By Erin Monahan
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Introducing a new segment of OFF THE DEEP END! I'm doing live, 1:1 coaching sessions with folks in my community for free! If you'd like to join me for a live session for free email me at [email protected]
Today's episode features the incredible singer/songwriter, multi-disciplinary artist, Alexandra Moreno who wants to create unique offerings that reflect her values. She has several ideas, including jingle creation, voice coaching, copywriting and editing, consulting for artists applying for grants, and astrology and intuition services. Time stamps are below.
We discuss her hesitancy to label herself and fears being stuck in a certain role or pigeon-holed. We cannonball into the challenges of making money as an artist and the shame that creeps in for most, if not all of us, who are trying to make a living doing what we love. The conversation explores the idea of creating a new relationship with translation as a means of survival.
The discussion also touches on the power of reframing and shifting strategies to create different outcomes, the idea that sometimes "rejection is protection," the fear of being judged for embracing spiritual practices like astrology and intuition consulting.
We also explore the paradoxical, subconscious belief that has been running unchallenged in the back of Alexandra's mind that asking for money is only valid if you don't actually need it.
Money trauma works in mysterious and insidious ways. Join us for this beautiful conversation and join the Alexandra Moreno fan club at the links below! CEO of the fan club is already taken by yours truly, but we have plenty of room for fellow fan-girls/boys/theys/thems.
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Time Stamps
00:00 Introduction and Overview of Projects
11:55 The Beauty and Whimsy of Alexandra's Music
19:02 The Belief that Work Should Be Hard for Money
26:17 Fear of Labels and Feeling Stuck
38:15 Struggling to Make Money Through Art
41:08 Standing Up for Yourself + Refusing Un-Aligned Work
45:47 The Challenges of Being a Young Artist
47:35 Conflicting Desires and Inner Voices
56:18 Taking Power Back and Shifting Strategies
59:11 "Rejection as Protection"
01:22:13 Fear of Judgment and Acceptance
01:27:36 The Challenges of Funding as an Independent Artist
01:28:50 The Shame Around Needing Money
01:38:48 Shame and the Perception of Control
01:47:06 Vulnerability as the Antidote to Shame
02:02:35 The Importance of Community Support
In this episode, Erin shares her experience of receiving feedback and criticism for printing merch for a Terra Incognita Media fundraiser from a former Terra community member.
She discusses the importance of discernment when receiving feedback, explores the concept of white feminism and the need for continuous learning and unlearning, and reflects on her own journey of “waking up” to her attachment to the construct of whiteness and the mistakes she made along the way.
The episode highlights the complexities of navigating feedback and the importance of self-reflection and growth. She discusses the importance of coupling somatic healing with anti-racist work, and how they go hand in hand.
Erin also addresses how too often as white women (people) we channel our anger and grief at each other because we’re easier and more accessible targets than the out-of-reach systems, institutions, and corporations who are contributing the most to climate chaos and oppression.
Individuals and small businesses are not the same as big corporations or entire extractive industries. She explores the concept of discernment and the dangers of holding each other to impossible standards.
Erin plans to continue the discussion in part two, where she will delve into advice as to how to navigate criticism, feedback, and call-outs, and provide insights as to how to continue showing up as a confident and capable leader and being visible in your work.
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Terra Podcast: Ep 14: "Cancel Culture Isn’t Real"
Seeing White, MEN, The Land That Never Has Been Yet
White Supremacy Culture pdf
Prentis Hemphill's Finding Our Way Podcast
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“How can you harmonize with your business while being in capitalism?”
A brilliant question posed by Chantel Chapman, co-founder of the Trauma of Money.
In this episode Erin explores this question, and goes off the deep end about the VERY Saturnian nature of building a business, the highs and lows she’s experienced, her own frustrations with entrepreneurship, the illustrious smoke and mirrors of the coaching industry, the bullshit that was peddled by the charlatan Tim Ferris about the 4-hour work week, and how we can take the pressure off ourselves to be “there” when the point is to be right *here.*
Thank you to Sky Daddy Saturn for inspiring this episode and making a surprise appearance throughout! Erin briefly talks about the impact of the Saturn Return and your Christ Year for anyone who’s an astrology nerd!
