As a Christian, it's important to understand that there are aspects of yourself that will not fully develop until you are dead to sin. The scripture says in Gal. 4: 1-2 Now I say that the heir, as long as he is a child, does not differ at all from a slave, though he is master of all, 2 but is under guardians and stewards until the time appointed by the father. So, to attain all that you can be, those goals, plans, hopes, and aspirations, you have to grow in God and develop spiritually. Let him in and let God help you.