My Difficult Conversation

Talking about the use of the economy to harass, humiliate, and undermine me, in ways that keep the systems that should be equal and there for people, become systems I fear, that make the future feel hopeless when control and restrictions also take form of economic weapons , like using bad humor of 69 to overcast the damages it does to me.

In this final episode of My Difficult Conversation (for at least this year) I talk about what causes trauma - and my extent with dealing with it for 16 years as a result of modern slavery, exploitation and aspects of human trafficking - how it has developed and how it has reached a point where I needed to talk about it.

This episode talks about internal posture, how internal posture can affect outer posture, and how we can focus on our own internal posture and how finding the right alignment is a work in progress, on a spectrum, that requires sometimes experimentation and being aware of the situations that cause us to be too weak willed or too uptight and how we receive in life in terms of humanity.

In this episode I talk about the complex dance between rational and irrational fears, based on existing situations or past trauma, and how past abuses of power and a lack of self-determination can leave a lasting impact, complicating the ability to distinguish and navigate these fears effectively, how compartmentalizing our emotions can help us manage them better, learning to strategize from the pros and cons of both irrational and rational categories - so that we feel safer to step outside our comfort zone and become better probability masters of our own luck, reducing the chances of self-sabotage.

Talking about Oh No moments, and how we can strategically use the power of oh no moments, when it's beneficial and when it's not, to empower our mind, heart and humanity.

From relationships, to career, to aspirations to ourselves - how do we decide what to give up and not give up to lighten the load on us, how do we see past societal perceptions of never giving up -- and allow ourselves to make informed decisions whether that even be putting things on hold or redistributing efforts so that we can have more positive long term experiences.

As a person with a history of people causing trauma during special occasions such as my birthday - how do I approach celebrating occasions and how can we all find ways to celebrate occasions without giving in to the expectations and society preconceptions of how a holiday should be spent, how we can remove this idea of coping and in turn take control of the narrative of celebrations without sticking to any routine which can at times put pressure on special occasions.

Bringing to the conversation Do I Matter? I ask myself this all the time and how do we find the answer to this question in a system that undermines value.

In this episode I talk about the perceptions we see in the media inspired by art. I also mention many topics that I found difficult to address in the past because of their political nature- The relation between my film Flu and the covid pandemic, the inauguration, the relation between my book Light Up and the insurrection, my court case and Roe vs Wade, The Russia vs Ukraine war, Hamas vs Israel and political policies inspired by art.

Talking about my experience with stalkers, falling for my stalkers, how the internet created stalking, and how we need to be aware of good and bad stalkers.