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Jessica Lanyadoo Ghost of a Podcast The Christ Year! And Your Saturn Return
The New Yorker Article, in which Cal Newport Calls Tim Ferris Radical LOL
Jacobin Article, "The Fraud and the 4-Hour Work Week"
Time stamps are below!
The reality of what it’s like to build a business: 00:00-6:58
Building Terra Incognita Media for the last 8 years: 6:58-12:30
The marathon of entrepreneurship and the frustration of not being “there” yet: 12:31-27:15
The Smoke and Mirrors of the Coaching Industry: 27:16-29:19
Saturn and Your Business 29:20-32:16
The Coaching Industry Can Make Entrepreneurship Look Glamorous and It’s Not 32:17-32:34
The Non-Linear Nature of Seaons and Cycles in Life and Business 32:35-38-35
Celebrity Astrologer, Chani Nicholas’ So-Called “Late Blooming” 38:36-40:14
Does Not Making Millions Mean You’re Not an Expert? 40:15-44:37
Inspiring Mentor and Co-Founder of Trauma of Money, Chantel Chapman’s Experience with Feeling Like a Fraud Despite Her Expertise 44:38-46:49
Experts Experience Money Trauma Too: My Experience with Debt, Overspending, and Over-Giving 46:50-52:09
A Climbing Coach Who Can’t Climb “Hard Stuff” is Still a Great Coach 53:10-56:21
Entrepreneurship is Not One-Size-Fits-All 56:22-58:27
The Bullshit of the 4-Hour Work Day and the Charlatan Tim Ferris 58:28-1:14:37
Did I Drink the Kool-Aid a Little Bit of the Elusive “There”? 1:14:38-1:17:55
Building a Business is an Expensive, Grueling, Marathon, and Building Community is Crucial 1:17:56-end
What’s your biggest fear around being visible in your work?
Are you afraid you’re going to make a mistake?
Are you afraid people aren’t going to like you?
Are you afraid of success because you’re worried you won’t be able to sustain it?
Or are you afraid of failure, so you don’t even try?
In this episode I go into a discussion about the fear of visibility and the shame that often holds us back from expressing our fullest and most authentic self. The morning of this recording I asked spirit for a message we needed to hear that relates to this topic and out popped the 9 of pentacles, which is quite synchronistic - as to be expected!
Here are some affirmations I shared in the episode:
I take time to replenish and recharge throughout my day.
I honor my natural cycles and trust I will be be supported and sustained.
I find pleasure and ease in the daily, mundane rituals that make up the magic my life.
It is safe to recognize and enjoy the wealth and abundance i cultivate.
My efforts deserve celebration no matter how big or small they may seem to me.
When i am replenished and full i can share the overflow with others and be of service.
Reciprocity is a current that spirals out and back to me in a cyclical nature.
I trust that what i put out and put in will come back to me.
I generate limitless abundance on the condition that i take care of my material, physical body and i stay grounded and rooted in the daily, mundane chores of my life that assist me in cultivating the magic i’m called to manifest.
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How might you be creating fantasies, scenarios, or playing into narratives that might not actually be true in an effort to avoid your own feelings?
Jessica Dore, author of Tarot for Change, writes on an Instagram post with an image of the Seven of Cups, “...turning inward might feel scary at first because fantasizing about other people’s feelings helps us avoid our own.”
I sometimes find myself doing this without even realizing it.
Often, this can be a trauma response or survival strategy where we think if we can predict what the other person is saying, thinking, or going to do next we'll be safe or we'll feel like we have some sense of control over the situation or outcome.
It's Pisces season, so pulling the seven of cups reversed and King of Cups is quite timely because the cups represent water and our emotions.
These cards actually speak to Scorpio energy, which is a water sign like Pisces. I believe this an invitation to ask ourselves how might we see more clearly the thought fantasies that we might be creating, maybe the projections we’re engaging, and which ones do we want to give our energy to, and which ones do we want to let evaporate?
When we can create discernment around our emotions, fantasies, and the reality of our experience we can cultivate congruence and resonance between what we think and believe, and our responses, choices, and actions.
