Verse 1
I’m spent
these days I’m finished
don’t need ya 2 cents
how I’m supposed to be driven
never had much luck
on the cards I was given
now I walk around like a bad boy piston
chip on my shoulder
it get wet from the tears
and as I get older
I start to challenge my fears
as I get older
I start to lose all my peers
the world getting colder
I’m surprised that I’m here
and that I made it this far
I wasn’t supposed to
emotions bottled up in a jar
from what I go thru
thinking where do I start
I gotta go soon
take a glimpse at my heart
talk to someone I’m closed to
it’s been a minute since I did that
I’m a social empath
And I’m on my get back
from Lucy tryna creep in
and shit I’m tryna get past
been a real setback
feel like I’ll never relax
think I need to fall back
Im holding on
but I wanna let loose
you see the trees growing
but you don’t see the roots
leaves blowing in a pile
and they cover the truth
I changed my name to NILEZ
I’m trying something new
Hook x2
wherever I go, I feel protected
where the wind blows
I hope she hear my message
told me you needed to go
I won’t forget it
last words that you spoke
I won’t forget it
Verse 2
the times I ain’t pick up the phone
I’m gon regret it
good times, cut short
and I hate to mention
the grief ain’t hit till now
was too busy stressing
I know you looking down
I’m calling for a blessing
I wish I wasn’t dismissive
it hurt to see you bed ridden
I miss the smell of your kitchen
try to keep the tears hidden
all the times I ain’t visit
hard to not feel ashamed
I can’t look into the mirror
without pointing the blame
the feeling is strange
it’s so surreal
but I gotta keep it pushing
she know the deal
always kept it real
I respected your hustle
my second mother
it was hard watching you struggle
hard to come to grips with it
we just have to live with it
knowing it was your time
that’s how I deal with it
on the decline
fighting till she flatlined
let’s put the past behind us
first week had to rewind
memories hard to think about
force myself to be fine
as soon as she went out
wanted to throw the peace sign
relief time, she’ll be okay
no more suffering, no more pain
now it’s passed down to us
see you another day
I’ll see you at heavens gates
Hook x2
wherever I go, I feel protected
where the wind blows
I hope she hear my message
told me you needed to go
I won’t forget it
last words that you spoke
I won’t forget it
