Money and the soul correction: Circuitry: the end of hoarding: the end of being the end-all...

Circuitry is a code word for not holding back.

I have already written articles about tithing in the context of the Law of Attraction. I was knocking it.

But there is something about tithing, (or better said: donating, sharing the wealth, giving away a portion of what is yours, in the form of money,) that is very relevant for everyone, and especially relevant to people with this soul correction, circuitry.

So, first let's see what is the mindset and the behavior of a person with this soul correction:

First the mindset: there is a deep sense of lack, a deep fear of lack, a deep sense of having been shortchanged. If my empathic capability hasn't fooled me. A deep black hole between your sternum and your solar plexus, and the rest of your chest seems to be in a holding-your-breath mode. You feel that your void can't be filled, and are reluctant to let go of what you have.

There is no real reason, unless your Soul decided to put you in lack and misery.

If you have never acted counter to this desire to hold onto every little piece that comes to you, your current situation is probably 'dire need.' Why? Because, as I explained in other articles, the soul needs you to have opportunities for its correction... and it is going to make your life miserable if you don't comply. Guaranteed.

Now, for fairness sake, every person I have met has a little bit of this mindset, but they don't act as if it were a full-out-war-for-survival. They feel the fear and then they give. Move the energy. Reciprocate. To the degree that their level of vibration allows. Moving the energy, consciously, being part of the big reality, is a very high vibration action.

The person with the "circuitry" soul correction is not comfortable with taking risks.

They are not comfortable investing: it's a risk. They are not happy giving something that leaves them without that something: like money. They probably also withhold real love.

A friend of mine said: I don't want to make more money because then I have to pay more child-support/taxes/work. This is a circuitry correction saying.

They may give away stuff they don't want, but that does not activate circuitry.

Circuitry is an energy phenomenon: giving, which creates vacuum, and in turn it will fill up with more that was given. The circuitry person feels the vacuum without giving. The black hole. Bottomless, deep, can't be filled. Illusion, of course.

So, for the circuitry person, giving away money is mandatory. For everyone else: advisable.

Now, here is the million dollar question: how do you initiate the movement of energy? What is the correct mindset when you give away money? Does this work if you give away money because you should? Does this work if you give away money to a person in need? Does this work if you give away money with the expectation of getting more back?

The answer to these questions is no, or not really.

So then what is the correct mindset? The correct mindset is this:

1. you give away to feel that you are someone who can. You give away to feel that you have enough. That you trust Source, the Universe, Life enough to throw your stuff into the game and be willing to lose it forever.

Meaning: you give up your right to expect a return on your investment. You are willing for it to be lost.

If you don't give up your expectation, your expectation does two things: you won't feel good about yourself, after all you are making a deal. You won't feel generous, magnanimous, bigger than life, capable, and accomplished. And that will show. You'll feel needy of winning, and it shows.

Imagine two characters at the poker table: one,

You may think that you want... That you really really want something. But the truth is: you really really NEED it... because you feel that without it you are... what? dead? a loser? what are you really afraid of?

Real want is energizer, real want is nurturing. You have no real wants. You have needs...and you are pitiful.

What happens if your 'needs' are dominating your life? If you are the 8-billion?

You play to win, you play to not lose, you play to be right, you play to make others wrong...

If you play to win, always, you can't get good at anything. You can't play well.

Also, if you do to get it done... you cannot do it well.

If you read to have read it... if you drive to get there...

Yeah. So what do these activities have in common?

Anyone?

It is not easy to see... but they are all goal-driven.

Your attention, your energy is divided between what you are doing and what you plan to accomplish.

So what?

Yeah, really....

But what happens is that what you are doing, where you are is 'not there yet'... Nothing happy about it. It is the wrong place. Not there yet.

And your heart isn't where your hand is... and what you do is dutiful, and heartless. Not where you should be. Not where joy, not where results are.

No energy either... Most of the energy, often as much as 70% goes longingly to the goal... and isn't where it's needed: where you are doing whatever you are doing.

You can't get good at the activity. You can't pay attention to what you might be learning. Your eyes are only there so you don't fall on your face... but not to see anything.

