning of so synchronicity could actually be part of a hyper meaningful state because everything seems so meaningful so everything seems like it's synchronizing like it's synchronistic because everything is meaningful so it's just meaningful meaningful meaningful after another one after another and it's of course not the meanings that the ego would make in terms of oh this tastes good so it's good well this person is talking about something that I'm not interested in so it's bad and I'm going to judge that person for that and always doing the whole good versus bad thing versus one making meaning and seeing meaning and we have to actually see that meaning so they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder well so is synchronicity and he also says that when we assign high intentions to silly actions our light shines brighter so it's not just about setting those my intentions to make those intentions come true it's about if those are our intentions these super high intentions it's going to make us brighter in the moment because we're having those high intentions and I feel like supposed mental illness is just really detaching from the meanings that society has programmed into us our ego meanings what it means to be alive the purpose of life once we detach from those we attempt to make new meanings and we've all been programmed into this narrow band of meaning of ego programming and it's not necessarily bad it's just sort of meaningless for the most part so it makes sense that so many of us would detach from that and start to make some of our own meanings and that actually might be part of our gift that might be part of our unique capacity as human beings is to make meaning but we've already had most of the meaning of our life made for us like do this and you will get that and this means this and that means that instead of actually seeing and making meanings for ourselves and that's part of what I'm doing with this dialogue with myself is just making my own meanings by extrapolating things and just talking about stuff and it's just making my own meanings instead of relying on the meanings and equations that I've been given from society and even when I was diagnosed with a mental illness they think well that means you're mentally ill that means you're all these things and I don't really see those things as true even if I do experience more distress I've heard people say that in their distress states they're actually processing distress for more than just themselves for the collective unconscious and I think I've talked about that to a lot of it's from the collective unconscious and when we become aware of it and and process it we're actually in a way healing it and he also touched on in this video that we're not supposed to go back and constantly try to heal things and process things and I feel like that's one of the reasons why I want to move on from the mental illness paradigm because if I'm always in it I'm sort of working in a paradigm of going back to those states of consciousness which for me have been reoccurring and and somewhat rare in terms of how much time I spend their versus how much time I spend in a more seemingly normal consciousness and also by doing that I'm staying on the medication maybe if I didn't work in that paradigm I wouldn't need to be on the medication and if I if I could if I could do what Matt Khan says I would say something like when I quit my job working in the peer support field may every person pathologize find freedom to create their own meaning and context to move towards and transform into their most beautiful creative and loving selves in a way that will stop the cycle of children being programmed to be other than they were naturally born to be and adults trying to program them in that way that they believe is best may we all flower into the meaning that we make in a creative and loving way so that we never stopped learning we never stop learning how to create our own meaning and share I feel like map consciousness is essential for us not to be manipulated by the meanings of society that we've been programmed to believe and not even believe is just is so fundamental in how we are that we don't know anything different and then map consciousness comes in and shows us something completely different and because it's so different it's a little bit scary at times but it's an attempt to remove the manipulations which are the contrived ways that we've been programmed to be I remember before I was first hospitalized I felt like I was existing in a dream world and that somebody close to me was not going to be in my life moving forward and I remember when I got to the hospital and and then I was diagnosed with a mental illness I sort of realized that I had to be mentally ill in order to resolve nobody else disappearing from my reality that I didn't want to so that's like a meaning I made out of it because there were so many contradictory things that were happening and in mania there are quantum leaps in meaning but they sort of come into consciousness instead of a person intentionally making the meanings what's strange is sort of like what he's doing in his head is sort of how it is in mania I'm wondering if by him doing those sorts of weird things in his head it's causing people to experience those weird quantum leaps and meaning but in in reality in a person's reality I don't know I have this weird sense that by just playing around with words in one's mind it's just creating more words out there in reality for other people to pick up on and for other people as receivers who are maybe not able start seeing all these weird quantum leaps for real in their reality I still think that it's a bit of a distraction in a way it's a way to sort of hypnotized oneself into being okay with ones shitty life I'm pretty sure you're saying your vibration has changed so then when your vibration is changed then things go better you do different things so in a way I guess it could be good i'm just not completely sold on it because again if it's taken into a pleasure reflex or one gets a certain sense when their vibration is rising one can become addicted to that sense of raising vibration and when it becomes something recognizable it's more like a memory it's more just stimulating that memory of that sensation which is similar to just saying a mantra or something like that it's in a way a bit of a form of self-hypnosis and if it is then he's selling in a way self hypnosis and since it's so hypnotizing since it feels good it's easy to sell and often I find when I am a little bit critical if you want to call it somebody i haven't mentioned that many people and I haven't been super critical