Another day, another stream of thoughts. What it’s coming down to is that there are FEELINGS in my body that are asking something of me, and even though I don’t know fully what that is yet, the more I follow them, the more that starts to unfold.

Living in Response is me publicly being a beginner and taking those steps into the unknown in full trust of whatever is to come.

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The Shift from Fixing to Flowing

Reflecting on recent emotional struggles and how I initially approached them through my energetic process—only to realize I was subtly trying to fix myself rather than fully surrendering to the experience.

The Frustration of Trying to Control the Process

Noticing how, even when I intellectually acknowledge that healing isn’t about forcing a shift, there was an underlying expectation that my emotions should resolve within my preferred timeline. Recognizing that integration doesn’t always happen consciously or on demand.

Surrendering to What My Body Needs

Shifting from energetic processing to self-care:

* Honoring my cravings for a grilled cheese and a chocolate chip cookie

* Allowing movement (walking on the treadmill) to support me

* Acknowledging that sometimes, my body simply needs rest, not more analysis

Nature Doesn’t Hurry—Neither Should I

A powerful moment of clarity at the gym while watching a Bird of Paradise tree, recalling the Lao Tzu quote: “Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.”

Realizing that:

* True alignment comes from going at my own pace

* The more I focus on what’s next, the further it feels

* The needle moves forward in small, almost imperceptible ways—until suddenly, I find myself in a new place entirely

Living in Response: A Real-Time Creative Practice

* Acknowledging that I spent years projecting into the future, waiting to “figure it all out” before sharing my thoughts

* Embracing doing rather than overthinking—this podcast itself is proof of moving forward

* Recognizing that meaning is found in the act of creating, not in pre-determined certainty

From Money to Meaning

A major realization: I don’t need to rush my life in pursuit of money.

* Recognizing the pressure of “spiritual capitalism” and the societal push for financial success

* Choosing meaning, alignment, and trust over forcing a career path out of fear

* Understanding that my life isn’t about retiring early but about doing work I love until old age forces me to stop

The Power of Radical Responsibility

Reflecting on my upbringing—poverty, food stamps, financial struggles—and how I made the decision that my life would not follow that same trajectory.

* Taking radical responsibility for my financial situation without making my past an excuse

* Learning to manage money intentionally, not impulsively

* Recognizing that financial success isn’t about accumulation, but about creating a life I don’t need to escape from

Giftedness & Neurocomplexity: Understanding How My Mind Works

* Exploring how being gifted shaped my experiences growing up

* How the “gifted” label comes with challenges—feeling different, being misunderstood, and navigating societal expectations

* Processing how my fast-thinking, pattern-seeking mind influences my struggles with small talk and social settings

Letting Go of Labels & Expectations

* Releasing the need to make sense of everything

* Trusting feelings and intuition over rigid analysis

* Saying yes to opportunities that feel alive in my body, even if they make no logical sense

Final Thoughts: Moving the Needle, One Small Step at a Time

* Recognizing that every day, no matter how small, is progress

* Some days will feel like a contraction, but that’s part of the forward motion—like a jellyfish propelling itself through the ocean

* Choosing to live my life in a way that feels nourishing, meaningful, and true to me

Final Thoughts

This episode is about letting go of force, trusting my natural rhythm, and allowing my life to unfold without rushing toward the future. Every day, I move closer to what I truly want—not by hustling, but by aligning with what feels alive in my body.

If you’re listening, thanks for being here <3

Mystically,

Belle

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