Things take longer than they could if you were present... Things done at best shabbily... And you never learn anything, never get better. And to boot: you don't enjoy the doing.

About 70% of life is doing. So if this is how you do what you do, at the minimum 70% of your life you don't enjoy.

It's the 'living for the weekend' phenomenon... Stingy too. You give as little as you can get away with.

But what you never consider is that you live in bread of shame... And you hate yourself.

Self-love is the most important component of a life you love. If you can't love yourself because you don't deserve to be loved then of course you can't love your life.

The original soul, the Vessel refused to receive the Light, because it wanted to earn its light... instead of just being given.

Every single human is endowed with that soul... and no matter what you think: if you don't earn your light, what you want, you cannot love yourself and cannot love your life.

And you don't.

Maybe because you think you are entitled.

Maybe because you think that other people don't earn it either...

Whichever you think, you are S.C.R.E.W.E.D.

And to boot, you are not only hooked by the visible goals, you are also hooked by the invisible NEEDS.

In the racket model we call them the payoffs... Being right, making the other wrong, looking good, avoiding looking bad, dominate, avoid domination, win, avoid losing, justify, invalidate another, and avoid responsibility...

When you look at these as the motivators of action, attitudes, behaviors, and you see that they are goals, and they are strong powerful needs that will never allow you to do what you do wholeheartedly, will never allow you to love, to enjoy, to participate, you belong, to be prosperous, healthy, and to love yourself, you may want to manage them so they don't use, they don't eat up all your life. All your activities.

Sometimes it is hard to see what you want to be right about.

Let me show you just one thing. Ready?

If the caterpillar planned to become a butterfly, there would be no more butterflies.

What does that mean?

Planning to become, having a goal is counter productive. It takes your eyes off the here and now, and fixates them on some future pie-in-the -sky idea...

As a result you'll be wholly ineffective in the here and now, and will never become that which you planned to become.

The same is true about your vibration. People who want to raise their vibration literally won't do their work that could cause that in the here and now, even when I tell them what they need to do.

What does this mean to you? It means that when you are in the caterpillar stage, your job is to be the best caterpillar possible. Do it to the best of your abilities, diligently, mindfully, striving for excellence.

This is the key, this is the secret to be an expanding human, to be growing, to becoming more. To achieve the ultimate state: become all you can become.

The 'culture' emphasizes goal-setting, because the culture doesn't want you to become all you can become...

Art Williams said: All you can do is all you can do. And all you can do is enough.

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What he didn't say is this: if you do all you can do now, tomorrow what you can do is more than it is today. If tomorrow you'll do all you can do tomorrow, then the day after tomorrow you'll be able to do more.

Some days you won't feel well, and will do less than the day before, and yet you can still do all you can do... And that is the point. Doing all you can in the here and now.

The operative words are do, and can. Not think, and willing.

This is how you become all you can become.

Your job is to keep your attention 99% of the time on your three-feet environment... and only 1% of the time, occasionally, check if you are going in the right direction. It is a checking and setting the direction or re-setting.

If instead you want every step to be 'the right step' that will get you the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, you'll end up as most of my students: no skills, no results, no life to write about. The sure way to live as a failure and a loser.

That is how the 8 billion behaves: never quite present to what they are doing, because their eyes are somewhere else.

Thinking: the grass is greener there. Thinking that would be a better thing to do. Or counting their chickens before they hatch.

And they give mighty little attention and energy to what they are actually doing.

Results: at best mediocrity.

Interestingly, the smarter you are the more likely you'll be trapped in this horrid place.

A million or so people have listened to Art Williams. How many, do you think, has absorbed and practiced what Art taught them?

If you said: a few, you are actually mistaken. Muscle test says: zero. None of them grasp the genius of Art Williams.

Maybe for a little while some did. But to be like Art Williams, to do like he teaches you is so counter-cultural, that few can stand being so different.

You are trained to be like everyone else... and if you are not: you are alone. And that seems to be the worst thing for people, to be alone... They are so afraid of being alone, that they sell out everything that they would value in order to 'belong'.

