In today's episode I read a piece I wrote reflecting upon the realization that I had 11 days left to spend with my dog out of his entire life, and how acknowledging death has allowed me to process being released from the Portland Thorns.  Death is one of the few things in life that is 100% certain. It’s unavoidable. Yet we treat it like it's not just the elephant in the room, but the largest tyrannosaurus rex of the kingdom.  It’s as if we think that acknowledging it will somehow bring us down faster. To read written piece with pictures CLICK HERE  Click HERE to become a part of Friday Feelz Click HERE for a list of the 10 books I believe every female athlete MUST read.    

48- My Dog is Dying, I'm Jobless, and I'm in Awe of my Left Index Finger

Kendall. is a “plog”-like a vlog, but for the podcast world, where I share the rawness of what’s going on in my wild and beautiful brain. 

Over the years, I have recorded thousands of voice messages from when I was going through both identity-shattering and insanely awakening experiences. 

These messages were like a diary for me to process the fullest range of my emotions-from guttural tears to ecstatic bliss. 

I had no intention of sharing these with anyone.

Until now. 

Using these voice messages, I’ll be telling stories about my life- like when I stepped away from the sport I dedicated my entire life to, enrolled in a year-long psychic school, lived in my car, discovered the profound impact psychedelics had on my mental health, and used unconventional approaches to heal my debilitating concussion symptoms.

Enjoy the rideeee

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  In this ep, I share an emotional voice message from when I knew I had to leave pro soccer and focus on my healing. I honestly didn’t realize how much I was hating soccer at the time, until my concerning brain scan forced me to step away.    I packed up from Utah, and as soon as I landed in Portland, I embarked on a camping road trip with my friends Paige and Keelin (who have both been on the pod,  ep. 38 and  ep.58) to Lake Tahoe. I was asked to be a crew member for Paige who was running in the Western States, one of the most highly coveted 100-mile races in the world (that only psycho people ((I love psycho people)) choose to be a part of).  I share another voice message (that at the time, I saved in my phone as "pep talk be you do you f**k others") I recorded from the trip that starts with me feeling really unsettled in my body, questioning WTF I am doing with my life. And then, by the end of it, I’m delivering an animated pep talk to myself about how fucking weird I am, but that’s okay, and suppressing our weird is what causes our pain. It makes me LOL and I hope it makes you LOL too. Or get hyped. Or both. Enjoy!  More musings and mentoring here: http://kendallperiod.com

pep talk be you do you f**k others

Today’s plog is a journeyyyy. I start off sitting in a chair, looking up in the stars, sharing where I’m at in life and what exactly is a “plog.” I  then tell the story of when I was playing pro soccer, dealing with severe concussion symptoms, and participated in an intensive stay at a concussion clinic. At the end of the clinic, I meet with the doctor who revealed to me some results on my brain scan that completely changed my life as I knew it. I inserted the actual conversation w/ this doc, as well as other raw audio messages.  Heads up, I cry. This is saying a lot, considering that I was a clogged sink when it came to emotions at the time. I then go back to the stars and share a bit more about the unconventional healing route I’ve gone on to step further into my fullest expression and to heal my physical concussion symptoms. My website: www.arrowliving.com

what is a "plog"?  and the sus brain scan that spurred my awakening

In today’s episode I interview brave human being and pro soccer player Sydney Miramontez.  Sydney and I met playing for the Utah Royals together. Before a few weeks ago we had no idea that, at the time, we were both secretly struggling with our own eating disorders.  In our conversation, Sydney opens up about her unhealthy relationship to food and exercise. She shares how it all started and tools that helped her to work through it. I personally am most fascinated by the role that birth control played in her journey and how it wreaked havoc on her body.  She dives into how her own research and intuition led her to discover the pill’s negative side effects and how much it just straight up sucks for women’s hormones.  If you stick to the end, I was a sneaky lil beezy and continued recording our convo after our interview ended, and it gets juicyyyyy. We talk about the power of periods, how they are deeply misunderstood and could literally be utilized to teams' advantages. Sydney also shares about what it was like sharing her story publicly for the first time.   I’m so thankful for Syd’s vulnerability.  I know there are so many female athletes who are struggling with their relationship to food, exercise, and their body, it’s simply just not talked about.  If this is you, you are not alone!  Follow Sydney on instagram  Follow Arrow Living on instagram ArrowLiving.com

80-Sydney Miramontez, on her eating disorder story and why birth control sucks

I hated my body, but now I love it and it weirds me out     Today’s episode is a follow-up of my last one on how I healed my “disordered eating.” In particular, I dive deep into my tumultuous relationship to my body.   From bed-ridden concussion symptoms, to digestive issues, disordered eating, to hating what stared back at me in the mirror… my relationship to my body has been through the ringer. For so long, I viewed my body as the thing that was holding me back from doing the things I wanted to do in my life. I felt like a caged animal. A hermit crab, superglued to its shell, sporadically tortured by random emotional and physical sensations, with no place to escape.    When I started learning about the nervous system, everything changed.    In this episode I talk about: -why over-achieving affected my confidence in my body  -the misconception that being positive about your body is healing -going from hating my body to being at peace with it -how I’m losing weight working out less and eating more   And more.    Enjoy :) 

79-I hated my body, but now I love my body and it weirds me out

In today's episode, I go in depth about how about how I healed my "eating disorder'. I share how it all started, the shame I felt for binging in secret , resources that helped, and the book that changed my life and got me to the other side.  Read the written article HERE One on one mentoring HERE

48- My Dog is Dying, I'm Jobless, and I'm in Awe of my Left Index Finger

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