[E] I continue to decide I don't want Patrick* in my life and see other men. But this doesn't last long as he comes back and I'm convinced its going to be better this time. Will this be his last chapter? Find out.

[E] I finally realise that I don't want Patrick* around and he starts communicating more than ever. Friends don't seem to be working, so I jump on Tinder and find myself someone who wants me. *names have been changed for privacy reasons.

[E] Are we more, aren't we? Patrick* is leaving me more confused than before. The month of November leaves me over it and feeling powerful enough to walk away. But will he come back, like he always does? Link to Candice Jalili's article 'Anxiety or...

[E] After Patrick* tells me he just wants to be friends, but then doesn't act much like my friend, we navigate our strange new territory of flirting, sexting and more.*names have been changed for privacy.

[E] Patrick* decides he just wants to be friends, and we organise to meet as that and things do not stay as innocent as friends should in October 2014.*names have been changed for privacy reasons.

[E] Patrick* and I have finally met in person and I am over the moon with how its going, until things get weird in the second half of September 2014.*names have been changed for privacy reasons.

[E] Things start to become odd with Patrick and the red flags emerge over the first half of September 2014.

[E] Patrick is introduced into my diary and I cover our first couple interactions.

A quick overview on what to expect from me, and this podcast.