Society tells us that are transgender journeys are all rainbows and lollipops, well, let me tell you that that is bullshit just to be real with you guys! It takes a lot of effort and going through pain even during the start of hormones. And I knew that going in it is a spiritual job it is a spiritual journey. We are already who we are meant to be we just need to awaken it. We don’t have to hate ourselves as a whole just because we don’t like our bodies that’s all society. However I do truly understand because I feel this way that we all who are transgender had this for and one different body parts I understand that and that’s a real invalid. But we must realize that we can still like their hearts are beating our our our voice or our colored eyes or our hair or our stance on life for refit I don’t know when we realize that we are more than our gender we will become happier. I also want to add that gender dysphoria blocks creativity intelligence expression happiness joy true emotions in general and keep them all locked in your stomach new your sacral chakra and your root chakra and that’s what gets people very unbalanced and that’s what happened to me. So that’s why I have to go through a few days or even a few weeks I’ve just side effects and then I realized that a spiritual awakening is both pain and enjoy. Because if you don’t have pain you can’t have light and if you don’t have darkness you can’t have light I’m just saying and I’ve gone through hell trust me this that I’m ready for my true self to re-emerge from my soul and me already I’m not going to be trying to be someone else so I’m not I’m not going to be a listening to YouTube videos of war telling people that I should just wear all this make up and you dragon shit I don’t wanna do drag not at all that’s not what gender identity is so much more than that just because I’m transit doesn’t mean I wanna do drag just because that someone can be drug or does drag that doesn’t mean they are transgender either. So I just wanted to say those things and this is a very personal story so just be kind and if you know someone who’s juggling let them now that that they can go on YouTube just expect to find mainly body image and veryAsk sick people about transgender issues on there. If I were them I would have a very good support system friends parents partner work whoever it is and I would actually ask of them to have a lot of solitude and realize that it’s an inside job because when we really think about it we are just an inside soul looking down on her body.