Episode 059 of Living in Response is a little unexpected after a date mix up on a camping trip but is another page down in reflecting on the crazy sh*t I get myself into sometimes.

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Topics Covered in This Episode:

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1️⃣ From Podcast Idea to Flow State CreationI share how this podcast started in a spontaneous moment of flow—and how giving myself permission to speak freely without boxing myself into a niche has been one of the most liberating choices on my journey.

2️⃣ The Explorer Identity & Why I’ll Never “Arrive”I reflect on how I used to shame myself for dabbling in too many spiritual paths, healing modalities, and teachings. Now, I’m realizing that exploration is the point. My path isn’t about mastery—it’s about following curiosity.

3️⃣ “What Is Actually Going On Here?”I return to this core question again and again. What is life really? What are we really doing here? This question has shaped my entire spiritual journey—from healing depression to diving deep into consciousness studies.

4️⃣ Learning as PurposeI reflect on how learning isn’t just something I do—it’s who I am. From quantum physics to indigenous teachings, lineage-based meditation to Dao transmissions, I’m finally accepting that I’m not here to find the thing. I’m here to learn.

5️⃣ Redefining What This Podcast IsWhat began as an unstructured outlet is evolving into a captain’s log for my soul’s journey—a real-time documentation of growth, questions, and spiritual experiments. It’s a travel journal for consciousness.

6️⃣ Lineage, Root Systems & Spiritual IntegrityI explore the importance of learning from people with lineage—why I need to trace teachings to their roots, and how this desire grounds me in integrity as I explore and share.

7️⃣ Energy Is Not the Root—Information IsA revelation that shifted my worldview: energy isn’t the most fundamental layer of reality—information is. I share how I conceptualize this (through a video game metaphor) and why it matters.

8️⃣ The Tao Hands Transmission ExperienceI recount how I “accidentally” got trained in Tao Hands—a practice that transmits high-frequency source-field :blessings” (read: transmissions) for healing and alignment. I reflect on the science behind it, the surreal experience, and why I’m called to explore more.

9️⃣ From Fixing to FlowingI explore the difference between healing as “fixing” and healing as returning to coherence. I reflect on how Tao Hands isn’t about doing—it’s about transmitting love and letting Source do the rest.

🔟 Messy Spirituality & The Permission to SpeakI talk about deleting a new TikTok account because I realized I don’t want to build “a niche.” I want to share what’s alive. And that means letting the podcast, and my work, be messy, evolving, and real.

1️⃣1️⃣ Spiritual Comparison & Finding My PeopleI reflect on being in spaces with successful coaches and realizing—some of them aren’t my people. And that’s okay. This episode unpacks the discomfort, the comparison, and the truth that diversity is necessary for collective evolution.

1️⃣2️⃣ Purpose Isn’t a Destination—It’s a PatternI explore how I’ve been chasing “my thing” for years, only to realize: my thing is the journey. It’s the questions. It’s learning. It’s sharing in real-time. And that’s enough.

1️⃣3️⃣ Captain’s Log: What I’m Exploring NowFrom Ram Dass to quantum physics, from sacred plant work to pleasure activism, from coherence science to conscious cannabis—this episode is a timestamp in a lifelong exploration of spirit, self, and society.

🌀 The Bottom Line:You don’t need to have “a thing” to share something valuable.You don’t need to be done growing to be of service.You don’t need to make it pretty to make it real.Let the journey be the message.And let your love be the activism.

Mentions & Inspirations:

📖 Reconnecting to the Source – Ervin Laszlo📖 Tao Science – Master Sha & Rulin Xiu🌐 Tao Hands Practitioner Training – Master Sha Tao Academy🎥 A Radical Guide to Reality – Worldview shifting documentary📘 Indigenous Spirituality – Doug Good Feather🧠 Logotherapy – Viktor Frankl

❤️ Core Message:

You don’t have to arrive to belong.You don’t have to master to matter.You don’t need a niche to be needed.You’re not behind—you’re exploring.And this exploration is your gift.

Sending love and gratitude to all the ancestors who survived so we could thrive <3

Mystically,

Belle

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