The last weekend I spent with Sam was two years ago, just two weeks before his body was discovered in a field.  I keep thinking about how I should have been able to use that weekend to make a difference in his life.  

In this episode, I discuss how the memories of our last time together cause me to ruminate on unhelpful thoughts and why I believe that the anniversary of last communications with a deceased one feel so vulnerable.   

I will also talk about 6 ideas, based on facts and realities,  that I try to come back to as I keep myself in check and also support myself during this time.

I would like to think that one day should not have power over another but  consciously and unconsciously, these anniversaries can be very challenging to get through.