In this episode we discuss the life altering, disorienting process of recovering, falling into normal, and pursuing magic again.

After a hiatus, Jared is back! We talk briefly about where he's been and why he's returning to the podcast now. In honor of it being Father's Day down in Australia, we focused our conversation around a dad's perspective on being a parent/caregiver. Jared shares how he told strangers in Hobbiton about our chaotic life and why he thinks reading fantasy with the girls was one of his best dad moves.

After my unexpected hiatus I am back and discussing the funk I've been in and reflecting on one of the lessons I learned from Claire, to do hard things, you need support.

It is no secret that I don't love Mother's Day and the consumer based forced nature of the holiday. Plot twist, I was very excited to learn about the roots of the holiday and how inclusive it inherently is of the bereaved. I would love to hear your thoughts, do we need a bereaved Mother's Day too? Message me on Instagram @_colleenenglish

After an unexpected hiatus I am thrilled to be back with Chloe as a special guest, talking about her birthday, a few things about Aussie culture and the weirdness around having living with a bereaved mom.

You can find my writing on this topic on at my Substack, Sweet 16

Lessons from Claire: Adapt. I know I am preaching to the choir on this. This episode is not about how to adapt things for your child. It is a reminder to adapt things for yourself and a story about how much I love coffee and believe in the power of community.

I would love to hear from you! Please let me know what you think of the podcast on Instagram @_colleenenglish

You can find me on substack too! https://substack.com/@colleenenglish

Hello! After our extended holiday it is good to be back. This week marks four years since Claire passed unexpectedly. In 2023 I wrote a piece called "Leaving Holland" a response to the poem "Welcome to Holland" by Emily Perl Kingsley that attempts to describe a bit what this process has felt like. In this episode I give a quick update and read this piece that still resonates deeply within me. Thank you for listening.

Wishing you all peace and joy in the last few days of the year. We are exhausted and are off for a bit to recharge. This passing for normal stuff is hard, sending love to you all.

Chloe's back! We talk about the end of the school year and formal for all of you that remember the dress drama that started so many months ago. Chloe talks about trying to have fun and how much more complicated everything is without her sister her. As invisible as the grief for a mother can be, siblings seem to be even more forgotten. So Chloe wanted to share her experience to encourage others out there grieving as teens and remind people of how real grief is. Enjoy!

In this weeks episode we discuss a encounters with the neighbors that could have been normal but were anything but that and why Colleen is not aggressively decorating the front yard for Christmas. We also discuss just how hard the holidays are and how our current best strategy is to try and escape.