I've got cancer and it has me. It's full-on and it has been a big life-changer. I have myeloma or bone marrow cancer. I've had it over two years and am through the worst stage, I hope, but it's still hard work.

Every now and then I still get quite ill, not from the cancer but from the secondary issues in my spine and stomach and with infections. You can't get rid of myeloma - you can only manage it. I probably have a few years left. I'm 71.

So this podcast is for anyone who has cancer or who is involved with someone who has it. It's about some of the real aspects of keeping your spirits up - the core issue whether you seek to stay alive or to have a good dying process. If you're feeling kinda okay inside, your whole process will work better, or you'll handle it better. Failing all else, you'll be a bit happier.

We have to come to terms with dying, come to peace about it, and about the life we have had, and all its ups and downs. So this is about all that.

Recorded during a howling gale down'ere in Cornwall, Storm Eunice, in late February 2022. The waves are at Portheras Cove in West Penwith, Cornwall, near where I live.

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Experiences  of the last two years have drawn us surreptitiously toward new values, a rehumanising of society - and there's more to go. Here are some insights on conflict, migration and dehumanisation, with a little on the Holy Land. And peace and goodwill. 

With explosions and atrocities going on, the environmental, social and  cultural issues of our time will not be resolved. This needs to change,  for very practical reasons. It involves every one of us looking at our own conflicts. Planetary healing.

With songs from the Massed Corvid Choir of Grumbla, at dawn on a windy winter solstice morning.

Instinct, intuition, imagination, empathy. Ways of tuning into wider fields of information and reality and finding out what's best to do. It's a way of getting things more right, and in our day we do need that.

With additional commentary from the birds around our farm and the Massed Corvid Choirs of Grumbla, Cornwall.

This is about using our intelligence more deeply. Putting instinct and intuition to work.

I've hovered on the edges of the intel world in my humanitarian and peace-activist work, and here I tell a few tales of things that happened, some of the ways I've done it, and some of the lessons learned. Might be useful to some of you.

This and the podcast that follows later are both about 'higher intelligence' - drawing on sources far beyond our normal reach. 

But first, the waves of Kilgooth Ust or Cape Cornwall, on a mighty Atlantic-rollers day. One of those days when you wonder where the power really lies.

I'm a cancer patient and, for me, it's the complications that are now more problematic than the cancer itself. Recently I had some potentially bad medical news, and this of course brought up a lot of stuff, provoking some deep processing and thought.

So this podcast is about dying - something that is optional for none of us, though more pressing for some than for others. If you get born, you'll die, and that's that.

Recorded in the woods down below where I live, and introduced by the sound of the stream in the woods.

Current thoughts on the climate and environmental crisis. I have reservations about the current climate picture: it's not wrong, but it isn't quite right either. And this issue isn't primarily environmental, it's social, psychospiritual and about the nature of planetary civilisation.

Each and every one of us has to get behind this for it to succeed - form a world consensus that everyone can buy. That's tricky. The breakthrough point on climate will come alongside a breakthrough point in humanity.

As a forecaster - working mainly along social and geopolitical lines - I've learned a few things about predicting the future: what we currently visualise for the future and what actually happens when the future actually comes can be quite different things.

Introduced by the waves at Portheras Cove, a few miles from where I live, here in Cornwall.

Introduced by a nightingale in the tree behind my house, here on the farm. 

This is a perspective on the meaning of our lives and what we're really here for. As souls, we're here to learn and to make a contribution. 

When we see things from this viewpoint, reality changes and our free-will opportunities are advanced to a new stage.

We need to remember why we came, what we're here for. Because, no matter how difficult life gets, if we have a meaningful life in which we're genuinely pursuing our path, it's always positive and progressive - whatever society or our guilt complexes might judge to the contrary. 

So this is about the evolution of our souls.

A five-minute soundscape from the stream just down the field from where I live. Nothing is happening at all, yet a lot is happening. It's the existential Zen of unfolding universal reality, God doing a dance and nature speaking in its own voice.

Yes, waste five minutes of your precious time imbibing the medicinally auditory gifts of a little stream in the ancient land of Kernow...

As a cancer patient, sometimes I plummet toward the edge of death. This is a straight-up podcast recorded in bed in the dark of the early morning, at a time when I was very ill, struggling and on my own.

It's at times like this when we really start facing the truths of our lives - times when we might lose our life and we suddenly notice and own up to things we hadn't seen before. Or we didn't have what it took to look at it before.

So here's a taste of what it's like in the deep, dark space of illness, and the insights it generates. Because facing the spectre of dying draws our attention to what we're doing being alive.

If my cancer blog interests you, click here.

I'm down at the stream again. There are times when I'm faced with my truth, my fuckups, and it's hard. This is all about facing facts: our beliefs about life and about ourselves sometimes get outblasted by raw facts. So this is about facing our stuff, owning up and getting real. Because real change doesn't happen until or unless we do so - we just get the repetition of our ingrained patterns. But if or when we break through, magic happens, and new possibilities are given to us. So this is about freedom.

I have long been a photographer, and here are some pics of West Penwith, where I live: click here.