Not a Perfect Christian

Episode 22: Do I Really Honor God?

Have you ever said something without thinking, then immediately questioned yourself?

This week, while studying for my Physiology midterm and watching church online, I caught myself saying “Oh God” right as the pastor was talking about using God's name in vain. That moment made me question my everyday expressions, the promises I make, and what it really means to honor God.

In my Tuesday Bible study, we explored worship beyond singing—learning about surrender, sacrifice, God's mercy, and living a life that honors Him.

And I have some exciting news! I got an A on my Physiology midterm! It's my third time taking this class, and I'm determined to keep moving toward my goal of becoming a nurse.

This episode is about asking questions, learning from our habits, celebrating small victories, and growing in faith one day at a time.

I'm not perfect. You're not perfect. We're still… figuring it out.

Bible References: Matthew 5:37, Romans 12:1–2, Psalm 95:6, 1 John 1:9, Philippians 4:8, 2 Samuel 24:24.

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Is there a right way to pray? Or does God simply want us to talk to Him?

Have you ever listened to someone pray and thought, “Wow, they're really good at praying”?

Because I have.

Sometimes I hear people praying with beautiful words and long sentences. Then there's me...

“Hey God, it's me again.”

That's literally how I talk to God sometimes. Like I'm talking to a friend.

This week, I asked my Tuesday small group a question I've been wondering about: Is there a standard way we're supposed to pray?

I'm still learning how to pray, and sometimes I wonder if my words are too simple or if I'm doing something wrong.

I also joined a new Monday night small group because I want to learn from people of different ages and life experiences.

And I recently completed a three-day fast, not to prove anything, but because I wanted to slow down, step away from distractions, and focus on God.

In this episode, I reflect on what Jesus teaches us about prayer, why we sometimes compare our faith to others, and how important it is to make time for God even when life gets busy.

We explore Matthew 6:5–13, Psalm 23:1–3, Romans 8:15–16, and Hebrews 4:16.

One thing I'm learning is:

I spend so much time planning my future, but sometimes I forget to spend time with the One I'm asking to guide my future.

I'm not a pastor. I'm not a Bible scholar. I'm just an ordinary guy trying to understand God and grow closer to Him.

And maybe I don't need perfect words to start a conversation with God.

Maybe I just need to be willing to come to Him.

I'm still learning. Still asking questions. Still making mistakes.

And still figuring it out—one step closer to God.

Welcome to Episode 21 of Not A Perfect Christian.

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What if being uncomfortable doesn't mean you're in the wrong place? What if it means you're growing?

Twenty episodes. I honestly didn't think I would make it this far.

This week, our small-group discussion about serving made me reflect on my past, my fears, and the times I walked away simply because I felt uncomfortable.

I shared my experience serving with Youth for Christ in the Philippines for four years and how everything changed when I started serving in a high school ministry in America. The cultural differences made me uncomfortable, and eventually, I stopped.

But our discussion reminded me of something important: Sometimes growth begins where comfort ends.

And then I realized something.

This podcast is one of the biggest steps I've taken outside my comfort zone.

I'm an introvert. English isn't my first language. I've always been insecure about my accent, my grammar, and what people might think of me.

I was scared to start. I questioned whether I was good enough to talk about God when I'm still learning about Him myself.

But somehow, here we are.

Twenty episodes later, and people are actually listening.

In this special episode, I reflect on serving, fear, insecurity, stepping outside our comfort zones, and what Jesus teaches us about serving others in Mark 10:42–45.

I'm learning that I don't need a perfect voice, perfect English, or all the answers to share my journey with God.

Sometimes God doesn't ask us to be comfortable. He asks us to be willing.

To everyone who has listened since Episode 1, thank you. You have no idea how much it means to me.

And to anyone who's afraid to start something because they don't feel good enough...

Maybe you don't need to know how you'll reach Episode 20. Maybe you just need the courage to start Episode 1.

I'm still an introvert. I still have my accent. I'm still making mistakes.

But I'm still here.

Still learning. Still growing. Still serving.

And still figuring it out—one step closer to God.

Welcome to Episode 20 of Not A Perfect Christian.

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I missed church again this week… but before you judge me, let me show you my work schedule. 😂

Between night shifts, day shifts, school, and starting a new small group, Sunday finally came—and my body basically said, “Brother, you need sleep.”

But even though I didn’t make it to church, God was still teaching me.

This week at small group, we talked about hermeneutics—a big word for learning how to study the Bible and understand what we’re actually reading.

I realized that reading the Bible isn’t just about opening it, picking a verse, and applying it however we want. There’s context. Different cultures. Different literary styles. Different backgrounds. And understanding those things can help us better understand what Scripture is actually saying.

One lesson really stayed with me:

A good hermeneutic leads to a good view of God, ourselves, and the world.

So this episode isn’t about pretending I understand the entire Bible. I definitely don’t. 😂 It’s about learning how to read it better, ask better questions, and keep growing.

Because maybe the goal isn’t just to say, “I read the Bible.”

Maybe the better question is:

“Do I understand what I’m reading?”

I’m not a perfect Christian. I’m still learning, still asking questions, and still trying to get one step closer to God.