In the Face The Tiger workshop we confront what is between us and who we can become... what we really need to handle so we can actually grow, expand,

The lotus is the symbol of coherence... it grows from mud... incoherent... and turns it into beautiful coherence.

If you lotus could speak it would say: 'I want the world to be the way the world is'.

OK, so what is coherence and what is incoherence?

Oh... and why should you care?

beautifully combed hair... Add some wind... voilà disheveled

a violin solo... scramble it... and it will be ugly noise... hard to tolerate.

In today's day and age everything is like that windswept hair, that scrambled violin solo.

You can find hardly any orderliness, any coherence.

Inside and outside. Anywhere.

The more 'wind' you apply the more scrambled our world is.

In some respect, that scrambledness, measured, is what we call vibration in human terms, in spiritual terms.

The opposite of that chaos is coherence.

Coherent thought, coherent behavior, coherent feelings, coherent plans.

When I started energizing water, the water was somewhat coherent.

Somewhat coherent is about 200 vibration. Most of my students are somewhat coherent... and occasionally not coherent.

Today the water is not coherent at all. It tastes horrible, doesn't want to go down... yuck. That is the vibration of the planet. Yuck. Average 100. That means most people are around 70 or under. It is, surprisingly not a bell curve, more like a hockey puck.

I got an email from a dude yesterday. He sent it to 'prove' to me that the earth is flat and it doesn't go around the sun. His vibration is 30. He has the Harmonizer but doesn't use it.

For an incoherent person the Harmonizer is jarring.

Conspiracy theory believers, MAGA people, SJW's have a vibration under or way under 100.

Coherence is calm. Coherence comes when you are that 'slow is smooth and smooth is fast'.

In my workshops when a participants answers fast I don't have to measure their vibration: I can tell they are incoherent from their quick answer.

Of course somewhat coherent, 200, is also a low vibration. Nearly everything threatens you and can knock you off balance, but especially 'attacks' on your current worldview.

The absolute bottom floor of human worldview is 'I want the world to be the way I want the world to be. Including people, things, myself, everything.'

That is the worldview of everyone, except the 1000.

And although most things, most people, most of the time are not even close being the way you want them to be, you can reach an ess, evolutionary stable strategy, to deal with that fact... The fact that the world, people, yourself are not the way you want them to be. An ess established is what allows for a 200 vibration...

In my courses, in my coaching I upset your ess.

So far everyone goes back to their ess... but some people are now able to incorporate a different worldview to some degree: 'I want the world to be the way the world is because it is that way. I want people, myself to be the way we are, because we are that way.'

To the degree that you can incorporate the new worldview, to the same degree your vibration goes up.

I have two students who incorporated it only 10%, and their vibration is jumped from 200 to 300. All the while three students' vibration dropped to 100.

The students whose vibration dropped are resistant to want things the way they are. Why? because it makes them wrong in a way. And they want to be right. To be the only right person while everyone else is wrong.

And, of course, it is about coherence: when you resist, when you are troubled about stuff, being coherent is a challenge.

I have a flea infestation in my apartment.

It took me weeks to identify it, and by that time it got bad.

In the famous marshmallow experiment by Walter Mischel. He said that the 30% of the kids that didn't eat the marshmallow, didn't even look at the marshmallow. They kept doing other things, keeping their eyes off the marshmallow. Consciously, intentionally, and purposefully.

The marshmallow is 'the thing', the goal people want... and it is what actually causes them to jump the gun, to quit pursuing it prematurely.

I have read a lot about that experiment, I have even written about it, but I didn't know that the 'winners' avoided looking at the marshmallow. that piece was missing for me, until now.

One of the challenges I face with my students and clients is their high desire number, and the Desire Trap...

This discovery I stumbled on, by accident, is the missing piece in helping my students with that challenge.

Watching that TED talk yesterday opened up something inside, that is still full of swirling fog, ethereal figures, and yet, I know that something from the invisible has been released.

I was getting busy going down the rabbit hole about the marshmallow test which is as much of a principle as any principle, although its portability is hard to see...

