oilcolor episodes:

• February 01, 2023du-gehst+ich-steh

  du-gehst+ich-steh by oilcolor

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• February 01, 2023miles away (sped up)

  miles away (sped up) by oilcolor

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• November 30, 2022ich-hab-keine+liebe+verdient

  vergiss immer wieder wo du herkommst

  mit den blauen Pillen fühl ich mich wertlos

  paracodin in mein coke

  ich trink es weil es einfach sein muss

  du dachtest du wärst wertlos

  aber ich begehe die gleichen Fehler wieder von vorne

  tränen fallen jetzt auf den Boden

  ich versteh nicht was passiert

  du blockierst mich

  und ich auf allen vieren

  es ergibt keinen sinn

  du bist lieber mit ihm

  du bist lieber mit ihm 😔

  ich hab keine liebe verdient

  es ist Wochenende und ich zieh

  ich kann es nicht mehr spüren

  es ist für eine Zeit

  aber es wird nicht heilen

  ich hab keine liebe verdient

  es ist Wochenende und ich zieh

  ich kann es nicht mehr spüren

  es ist für eine Zeit

  aber es wird nicht heilen

  ...more

  

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• November 02, 2022i think we made sense

  CHORUS

  the story starts with an end

  she wants me again

  stop falling for me

  come grab my hand

  i know it baby

  you wanna control me baby

  my mind on drugs

  she fell in love

  PRE PART

  spend my money on meds

  im fucking up my health

  i got a feeling it will end

  and i hope you will regret

  that you never called me back

  no you’ll never see me again

  no you’ll never see me again

  PART

  i think we made sense

  but you always complain

  while i was in pieces

  at least i was feeling

  something real

  now it seems unreal

  but i choose this way

  i miss your skin

  CHORUS

  the story starts with an end

  she wants me again

  stop falling for me

  come grab my hand

  i know it baby

  you wanna control me baby

  my mind on drugs

  she fell in love

  ...more

  

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• August 12, 2022flannell - i got this feeling

  @flanne_ll

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• July 11, 2022worthless years

  production, vocals, lyrics by oilcolor

  #INTRO

  ah you know

  it’s like, I can’t describe it but

  all the years are worthless to me

  #VERSE

  wake up new day, take a walk with me

  nobody of my old friends stayed with me

  do you, do you feel special?

  I recognized they used me as a vessel

  my dream of life (life, life)

  walking through the light (light, light)

  as it seems to rise (rise)

  I’m not alright

  #BRIDGE

  I’m not alright

  my heart is frozen ice

  I’m not alright

  #HOOK

  I know you will catch feelings for me

  Everyday I’m in pain lately

  Destiny of life is crazy

  Can I make it through the night? maybe

  nothing you should worry about

  nothing you should worry about

  nothing you should worry about

  nothing you should worry about

  ...more

  

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• July 11, 2022motivated

  production, vocals, lyrics by oilcolor

  #VERSE

  Push me away

  So I finally see if I should stay

  If I would stay

  I really can't believe what happened today

  It doesn't matter where I go

  I look around and can't find a home

  It's so hard to move on

  When your whole life is beating you down

  #BRIDGE

  And everybody listening to this song

  I swear my heart is what you all own

  #HOOK

  All the plays I make

  Keep me motivated and able to stay

  Like miles away

  These songs mean the world to me and I pray

  I pray that I'm safe and my grandpa counts a million every day

  a million every day I would give it all to you

  cause you’re the only one who never let’s me down

  ...more

  

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• July 11, 2022i'm a fool

  production, vocals, lyrics by oilcolor

  #VERSE

  you came up to me and want me to stay

  it happened once, so what will happen today?

  you’re so fun babe, don’t mind my way

  you're next to me now naked okay (okay)

  #HOOK

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t trust you babe

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t love you babe

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t trust you babe

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t love you babe

  #BRIDGE

  I’m a fool

  I can never love you, never love you

  #VERSE

  lately I been picking up what I can

  you fooled me once, will it happen again?

  I’m drinking my cup in a house made out of glass

  so please break it now and I’m thinking again

  #HOOK

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t trust you babe

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t love you babe

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t trust you babe

  I’m a fool babe, I can’t love you babe

  ...more

  

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• July 11, 2022remember me

  production, vocals, lyrics by oilcolor

  #HOOK

  don’t bother me

  they took me away

  remember me

  but not in a good way

  #VERSE

  it’s clear they don’t feel me

  always been so silly

  in a stupid way

  wrote down in an essay

  if you need something

  think about the delay

  think about the pain

  #BRIDGE

  you’re talking to me

  but I never listen

  #VERSE

  because I’m in my brain

  yeah I go insane

  act different today

  put a mask on my face

  like everyday

  #HOOK

  don’t bother me

  they took me away

  remember me

  but not in a good way

  ...more

  

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• June 25, 2022pills after pills

  production, vocals, mix & master by oilcolor

  guitar by @remghost

  lyrics

  #INTRO

  you know what i struggle with? people

  i don’t think we ever really know each other

  i mean not … not fully

  and how can you love someone entirely

  when you can’t know them entirely

  there might always be something there

  waiting to break your heart…out of nowhere

  #HOOK

  You don't even know what I been through

  so many meds, I can't feel you

  so many pills, I don't remember you

  when will it end is what I asked you

  #VERSE

  pills after pills I am restless

  text on the phone I forgot that

  you're a fake bitch I don't need that

  leave me alone I need to heal fast

  #BRIDGE

  I try something and get it right back

  but every time it feels so bad

  when will it end?

  
#VERSE

  gallery shoes, walking threw the night

  another fake dream but no closed eyes

  I don't know what's real anymore

  i don’t know what you need me for

  #BRIDGE

  I try something and get it right back

  but every time it feels so bad

  #HOOK

  You don't even know what I been through

  so many meds, I can't feel you

  so many pills, I don't remember you

  when will it end is what I ask you

  #OUTRO

  It’s what I asked you

  when will it end?

  ...more

  

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