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Episode 18 — I Missed Church, But the Message Found Me

I missed church again this week—but somehow, the message still found me.

After working while dealing with a headache for several days, I decided to go home, rest, and sleep. Then a friend from Arizona messaged me with some chismis 😂, asked if I went to church, and when I said no, she sent me her church notes.

The message was simple but something I needed to hear:

Remember where God found you.
Remember what God brought you through.
Remember what God gave you.

Based on Joshua 24, it reminded me that sometimes we're so focused on asking God what's next that we forget to look back at everything He's already brought us through.

I also tried Christian speed dating for the first time. 😂 No match this time, but that's okay. I'm learning that I don't need to rush love just because I want a relationship. I can take my time, learn from my past, have healthy boundaries, and trust that the right relationship is worth waiting for.

Maybe I didn't get the match I wanted, and maybe I didn't make it to church—but this week reminded me that God has already brought me through so much.

I'm still learning. Still growing. Still dating, apparently. 😂

And still figuring it out—one step closer to God.

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What happens when life gets so busy that God slowly starts getting whatever time is left?

This week, I didn’t make it to church. I took an extra shift because I’m preparing to move, tried golf for the first time, played pickleball after work, and somewhere in the middle of an ordinary and busy week, God still found a way to get my attention.

Two videos I came across made me think deeply about distractions, failure, relationships, and the people who come and go in our lives. Romans 12:9 reminds us to cling to what is good, while Proverbs 27:17 reminds us that iron sharpens iron.

I’m learning that when I get distracted or fail, I don’t need to stay stuck in shame—I can turn back to God. And when people enter or leave my life, I can appreciate what they taught me without making another person the foundation of my life.

I missed church this Sunday… but God didn’t miss me.

People change. Relationships change. Plans change. Life changes.

God remains.

I’m not perfect. I’m still learning, still growing, and still figuring it out—one step closer to God.

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Episode 16 — Be Strong… Even When You’re Tired

What does it mean to be strong when you honestly don’t feel strong anymore?

This week, I felt overwhelmed, burned out, and exhausted. I missed two quizzes, struggled with motivation for school and the podcast, and started wondering how I’m supposed to keep carrying everything at once.

Then on my only day off, I went to church and heard a message from Joshua 1:9: “Be strong and courageous.”

It reminded me that being strong doesn’t mean pretending everything is okay or carrying everything by myself. Joshua could move forward because God was with him.

In this episode, I share the reality of burnout, learning from my mistakes, allowing myself to rest, a little dating update 😂, and what I’m learning about taking life one step at a time.

I don’t have everything figured out. I’m still tired. I’m still learning.

But maybe I don’t need strength for the next five years.

Maybe I just need enough faith for the next step.

I’m not perfect. You’re not perfect. We’re still… figuring it out. 🙏

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Another birthday. Another year. And another reminder of how much life can change.

This is my fourth birthday away from my family, and even after four years, days like this still make me miss home a little more.

But this birthday isn’t only about what I’m missing. It’s also about being grateful for what God has given me—the people who have become part of my life here, three birthday dinners waiting for me 😂, a Morgan Jay comedy show, and another year to learn, grow, and keep moving forward.

I’m also continuing my birthday tradition of lighting a candle at church, taking a moment to pray, and simply thanking God for another year.

“Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” — Psalm 90:12

I may not be where I thought I’d be by this age. I definitely don’t have everything figured out. But maybe that’s okay.

God isn’t finished with me yet.

Still learning. Still growing. Still grateful. Still figuring it out.

And still Not A Perfect Christian. 🎂🙏❤️

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Sometimes we get so busy moving forward that we forget to stop and ask where we’re actually going.

This week, I’ve been tired, burned out, working a lot, preparing for tennis finals, and trying to keep everything together. On my only day off, I visited a new church and heard the story of Saul in Acts 9—and one message stayed with me:

Disruption can lead to transformation.

Saul thought he knew where he was going until Jesus interrupted his journey and completely changed the direction of his life.

Maybe not every interruption is something we need to understand immediately. Sometimes God meets us right in the middle of uncertainty and uses it to change us.

And if you think your past makes you too far gone for God, remember Saul:

No one is beyond the reach of God’s saving grace.

Also… after a month, I finally got a haircut AND cleaned my car. 😂 So apparently transformation is happening everywhere.

Still tired. Still learning. Still growing. Still Not A Perfect Christian. 🙏❤️

🎧 Episode 14 — Sometimes God Has to Interrupt You

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This week feels a little different.

My birthday is coming up, life is getting busier, and somehow this little podcast and community are growing more than I ever expected. What started as me simply sharing my imperfect journey with God has now reached thousands of people.

And lately, some of you have trusted me enough to send messages asking for prayer, encouragement, and advice. I’ll be the first to admit—I don’t always know what to say. I don’t have all the answers. I’m still figuring out my own faith too.

But maybe we don’t always need the perfect words. Sometimes we just need to be present, listen, pray for each other, and remind someone that they’re not alone.

Thank you to everyone listening, watching, commenting, sharing, and following Not A Perfect Christian. I never expected this journey to grow like this.

We’re still learning. Still growing. Still figuring it out—together. 🙏❤️

Not A Perfect Christian — Episode 13

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