(TRIGGER WARNING FOR SUICIDAL THEMES)

Suicide and Crisis Lifeline in the USA: 988

Right now, I am okay, but this song was written during a dark time!

I won’t be mad if you don’t listen!

This goes to show how real and destructive OCD can be.

It's about what I go through sometimes with this mental disorder in general. It's more than just a stereotype. The mental obsessions are something you don't always see on TV.

The message is to rely on Art & Music to let the pain out through coping and relating instead of acting on those thoughts!

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Lyrics:

Save me, Jesus Christ, please

From this Hell I'm in

A place where I burn alone

How can I express the pain I'm in

If I can barely function?

Sometimes I almost wish you'd fucking shoot me dead

Take a gun and pierce a bullet right through my fucking head

So I don't have to think

I'm on the fucking brink

Of losing my mind

But I can't give in to suicide, I won't

Ruminating, ruminating

I can feel my mind breaking

Fuck this act

I want to rip off the mask

I'm scared to live

I'm scared to die

I'm already a corpse inside

Now hours and weeks pass

I've become fragile glass

Who can save me?

Will you save me?

Craving reassurance

But the words just aren't coming out

I want to ask you so bad

It's all so fucking sad

But don’t you feed me that bullshit

That you've found my solution

'Cuz it doesn't work

You wouldn't understand at all

Yelling, screaming, breaking down alone

The frustration has its hold

Why don't they understand?

My heart has turned to sand

Ruminating, ruminating

I can feel my mind breaking

Fuck this act

I want to rip off the mask

I'm scared to live

I'm scared to die

I'm already a corpse inside

Now hours and weeks pass

I've become fragile glass

Who can save me?

Will you save me?

I've sweat my bullets, I've shed my tears

I've smelled my rotting dreams

Overtaken by my fears

Suffering for all these years

I've questioned everything

What did it fucking bring?

I've grown to hate living

Feels like I'm always running

Ruminating, ruminating

I can feel my mind breaking

Fuck this act

I want to rip off the mask

I'm scared to live

I'm scared to die

I'm already a corpse inside

Now hours and weeks pass

I've become fragile glass

Who can save me?

Will you save me?