hello hello hello! more messages from spirit here! i am out of cell coverage and away from electricity, so i am sending all the good nature vibes here. so so much love to you all

part two of the last episode: really unpacking all the ways i've tried to avoid myself and taking responsibility for my life. and also diving into saturn return and where consciousness comes from

PHEW this one is unpacking some deep shit - but also it really only feels like deep shit because its old?? like, its under so many layers, we haven't had to look at this in a long time?? but also how funny that everything starts to rotate around these things we won't look at? something about burying things deep, bringing them closer to the center of gravity. to you.

there's more pressure down there. let yourself breathe. let yourself go.

in here are some words that have gotten me through to today.

Andrea Gibson (8/13/75 - 7/14/25)

WOW i forgot how hard transformation can be. was feeling like everything in my life was crumbling (because it was). found the poem, now that i am also on the other side, and it reminded me that the falling apart is also a falling together of everything you didn't even see coming. talk of suicidality, so if you are sensitive to this just be aware.

some messages from spirit that have helped me get through a very dark 6 weeks. i hope they can give you some solace while i am away at sea.

this one is a bit more reality based and less idealogical, although obviously i am still the symbol-obsessed, on-a-mission-to-understand, self. who are we outside and inside our dearest relationships? how do we show up in them? how do we move with them in times of deep change.

oh BOY this one feels like responsibility. but more in the way you're like FINALLY! let go baby, just be yourself please. were all begging for it

another trance speaking episode! some more wisdom from spirit to share! and some life updates from the road. i really liked the wisdom from spirit this time, probably a bunch of stuff they were like "abbott's gotta work on this shit" lmao

been thinking about this one for a WHILE. feels really good to finally get it out there. this one gets all into the analyzation of passion and patience and how they are actually in romance or in relation to trust and fueling your life. also getting into why i think confidence isn't really the right word, isn't the right feeling to pursue if you actually want to feel that way. (that sounds confusing i know, just listen to the episode please)