By allowing our emotions to flow, and by holding space to acknowledge and tend to our own desires, feelings, fears, and sensations, we become adept at being able to hold space for others' feelings to flow as well.
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The fives are about chaos and restlessness. They're creative, but destabilizing. Conflict, change, growth, and movement are all par for the course when we pull this card. We’re moving on from the fours which represent structure, stability, groundedness, and/or rest. After the fives come the sixes, which are all about harmony, cooperation, and realignment. The fives are this kind of in-between space of moving pieces and things shifting.
The five of swords has a lot of wind and movement to it. The clouds are moving fast and jagged. This card could represent a struggle of some kind, confronting our perceptions, and/or learning to move through challenges. This card is inviting us to put down our armor, to release what we’re struggling with maybe mentally or psychologically, and to confront the perceptions we have about whatever challenge it is we’re facing.
When it comes to business I know many of us struggle with the desire to be heard and seen, but not wanting to come across as self-absorbed. We struggle with wanting to make a sustainable income, but not wanting to come across as greedy and selfish. We perceive that making money is in direct conflict with our anti-capitalist values.
This card is asking us to consider where is the struggle real? And when might our system be alerting us to a false alarm? Sometimes our minds can detect danger or threat when there isn’t really an immediate danger or threat.
The five of swords gives us an opportunity to ask are you afraid of success? Of having money? Of doing well for yourself? Are you afraid of gaining success and not being able to sustain it? Is there a voice that says you’re not worth it, you don’t deserve it, or you won’t be able to keep the success?
Listen in as we discuss this card and some lessons we can glean about anti-capitalist entrepreneurship and healing our money trauma.
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Did you know I offer astrological money coaching? You can find out more about the Second House here and book your session here!
Desire longer-term 1:1 support? Find out how you can work with me in this capacity here!
In this episode I go "off the deep end" about the stigma of taking medication, how "band-aids" can be helpful for coping, and how challenging it can be to heal and achieve embodiment while living inside systems of oppression and the ever-present threat of climate chaos.
I wanted to share my process of deciding to take Lexapro in an effort to decrease the stigma of taking medication and of needing support for your pain, anxiety, or depression and that we’re human beings living in inhumane times. It absolutely makes sense that we might need extra support while living through a pandemic (a collective trauma) on top of our more "everyday" stressors.
This is a conversation about what we do when our old coping mechanisms and strategies maybe don’t work anymore. As we grow, heal, evolve, or just as things change, we might find that we need to add or subtract tools from our healing toolbox.
Unfortunately, for me, it's no longer sufficient to cry-scream to Taylor Swift songs and dissociate from the pain by creating false narratives, and throwing myself onto painfully difficult climbs that pushed me to unnecessary extremes. As I've healed I've found that I can no longer pour my angst, depression, and anxiety into obsessively climbing and over-working because that choice is fucking exhausting and unsustainable.
So, listen in on how I move through and bear what feels unbearable at times and have moved into ways of coping that are better suited for my long-term mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual health and overall well-being.
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Shopping was a band-aid for me for a really long time.
I was building Terra Incognita Media, navigating my 20s, nannying, and coming to terms with understanding my attachment to the construct of whiteness and I became depressed and anxious.
Many times I would drop $200 on clothes at Nordstrom or Target in a subconscious internal frenzy of chasing dopamine.
Some of us use substances, some of us go shopping, some of us exercise, some of us pour into our work, some of us meditate, some of us do yoga or breathwork. We might do all of these things.
None of these things are morally superior than the another, but if we’re finding that certain ways in which we cope are getting in the way of our long-term financial, emotional, spiritual health, or they’re disrupting our personal and work relationships then we might want to pause and reassess.
Shopping at Target used to give me an overwhelming HIGH.
I found that my body would become instantly dysregulated when I walked through the automatic sliding doors (or insert any store you like to shop at).
Reflecting on the visceral reactions happening in our bodies is important when it comes to making informed choices and healing.
In this episode I talk all about the key to NOT overspending at Target, how capitalism preys on our mental, physical, and emotional well-being by convincing us that we need to buy more things, and what psychologists are calling “Compulsive Buying Disorder."
If you've ever thought to yourself...
In this workshop you will learn...
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The podcast currently has 21 episodes available.