Wow! It's been a LONG time since the last episode! Sorry for the wait, but life happened to me.

I went through a divorce in early 2024, which turned my life upside down and inside out. I was caught completely off guard and totally unprepared for what would come next. It seems particularly ironic considering the last episode I published before going silent!

In the aftermath, I looked for content that would help me understand what I was feeling, what was happening psychologically and physiologically. I couldn't find anything helpful, so I decided to create it for the guys who will inevitably find themselves following in my footsteps.

This is part one of a four-part series. This episode was created about six months after my marriage fell apart. Long enough to have tentatively regained my bearings, but still raw enough to clearly remember what that initial phase of shock felt like, what I was thinking, what I was feeling, and how my mind and body reacted to the acute pain of losing what felt like half of myself.

This series is real and raw. It's not the uplifting and rosy outlook you have come to expect. It's meant to share the harsh reality of the dark path ahead for those going through this process. I hope it helps you understand that you're not alone and that the thoughts and feelings you are having are normal - you're not going crazy, you're just in severe, acute pain.

I hope you find encouragement in these episodes. I share the actions I took - or didn't take - to make my way through this first phase of the journey and encourage you to take the appropriate steps to protect yourself, care for yourself, and prepare yourself for the long process to healing.

Please feel free to reach out if you don't have anyone else to talk to about this! Nearly two years later, I can tell you that it gets SO MUCH BETTER, and life becomes more joyful and prosperous ... but you have to go through the $#!T to get there.