In this episode I'm flying solo and checking in with how things have been going for me and my recovery.  I cover what's been working and what I've been struggling with.  When the urge to act out hits it usually means there is a need that is not being met and It is my job to determine what the need is and finding the right tool for that need, however the solution isn't always clear.  When the solution isn't always clear that's when I have to lean on my support network and my Higher Power, by making a call and saying a prayer.  These physical and mental reps often lead me to a solution and away from my inner circle, and that's recovery.  In this process I am showing up for myself and meeting my needs which always feels better than the alternative of acting out.  Thank you for joining me on my journey!

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In this episode I am joined by Manny.  Manny and I met through a zoom meeting last year.  Over the course of our friendship we have shared our struggles and victories, Manny has been there for me through some of my lowest moments.  Speaking about low moments, this conversation has reminded me that there have been multiple rock bottoms that I have hit over the course of my recovery, and  because of those very low moments there has been clarity and lessons learned.  By no means do I want to continue hitting these bottoms in order for me to learn however the ones I did hit were apart of my journey to stable happiness.  Stable happiness for me is often mislabeled as boring, and that's the addict in me trying to tell me that without acting out or using that my life is boring, but that is a lie to try and get me back to my old ways.  Being able to see that as a lie is a huge part of our awareness to the deceit our addict minds try to feed us.  This was an awesome conversation!  I want to send a huge thank you to Manny for having the willingness to come on and share his journey.  I hope you enjoy this conversation as much as I enjoyed being a part of it.  Thank you for joining me on my journey!

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In this episode I am joined by Jon.  Jon and I met when I attended the 5 day trauma intensive at Begin Again Institute, where we spent 5 days in the trenches digging up our pasts and trying to make sense of the trauma that we experienced growing up and how it has affected us today.  There is a certain bond that is formed when you are doing this kind of work in a group.  You go from complete strangers to knowing the most intimate details of someone's past in a matter of minutes!  Jon and I reflect on our time spent at BAI together from what impacted him the most, learning the hardest part is letting go, figuring out there is something else other than him, and how he has carried these things into his life today.  Even with the revelations and the light bulbs that go off during these intense sessions its hard to not get down when things are messy, and recovery is messy.  Big thanks to Jon for having the willingness to come on and the strength to share his experience.  I hope you enjoy our conversation and thank you for joining me on my journey!

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In this episode I am joined by an important person in my life, my sponsor Jeff.  Jeff has been in recovery for a number of years and in this episode he details his childhood, what led him into recovery, what keeps him coming back, and the nuts and bolts of recovery.  Jeff is filled with wisdom and not afraid to share his journey to anybody that will listen.  Jeff's story is a long one and it is filled with a lot of powerful thoughts and motivators from being in and out of the program over the years, finding the will and the strength to make recovery his life, to staying true to himself in recovery.  I am honored to have Jeff in my life as someone I can lean on and share my journey with.  I hope everyone enjoys Jeff's story as much as I enjoyed having him in the studio, and thanks so much for joining me on my journey!

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In this episode I am joined by BAI therapist Nate Geyer.  I got to work one on one with Nate while I was at BAI in 2021 and again in August of 2022, and like Matt Wenger, Nate is exceptional at what he does.  Nate shares his story from growing up with the struggle of two stories, the first story being what's on the surface and the story that is inside which is a story that is created by our own mind and tells us we are alone.  Nate talks about what led him to BAI and what he discovered about himself through his own trauma work.  In one way our trauma is like a car that is on fire and inside that car is our little kid trapped, my addiction only pulls him out temporarily only to drop him right back off inside of that burning car.  Its my job through my recovery to rescue that little kid once and for all.  I hope you enjoy listening to this episode as much as I enjoyed being a part of it.  Thanks so much for joining me on my journey!

Go check out Begin Again Institute at beginagaininstitute.com and their sister program Boulder Recovery at boulderrecovery.com

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In this episode I go over the details of my most recent trip back to Begin Again Institute in Boulder, Colorado where I attended a 5 day trauma intensive, that built on what I had learned when I was there a year and a half ago.  I was really excited to be going back and I'm really happy that I did. In order for me to progress in my recovery and heal I must commit to the process even through all of the anxiety and fears because on the other side of fear is great reward I just have to take those leaps.  While I was there I learned that I've been carrying a lot of guilt and guilt is what keeps me in my addictive cycle.  I've learned to really slow things down, and that being mindful of what's going on in my body, where In my body am I feeling these things, and how do those feel physically to me.  On top of learning more about myself and how I work I got to meet and spend time with and connect with some amazing guys, and connection is a top value for me.  Thanks so much for listening and joining me on my journey!

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On this episode I am honored to be joined by Matt Wenger.  Matt is the the clinical Director and lead therapist at Begin Again Institute and Boulder Recovery in Boulder, CO, and has worked with hundreds of sex addicts.  Begin Again Institute is where my recovery journey started back in February 2021.  Matt and I discuss how important it is for sex addicts to get down to the root trauma when it comes to this addiction, how he is able to keep everyone's story organized in his own head, and a new perspective when it comes to future tripping versus dreaming.  This was an awesome conversation and really brings the hard work that I've been putting in full circle.  I hope everyone enjoys, and thanks for joining me on my journey! 

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Welcome back to another episode, this time its a solo check in, which I felt like I haven't done in a while. The beast that I have been dealing with lately is fear.  For me fear has run my life. From the fear of rejection, the fear of failure, the fear that I wont be able to provide for myself, fear of what other people think, fear that I'm not good enough, all the way down to a fear of dogs. Too many times in my life this fear has held me back, where does it come from and what can I do to better manage and move past it?   Even though this isn't anything new to me the resurfacing of it couldn't have come at a better time, because i am going back to treatment for an Alumni intensive.  The first time i went to treatment i was absolutely terrified, and this time around the feelings and emotions are the complete opposite.  I couldn't be more excited! I'm facing my fears one day at a time.  Thanks for listening and joining me on this journey.

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In this episode I am joined by a brother from the program Wes.  Wes is a part of one of my regular weekly meetings that I have been attending over the last year and a half, and this is the first time that we have really connected outside of the meeting.  We both discovered that we have a lot in common from how we were raised to the way our brain functions and how rigorous honesty has set us free.  In this conversation it really shows the importance and the beauty of the program and how we get to cross paths with people that we normally wouldn't and just how much we have in common.  I am very grateful for Wes's willingness to come on the podcast and share his experience.  I look forward to having him back on in the future, because like all my guests there is so much to talk about!  Thanks for listening and enjoy!

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In this episode I am honored to be joined again by Big Ticket. We discuss his recent breakup and how his recovery has changed now that he is single, and how being single while in recovery from sexual addiction is a tough thing to navigate, the consequences to our actions are different and there is less of a backstop for us when we get into our addictive cycle.  Being single in recovery for sexual addiction is something I know all too well and I'm very grateful to have others like Big Ticket to share the journey with. Thanks for listening!

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