Gwen's kids needs are bigger than her checkbook and she struggles with asking for financial help. It's scary to trust after a life with a Cluster B personality disordered spouse. It's scarier to ask Nihm or anyone in his circle for anything. But, are Gwen's fears and pride (to do it all on her own, thank you very much) getting in the way of receiving true gifts and provision? Join Gwen on her porch as she figures out how to circumvent Nihm and potentially solve these problems.

Gwen reminices about the day she left Nihm....her Independence Day. The day she left for diaper wipes and never came back. What was your independence day like? Or, are you planning your day of freedom? Gwen has all her red, white, and blue decor on her porch and a fizzy drink in hand as she tells the tale. And she declares her new home as a land of freedom because she was brave.

Listening note: if you'd like to hear the podcast with all the musical elements, listen on spotify (just this episode because it's the only way, technical rules)

Cluster B refers to the category of personality disorder in psychology that contains narcissism, borderline, antisocial, and histrionics. Gwen thinks it should be called Cluster F... because this cluster really causes havoc and trauma drama wherever they go. Join Gwen on her porch as she breaks it all down for entertainment purposes, not diagnostic or treatment, with more of Nihm's emails. Bring your beverage, but caution when drinking because this tale will cause a spit take or two!

Listening note: still getting down the tech and voice changing so there are a few extra seconds of pauses between email reads. listen at 1.5 speed if that's better for ya.

Gwen shares the latest adventure with trying to keep a family tradition that's important to her. She thinks this will help her daughters make new memories and have fun and bond and all that good stuff. Traveling with teens who are recovering from trauma many years later proves to be more challenging than she expected.

Gwen is fed up with the repetitive nightmare that she has about try to escape from Nihm. She's been having this nightmare for years. Gwen took to Dr. Google to see what she could do about getting this to stop (and find out why she's having this nightmare). Grab your favorite beverage and a comfy blanket and head on up to her front porch as she shares the tale of the "nightmare on my street."

Gwen shares her reaction to a recent sermon about the Bible story of the healing at the pool of Bethesda (John 5:1-10). A man has been hanging around the porches for 38 YEARS waiting for a healing. Gwen says that she can relate because coparenting with a narcissist for 10+ years can certainly feel like 38 years. She relates how it's easy to loose hope in all those years. And then Jesus steps in...

If you need some quick encouragement to keep going, or if you've run out of hope, hang out with Gwen in this bonus episode.

There's another showdown at the OK corral (Gwen's way of referring to family court) this time amid the C-19 lockdowns of 2020 so it's being held virtually via Zoom. What happened at the hearing? Well, come on up to Gwen's porch and listen to her tell the tale.

Listening note: there. will. be. pauses. between reading of emails and such. Listen on 1.5 speed if that bugs ya.

TW: sexual abuse

Happy Easter! Join Gwen on her porch and listen to her favorite Easter Sunday Sermon's from Elevation Church. Gwen shares her thoughts and sings a little out of tune about how she lives again after the trauma of marriage to and divorce from a narcissist, and finds hope in the co-parenting for almost two decades with a terribly personality disordered individual. Bring your dry bones up on her porch and rattle them with Gwen to find hope, restoration, and healing in God.

Gwen is back, baby! Where has she been? Are her kids okay? What's happened in that really long break she took? And, like, why?

Come on up and sit a spell on her porch with your favorite beverage and get all caught up. Of course there's been quite a bit to tell. Gwen will fill you in on her rona19 burn out, Adrenal fatigue, coparenting through the lockdown, and the week leading up to the hearing (finally) that may or may not involve the police.

Gwen is in isolation and quarantine recovering from the 'rona.  She tells the tale of having to deal with Nihm through emails and texts in order to keep telling him NO to his requests.  That's always a harrowing adventure.  And, guess what, summer is coming.  And for most kids and parents in a divorced family with a narc that doesn't mean summer vacation fun.  Gwen walks us through her dilemma of how to handle this summer.  Because making decisions about life during a world pandemic isn't scary enough, she's got the added ingredient of a narc to coparent with as well.  Sit back and relax as Gwen adds humor and some guidance on how to navigate recovering from COVID19 as a single parent, summer schedule stress, and saying plain ol' NO.  Mostly she's just glad you are here!