Oh heavens I am so sorry you guys get another week of me talking to myself! But I'm introducing what I will be calling the Dreamer Series, which was inspired by a retreat I took last weekend. Basically I want to start a movement of supporting and helping make dreams a reality! So of course I am starting off with my own dream. Also a little update on MTV and how that's going. Also, sorry I am the world's most awkward human! Also S/O to my bachelorette cohost, Jay, because he checked in on me to make sure I was alive and kicked my butt into getting back on here with y'all!

Oh gosh, I wouldn't even know where to begin if I tried. It's been six weeks since I last talked to you guys, and I missed you! Just a quick little update on what is happening in my life, and a little recap up through episode 2 of Bachelor in Paradise. So glad to be back!!!

Jay said last week that he was gonna let Nikkita talk more this week. Do you think that actually happened?? Small recap of the last week's episode, but it was pretty boring, so we started getting right into paradise and what might happen! Can you believe hometowns are THIS WEEK???

Hahaha Jay is gonna hate me when he sees this title. But we have a lot to unwrap from this week! The guys are starting to show their true colors and we are starting to see who the producers are pushing for bachelor. Also, Happy Independence Day, America.

Kita goes to a casting call, we talk about the 2-on-1, and then we break Jay. But seriously....I think we broke him this week. Kita had a situation this week that was very much like a situation with Becca and one of her men on this week's episode, and Jay has SO MUCH to say about it. But don't we all love the drama? I've been Kita-welcome to the sitcom!

This week we have Ciara Wilkins on with us!!! She is living in Logan, UT so we are repping Utah well here! Also giving Ben Higgens a run for his money with Jay's Jabbers.

BACHELORETTE RECAP! With my homie JaQuawn Turner. This is going to be a new little segment every week where we are recapping what has been going on, answering questions you guys might have, and enjoying this journey with Becca!

I mean of course we have to talk about this at some point! What are the dos and don'ts for Kita and Tasha? Who did Tasha have a crush on in high school? Why is Kita eating literally the whole show? So many questions that we have answers to! Plus we finally hear Tasha go on her rant about communication, trust me, it's a good one! Find us @kitashae92 and @tash_lye or email us at [email protected]

This week we have our first "carcast" coming at you! I am keeping to form with spontaneous PMS purchases that give Tash some entertainment and makes me bawl my face off (shout out to the cast of Stars on Ice!!!!). Also sorry it's out a day late, there was some BIG news in bachelor word that I just HAD to be a part of. Also Tash is finally telling us one of her love stories!!!! What is this world coming to?

Today we are talking about irrational fears! Basically...they are scary. Also introducing a new segment called "Don't get me started". We need ideas of stupid things to rant about!!! Send your ideas to [email protected] or slide in the DMs on insta at @kitashae92 !