Episode 042 of Living in Response is raw in every sense of the word (in addition to being unedited). Thanks for being a part of the journey <3

“The spiritual journey is individual, highly personal. It can't be organized or regulated. It isn't true that everyone should follow one path. Listen to your own truth.”― Ram Dass

Topics Covered in This Episode:Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ The Day I Didn't RecordFor the first time, I intentionally chose not to record. I sat with my mic, tuned into my body, and instead of pushing through out of discipline, I honored the voice that said: not today. It was a practice in presence over performance - which to me still felt like devotion.

2️⃣ Grief for a Promised LifeI speak to the grief that comes from realizing the dream I was sold—that hard work leads to a fulfilling life—wasn’t true for me. It was a “bag of goods,” and letting go of that narrative has been painful but necessary.

3️⃣ Spiritual Awakening Through LayersI reflect on how each stage of spiritual awakening has peeled back layers of identity—from believing I'm just a product of my upbringing to realizing I'm awareness itself. With each layer, my orientation to life keeps expanding.

4️⃣ The Loss of the Dream of WealthAnother grief emerged: the softening of the belief that spiritual alignment guarantees riches. I’m not giving up on abundance, but I’m shifting from chasing a fantasy to opening to a more meaningful, embodied path.

5️⃣ A Shift from “Fixing” to Being WithI unpack how, in the past, I tried to “help” others by pushing solutions onto them. Now, I’m moving into a more loving approach—offering what helped me without attachment or expectation because trying to convince / fix doesn’t feel like the way. Seeing people as anything other than already whole feels like a disservice.

6️⃣ Purpose Is Not a Straight LineThe belief that I’d “find the thing” and do it forever is dissolving. I share how I explored astrology, Human Design, and intuitive readings, only to find that doing them for others drained me. Purpose, I’m learning, unfolds over time.

7️⃣ Letting the Body LeadThrough trial and error, I’ve learned that my mind can get high on ideas, but my body holds the truth. I talk about how discernment and nervous system cues help me avoid misaligned decisions, especially in business and education investments.

8️⃣ Coherence, Earth, and ServiceI return to heart coherence and collective energy work, feeling called to support healing not just through action, but through frequency. It's a form of service rooted in somatic awareness and quiet resonance with the earth and others.

9️⃣ Expanding Beyond “Me” SpiritualityThere’s a grief in realizing that my spiritual path isn’t just about creating a perfect life for myself—it has to include others. I talk about moving from self-focused manifestation to a more interconnected sense of purpose. It’s a “both/and” type of situation.

🔟 The Illusion of Spiritual CapitalismI question the narrative that spiritual success is measured by personal wealth. What if that’s not the point? I reflect on the collective narratives that shaped this belief and what it means to question them now.

1️⃣1️⃣ Critical Mass & Global HealingI dive into the HeartMath Institute’s hypothesis of reaching a critical mass of coherence—and how that idea resonates deeply. I explore the possibility that coherence, love, and energetic regulation might ripple into real-world change.

1️⃣2️⃣ The Softening of AttachmentAs I release the grip on rigid expectations, I open to an unknown path. Don’t get me wrong, I still desire a beautiful life, but I’m learning to trust that it will unfold in a way that supports both my soul AND the greater good.

🌀 The Bottom Line: Letting It UnfoldThis episode is about presence, grief, softness, and trust. It’s about letting go of what I thought life would be—and staying open to what it’s becoming. My path doesn’t need to be perfect. It just needs to be mine.

Mentions & Resourcesnot affiliated, just a fan

💖 HeartMath Institute – Coherence, collective healing, and the silent revolution👣 Earthing Institute – Grounding science and ancestral reconnection📖 My Story – From poverty, gifted kid pressures, and spiritual burnout to now🔥 Discernment – A spiritual muscle I’m building with every aligned 'no'

❤️ Core Message: The path to purpose isn’t linear. Sometimes you grieve what you thought it would be. But what comes next might just be more honest, more connected, and more you.

Deep gratitude for all the seen and unseen forces that have supported (and continue to support) me on this journey through life.

Mystically,

Belle

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