All principles are portable, just like fractals. That is the nature of reality: as above so is below, or was that the other way around?

If it is true, a real principle, not just a made up rule, it is true everywhere, but to recognize it you need to be able to connect the dots.

Connecting the dots requires you to have a wide cone of vision, so you can compare the two phenomenon in the same glance, or alternatively, have enough long term memory to store an image that you can compare with.

Most people never committed anything to long term memory, and even the capacity for storing something for long term has atrophied.

Another way to look at long term memory is looking an measuring how many things you can hold in your brain at any one time.

For most people (8 billion) that is one thing...

That means that when they change what they look at, what they looked at disappears. So they cannot compare two things that are not inside the same cone of vision.

The size of your long term memory, interestingly, will decide what size box you live in.

It takes me just one short interaction to know that... what you talk about indicates the size of your box.

What's wrong with a small box, you ask? Nothing WRONG, but it is limiting. You cannot dance, you cannot have adventure, you have locked yourself in with the few people who are probably wretched and no fun.

Your love of animals, interestingly, shows that you are not fulfilled in your small box... But it only indicates, it doesn't remedy... the size of the box you live in will not grow without serious effort.

Pain.

While I was an architect, my box got smaller... uncomfortable. While I was in Landmark Education, my box got smaller... very limiting.

Breaking out of those small boxes was painful, scary, and unreasonable.

I was obeying an inner demand that made no sense to follow.

I left the cushy comfortable paycheck, being an award winning anything, the fame and fortune, the popularity. I left it for the certainty for something uncertain. For what I can be.

I burned bridges, or ships if you want to use historical analogy. There was only one way... onward.

I didn't know I was doing that.

There are many things one does that one is not aware of doing...

...things that aren't distinguished... that one cannot see for what it is, until later, when someone points it out.

I never had a pipe dream. I never had a vision of what I wanted to accomplish on the long term. I have always been lousy at goal setting.

There is a certain order in the Universe.

I know it looks random and capricious, but it looks that way because of your lack of respect, lack of looking again.

Human nature is to think that what you do in one area, like fixing what you think is wrong, doesn't effect the whole, and it will be OK.

But human interference in the order of things forces a kind of phenomenon that is a lot like wounds in war... Some are mortal.

Human aspirations, what humans think is the order or things and what IS the order of things are vastly different. All of human activity, for the past many thousands of years, has been wounding and wounding the planet and it is questionable if the planet could still heal itself, if humanity were removed.

As in the micro so is in the macro.

Humans cause vast desertification... That is the macro.

In micro, they cause natural ways of being to erode... like love, affinity, harmony, intimacy. Joy.

It's like a dance. If one party is forceful, he steps on the partner's toes, drags her, jerks her, it stops being a dance and it is more like a rape. Violence.

Unless you, personally, can detect the natural movements, the natural rhythm of Life, and dance with it without stepping on Life's toes, life can be harmonious for you.

Being in harmony with life is the source of joy. Nothing manmade, none of the things you would put on a vision board, or put on your goal list.

Those, the vision board, the goals, are all violent, all raping devices... and even if you manage to force life to match your vision board, there is no harmony, there is no joy.

It is not easy for a human.

The basic characteristic of humans is violent arrogance. Of non-conformance. Of 'I want what I want, and I don't want what I don't want', 'I want things to be the way I want them.'

The source of misery, the source of wretchedness, the source of no joy.

Does it have anything to do with the DNA? Yes.

Does having too many predatory genes? Maybe. Too few? yes.

That's interesting.

I was, as a person, more forceful when I had no predatory genes. I had no trust... It takes tremendous trust to not react. To not try to fix everything. To not have to do the big dog...

It seems that three predatory genes allow one to have trust, if other component of the DNA cooperate.

As long as a person sees themselves an object in a world of objects, always in danger, always threatened, they cannot have trust.

And even on my level of consciousness, it takes work to not consider minor things deadly... To not react to everything like it is going to kill me. No not jump into: this is wrong and it needs to be fixed hysterics.

That there is nothing wrong in reality and therefore there is nothing to fix.

