From the outside looking in, Pawel Mowlik was living the dream. Starting off from humble origins, he became the mentee of one of Zurich’s most successful hedge-fund managers. His work ethic is impeccable, and it led him to become a multi-millionaire himself at only 22 years of age. He lived in a glamorous haze of private jets, fine dining, and parties. But Mowlik explains that there is a huge difference between the reality of that life and the fantasy, which most of us must learn the hard way.
His determination and work ethic soon turned into a double-edged sword. As he climbed the ladder of success, it became hard not to feel like the ‘master of the universe.’ Mowlik wanted to do it all – attend every party, live everywhere, and work constantly, leaving him exhausted. As many ultra-successful people know, when the world never says no to you, it is hard to say no back.
“I asked myself, what would I advise to someone who was as jaded as I was at that time? On the one hand, I really wanted to get out of it, but on the other hand, I felt desperate and I did not know how to change. I lost trust in myself because I couldn’t say to myself ‘you will change everything tomorrow’ because I’d taken those vows so many times…I realised that desperateness. I lost trust in myself.” - Pawel Mowlik, Managing Partner of Paracelsus Recovery
Eventually, like so many others, he resorted to cocaine. Mowlik speaks with elegance and wisdom as he shares the nights and days he lost to blackouts. Although he knew it was becoming unmanageable, the thoughts that plague so many of us kept him trapped in the cycle. How can I be unhappy when I am living the dream life? What is wrong with me? A sense of shame, fear and hopelessness continued to grow.
After spending 10 days on a yacht with friends and remembering almost none of it due to his substance abuse, Mowlik knew he needed to seek help. He spent time in various rehabilitation centres across the world, but they only made him feel more alienated and alone.
“Money is a very powerful tool. It can be very powerful to achieve great things, but it can equally be very destructive. One just needs to be able to handle that tool, and a lot of people are not trained.” - Jan Gerber, CEO of Paracelsus Recovery
Eventually, he found sobriety and support in Paracelsus Recovery. Now, seven years later, Mowlik can see how the success and wealth he found at such a young age blinded him. He lost touch with his life’s purpose and felt adrift in the world. Now, he knows that the way to find meaning is to help others by sharing his story and embracing his passions, such as fine dining.
Although his life has been anything but ordinary, his life story is relatable to anyone whose known addiction. His conversation with Jan Gerber is as honest as it is insightful, and we hope it will help those out there afraid to seek help.
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