The training of the father is NOT to convince the father of who you are, or to prove to the Devil who He already made you, but to bring you to that place where without doubt YOU know who you are.
John the Baptist was graced to baptize with water. Jesus was to baptize with Holyspirit and Fire. One is not more important than the other. Infact the former is needed for the latter to do His part.
Zacchaeus was of short stature but he wanted to SEE Jesus to KNOW Him. He didnt stay and whine about how short he was, he RAN ahead and CLIMBED a tree. How far are you willing to go in search of Christ?
Saul landed the kingdom simply by obeying his father's instruction in looking for missing Donkeys. God was the mastermind behind that very event. He positioned every player at the right time and right place! He connects the dots, just trust Him.
Follow your heart seems like a good advice, but I would rather you follow God. We dont make decisions based on what someone did or did not do. Before you make that life decision to leave, make sure you know where you are going.
People rarely forget. They constantly refer to you based on who you used to be. It doesnt matter, it's their opinion. What matters is how you see your self. Dont get stuck in the past, you dont live there anymore.
There are some instructions God gives that you can't explain to everyone.As God invites you on this journey of purpose, expect some measure of uncertainty.