It is not so much that we consider others objects. It is more that we, humans, consider ourselves objects, vulnerable, non-organic even.

We look at our bodies, our personalities, our everything as if it were made of glass, or made of sugar, and every action can break it or melt it... pick your feelings about yourself.

I remember distinctly when I decided that I can take it. Decided that I can take whatever life throws at me.

I didn't think through why, but looking back I could see, or maybe feel that I am self-healing. Self-healing, without having to do the healing. That my body, my soul are self-healing.

And so far they have been.

For I while, when the going was really really tough, I had a visual of myself as the bounce-back doll...

the doll that always rights itself. And I did. I bounced back.

But it seems to be part of homo sapiens' nature to always behave as if it were the end of the world...

Or how to set the context to alter the story and therefore alter your actions?

Whether you know it or not, your relationship to life is stiff, inflexible, and therefore ineffective.

You look at things, always, from the same exact perspective, and therefore you see, always, the same old, same old life: good or bad, the same.

The Sideways Method

I have taught you previously a move, that can transform your reality, the sideways view.

Transformation simply means that from one moment to the other, what you see changes.

Your actions are ALWAYS consistent with what you see, not with your beliefs, not with your thoughts, not with reality, but what you see.

And what you see is what we call in this work 'occurrence'. Occurrence has a little bit of 'what happened, what is happening' in it and a lot of 'what you say about it'.

Depending on your level of arrogance, you are effective or ineffective in life.

Arrogance in this context is considering your opinion, your commentary, your meaning, and therefore the occurrence the same as reality.

Occurrence is often called 'your personal reality'... which is a misnomer: it is not reality at all.

Arrogance calls things wrong or right, nice or nasty, enough or not enough, missing, etc. All things that do NOT exist in reality.

Arrogance is what calls something a threat.

When you see threat, you respond accordingly. You attack. Or argue. Or justify. You never consider that you are fighting windmills...

So Transformation's job is to alter what you see. To alter what you say about things so you can be more effective in life.

But how do you alter what you see? If what you see is what gives you the attitude and the action then we need to learn how to change, how to alter what we see so we can have an attitude and take actions that makes us more effective in life.

The two ways I teach to change what you see are

Looking from a sideways view, so what you see is different. And what you SAY is different.

Change the backdrop against which things happen. Backdrop is context. When you change the context, the MEANING of what you see changes.

Let's say that you feel that you are threatened... something or someone is threatening your life.

If you manage to look at the situation from the sideways, you just removed yourself from the line of attack, and can take appropriate actions... like see that in fact someone is just talking. And that maybe they are afraid. Or they are angry, frustrated, but your life isn't in danger.

Let's say you are in a situation where someone is smiling at you, and does everything to make you feel loved.

If you manage to look at the situation from the side, pull yourself out of the emotional influence, you may be able to see that you are manipulated, and the other person is trying to get you to give him something.

You can see stuff from the side that you cannot see when you are in the picture. Why? Because threat, manipulation distorts your view. You already KNOW what is happening, what WILL happen... even though it may not be so.

This is especially useful for you if you consider yourself abused, a victim. I used to feel like a victim... a victim of abuse, and acted it out, until I learned this sideways view method... That has set me free.

Changing the Context

I have shared with you the tennis ball demonstration and the clumsy Ph.D. but here you go again:

The speaker on the stage asks for a volunteer for an experiment. The volunteer needs to be clumsy. I have experienced this exercise myself, but I'll use another person so you don't think it is only MY experience.

A woman raises her hand.

Inner Peace is elusive. It's elusive like health.

What do you call peace? The lack of war? What do you call health? Lack of illness?

Imagine that you are walking in a forest, on a footpath on a beautiful summer day. The birds are chirping. There is a slight breeze. There is peace. And you may know that animals are hunting, eating another, and yet there is peace.

It seems that peace is when you are OK with how it is, good, bad, ugly, you are OK. When a ball comes your way: you catch it. And when a branch blocks your way, you bend it away. When there is a climb in the path, you climb. When a stone gets in your shoe, you shake it out. No resistance. Life is good.

If you can bring that OK-ness...