but just curious about certain elements what people are doing and I don't know everything they're doing so I can't say for sure again it's just me talking to myself to unfold my own meaning I usually find out within a couple weeks what it is that that person was talking about because I've talked about Tom Luton a little bit and talked about how it's not the greatest to be able to behave in order just to go on one's crappy life but I wasn't feeling the greatest the last week or so and I definitely felt like I was able to stay in order and it was handy as opposed to maybe freaking out a little bit and then causing a bit too much unnecessary hoopla so I can see it's very beneficial and necessary but I also still feel like there might be things that I need to change in my life because I wouldn't want to always be needing to do that like it took a week off work and that's something that I would do if I'm feeling like I'm becoming disordered so he talks about having planned for when this happens well I didn't have a plan written down because this job was new but I just knew if I took a week off it'll probably help and I was able to stay in order with the other stuff I was doing even though I wasn't working and I feel a little bit better this week even though there's signs of impending disorder so what I'm saying is I can't take a week off all the time like that so if i was going into disorder the next thing to do would be to get rid of the job and also in terms of making other meanings and i talked about this in a previous video was that in a way my mental health diagnosis is a bit like a disguise because if i go into that meaning-making domain of map consciousness and then i eventually come up against meanings that are a bit scary then i'll likely be sort of medicated or or come through that crisis with some kind of medical intervention and they'll just think oh that's my mental illness so maybe it's fine if people think that it's a mental illness for me and that's when I just smile a nod and just go about whatever again and I think it's it's one thing to create the meanings of our subjective experiences and our symbols in regular consciousness and to set these big intentions as well and it's quite another to be a person that goes into map consciousness and is a pioneer of actually seeing and acting in and seeing other meanings that are actually there it's one thing to say no when i turn on my washing machine the whole planet is healed to actually being in map consciousness and going out and about and seeing something like when i would look at a person and they would change into their beautiful light body version of themselves it was quite an experience and that's an actual experiential confirmation of different meanings it's a different meaning of what it is to to look at somebody without judgement and watch them transform and come alive before one's eyes and that's powerful and to see that and to experience that and then to come back from that one is able to see how meaningless the regular monday life actually is and I think we'd all rather have this other meaning this other perception that shows us other meaning not just hypnotizing ourselves by making warm fuzzy meanings to raise our personal vibration so we can feel better about ourselves and I'm not that I know that's not all it's about I'm just being hyper critical because because I've been to a place I've been in states where some of the crap that he makes up in his head I've actually experienced and it's scary as and maybe because he is making crap up in his head and putting it out there other people are picking up on it in actual reality and I feel like with harvesting mania a person can be sort of a pioneer of the meaning because we can make other meanings most of the meanings we have our are conditioned and programmed ones or the ones that were allowed to know through science and I could make a million meanings and maybe one day they'll have confirmed ten of them by science just through random coincidence but I'm not going to just sit silent and wait 10 years for ten of what of the million things I've said to show up in a scientific paper that I may or may not read that's really boring it feels like map consciousness is the universe setting intentions for us and setting meanings for us and it might be one thing for us to create our own intentions in our mind and it might be another for us to actually be so present that we perceive meanings that the universe is trying to show us and that could have to do with this synchronicity so if we're so busy always creating our own little intentions in our head are we actually going to see what is synchronistic Lee there for us to see and it brings me back to thinking about how would a manic think and process it would create its own rules and games like an example of an intention I would set in mania though I wasn't released thinking I'm going to set an intention it's actually in mania it's like that way is the way of being it's not just a way of thinking and I'm guessing that if a person sets those intentions their way of being will change slightly so that's probably where he's going with that but for me for example I would put quarters and one dollar coins on door handles of vehicles because I thought when people saw that they would maybe smile so my intention my guess was to make people smile or I would throw some money on the ground because I somebody found it they would feel lucky so to me that's a different way of doing it like is it more powerful to put actual physical coin on the ground to make one actual person feel lucky or is it more powerful to not be creative in action and gesture but just be creative in thought and thank those things and sort of feel better in one's own personal self and it's one's personal vibration but not necessarily do anything different now he's saying that a person will naturally do different stuff but why can't we take those fun intentions that he's saying and actually do something for real not just put intentions on one's own daily mundane activities but actually devote some of those daily mundane activity time to actually really doing something in reality and maybe all the intention setting for a year is not as powerful as one smile though maybe a person setting nice intentions for a year will naturally smile more at people so it could just be the same thing in a way I feel like everything is the same thing it doesn't really matter what it is and maybe what matters is the intention and then you get back to the setting of intentions so so that's why he says the meaning we give to the symbols we subjectively perceive

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