If you can bring that OK-ness to your work, to your home, to your driving, to watching stupid people say stupid things, to making mistakes, to your weight, to your money, then you have a chance to say that you have inner peace.

Now, let's look what else would we experience as no-peace?

My experience is that every time you live inside the gap of how it is and how it SHOULD be, you are not at peace.

The 'not how it should be' can be about yourself, any aspect of you.

It could be about your relationships

It could be about a person or people in general

Maybe even about the weather...

It is very often about greed... wanting what belongs to another.

A not so obvious example of no chance for peace

I read an article today written by a CEO and founder of a beverage company. A woman.

Her beverage flavors the water to make it drinkable.

She could actually, authentically say that the Hint Water is good for you... but in its present state it isn't. It just makes the harmful low vibration tap water go down easier. Like soda. Like coffee. Or like tea. Easy to drink way to deplete your energy.

As I often do, I went for a walk to allow myself the space to feel her, connect to her deeply, connect to the idea of cooperation.

This is what I saw:

In her greed she would not be able to see that win-win-win is the most pleasant and profitable state a business or a person can have. She'd rather not have anyone else win, not even that her consumers win.

She has the classic signs of greed... a tightening of the throat muscles.

So, what can you learn from this?

What would you have to do, if you wanted to have peace, on a continuous basis...

Like a life that is like an oasis in the midst of a chaotic world?

Not like a few moments of it, but 24/7 or close to it?

What would you have to master?

Here is the first step on list. Honestly, I could tell you to implement the serenity prayer in your life, but after watching thousands of people repeat it like a mantra, while they were suffering, I would do you a disservice.

So, let me break it down for you.

The most important thing you can do is to learn to watch yourself and life from a third party's, the Watcher's perspective.

I've been calling this 'sideways glance'.

The Watcher is impartial. The Watcher only sees what is, and sees none of what should be. It also doesn't see wrong... it sees what is, and wrong is an interpretation.

If you want peace, you MUST live in that third party place. It disengages the ego's power, it disengages the emotions' influence on you. It disengages the mind's monopoly over you.

When you start to identify yourself with the Watcher, life starts to lose its drama, you start to lose your chains, you starts to get you your power back.

Heaven is a life lived from the Watcher's perspective.

From that perspective you can experience love, pleasure, success, fulfillment, intimacy,

The Sideways Glance is The Key To Raising Your Consciousness Raising Your Vibration

I watched a movie last night. Stayed up watching it till 1:30 am. Way past my bedtime, because it was urgent for me to watch it. lol.

I knew there was something very important in it for me to get. but what?

I had seen this movie, back in Hungary, 50 years ago.

The movie is called 'The Lawyer'

There are two important elements relevant to your life in this movie.

The two crucial elements that are relevant to my life and to you. Let's see the lessons the movie teaches.

The movie is about the conviction and subsequent acquittal of a doctor accused of murdering his wife.

The prosecutor's team is so sure that the doctor is guilty, they don't do any investigation. None.

In spite of that, the jury finds the doctor guilty... Based on only circumstantial evidence that tells a likely story.

The doctor appeals the decision.

Preparing for the appeal the lawyer's team does all the work of investigation they can do in the sixties... which is not a whole lot, but something-something.

The closing words of the defense (pay attention) is that 'the American judiciary system says: when the accused walks in he is innocent unless proved guilty, beyond a reasonable doubt.'

And the lawyer then tells the story of 'what really happened', an alternative story, another likely story, another interpretation of the same circumstantial evidence.

A likely story...

A second story just as likely, just as probable, just as believable, as the first one that was used to convict the doctor.

A story where other people had the motive, the opportunity and the means to commit the murder. Every single element is accounted for and explained... just like before, but with a different interpretation.

And the jury this time acquits the doctor, because the existence of two believable stories, two possible interpretations, made neither of the stories beyond a reasonable doubt.

And that was the first lesson. That the same pieces of information, the same pieces of happenings can be put together more than one way. Which means: neither of them is the truth, or at least we don't know what the truth is.

A Sideways Glance At The World

The first time I encountered this phenomenon was in an inspired moment, back in 1987.

I was at a week long class. Between two exercises my group had to wait, so our leader suggested that we sit down and allow our minds to clear.

As I was sitting, I thought that I had never revisited the incident when my father molested me. This was as good a time as any. We were on a beautiful mountain, the weather was mild, the colors of the fall were exploding... perfect time.

My mind chose to look at the incident as if it were part of a historical exposition in a museum: the museum visitors separated from the scene by a velvet rope only. I watched from the side...

I was watching the scene unfold, the little girl with curly hair, one sock slipped down, screaming, her mouth full of goop. There was no sound. It was like a silent movie. And it was funny... A lot like those cream-pie-in-your-face movies. Funny to look at, but you don't really want to be the one with the pie in your face.

I remembered the incident that 'it was horrible.' Not funny, but horrible...

Funny. Horrible. Funny. Horrible. It can't be both... either one or the other... Or maybe neither?

And in that moment I was free from that whole experience... it was just what happened.

I have been able to maintain the sideways glance, the museum scene. Without the funny, though.

The lawyer in the movie, because of his sideways position, look at what happened from the sidelines. And with the exact same circumstantial evidenc...

You'd rather be right than happy, you'd rather be right than rich... Your microexpressions will give you away

I had a few remarkable experiences the past few days.

The conclusions from these experiences make me mad, angry, bitter, and hopeless... but that should not surprise you: the condition of humanity is hopeless.

I am watching people from the fifth floor evolutionary level, doing what they do on the street (pedestrian) level, act the way they act, like a moron. Don't blame me. If you were watching your life from where I am watching from, you would not make the same moves, I promise you. Actually: I guarantee you.

One of the things I discovered is that many people think that they are ALREADY connected

They are legends in their own mind. They will protect where they are, however low or high that place may be.

You can't train people who already know.

When someone wants to be trained, one needs to declare themselves, temporarily, incompetent in the subject.

Otherwise they are going to resist the training, or spend all their time fitting what they hear into what they already know. Neither of those is 'getting trained.' Remember, most training is the willingness to try something on. Like a jacket in the clothing store. But if you leave your jacket on, pretending to try on a jacket on top of it, it won't fit, will it?

This is what most people do, and it is driving me bonkers.

Then again, some things that happened were quite promising, even if they were few and far between.

One promising thing actually happened to me, personally.

I have been watching and re-watching the 'Lie to Me' TV series, seeing more and more with every viewing.

But yesterday I was nudged by Source (out of nowhere) to watch a British, Victorian age series, about some girl Tilly... who had to deal with being accused of being a witch, whatever witch means.

I watched it for about half an hour and then I couldn't watch it any longer.

I descended into an inner hell, for about 5 hours. In those 30 minutes of the movie, she escaped two attempts to rape, and she was in the middle of the third, when I closed my browser. She was gossiped about, learned to dance, lost the man she loved to another woman... No, thank you, not for me, not now, not ever...

Hell. I closed the browser but I didn't close my mind. The scenes were playing in my mind, and I felt every pain known to a woman. Anguish, fear, anger, longing, fury... you name it I felt it.

Most people when strong feelings come up, they hide from them.

They run from them, they outwit them, depending on their emotional age. I decided to be an adult, and I faced the strong feelings.

To allow these feelings ravage me was painful, but I hung in there, and felt what I needed to feel.

I own a book I never read, but just caught a glimpse of it the night before while I was searching for something good to read... 'Feelings Buried Alive Never Die.' What a title, and what a perfect match. No accidents here. It was time.

I didn't take my remedy. Why? Because buried feelings never die... and this was an un-burying ceremony. Lasted for five hours, and once I could feel what I never allowed myself to feel, it was gone, and I am my happy self again.

I have made a few distinctions from this feeling incident, and I'd like to share them with you.

The two most important distinctions I was able to glean were:

When you suppress something, like a feeling, you suppress everything.

You can't just suppress pain, anger, envy... you need to suppress everything. As a result you are a walking dead, useless for you and others. This has been true for me, and I am, as you can see, still working on it.