I think it's a nine or eight on Seroquel. And I'm at the park. As you can see. It's interesting, I not only feel like I don't have anything to say, I also don't even feel like making videos, which is something I've been doing for seven or eight months. So to me, it's interesting how 10 days on a little bit of circle has kind of destroyed my motivation. And again, I think it's okay right now. Because I need to take a break from overthinking things and do more of just getting stuff done. So today, so far, I was organizing my kitchen and taking out some of the items that I wouldn't want someone else using. So I did quite a bit of that. And then I just sort of felt done with it. Like I needed to get outside for a while. So here I am. I am starting to feel excited about California since yesterday. excited for a change of scenery. And I still have quite a few things to do before I go so long as I do a couple of things per day. I should be ready to go in the nick of time. I have to decide how I'm going to get there. I have to get insurance and all that stuff. So maybe I'll make another video later when I'm at home. What if I don't this is a short one. So maybe I'll combine it with if I say anything tomorrow and the next day. Couple things about today. Again, my brain isn't super thinkI but that's a good thing. And last night was the first night I took half of this Seroquel instead of a whole one. And I took a whole one every day for probably 12 days. So the 13th night I took half. And I'll take half again tonight. And then after that I will perhaps try without the Seroquel to go to sleep. Because I've been sleeping just fine. And every night I've been doing some coherence breathing with my heart rate monitor, chest strap and the app as well as soaking my feet with Epsom salts. Sort of a little ritual I've developed and it seems to make me feel calm and just go to sleep. And I usually drink mugwort tea out of a nice mug. And I actually grow mugwort out in the yard. Because when I was in Santa Barbara six years ago, somebody gave me a mugwort leaf and he said put this under your pillow you'll have nice dreams. And so I took it and I went back to the hostel that night and I did put it under my pillow. I when I was falling asleep as soon as I sort of fell asleep I felt myself going through a time mark it was like like it was like the weirdest thing out of a movie like warp drive or hyperspeed or lightspeed being engaged in a spaceship and sort of having that sensation to of accelerating like that. And I'm pretty quickly just jerked awake, like oh my gosh, what the hell? And then I thought that was strange, but then I put my head back down. And when I did it did the same thing when I started to fall asleep. Just want to, like you felt like I was in a spaceship accelerating. And so again, I just jerked awake, like what the hell. So I took the mug wart leaf out from under my pillow and just placed it beside the bed and didn't want to participate in that. And then, oddly enough when I got home and I was, at that point, kind of manic, and I was going to this organic grocery store in an adjacent city, and the lady there was this cute Asian lady. And she was trying to sell me this green powder stuff for for a tea. And she was trying to tell me what it's called. And but she was saying it in a way that I couldn't understand the way she was pronouncing it. And I think she eventually wrote it down. And she wrote down MK Ward, and I was like, What the hell. So I bought the T. And it might have been that time or another time I went there that she told me she has more plants. Or it's kind of like a weed really. And she said that she would give me some, if I called her on her cell phone. So I did and she did end up giving me the plants. And I planted it in a bunch of different locations around the property. And it's kind of funny, because this one place, I planted it between the two houses. There's like a row of muck Ward like two feet wide by 15 feet long. Right now it's all dead and dried up because it's winter time. But it comes back every year. And then I planted it behind the house. big long, same thing of motherboard, and then all in the front yard. It kind of takes over. But last year, I think it was I harvested a bunch of it and dried it and kept it for tea. And so long story short, I have my own record tea. I want to move I should be sure to take some mug work with me. So my word tea mug word story. taking half a Seroquel. I also in the mail, got my medical ID. So I've got PTSD and bipolar one. I don't know if you can see that. And then on the back my name and my medication and then see iPhone medical ID because iPhone has a feature to put your medical ID in there. So it's on the emergency call screen. So I have more information in my iPhone medical idea talk about my advanced directive, my representation agreement, where those are on my phone in case I forget. And I also say remind me to take a Seroquel PRN if I'm scared and confused. And bunch of stuff like that and my contacts. And so I have this for my trip. I may or may not wear it. But I decided to buy it either way. And I also cleaned my car a little bit, even though it looks like I might not be driving. My car's really old. And so I actually today booked a train ticket because I've taken the train there twice before very long trip 30 plus hours, but I find it quite nice and relaxing. So it was cheap to was like 125 bucks, whereas a flight would be about 250. And the train the benefit of the train is that I can cancel less than 20% fee. Whereas if I book a plane ticket, I can't change it. And there are a few things that might cause me to need to leave a little bit later. So I think this was the best thing to do right now. I feel good about that. And I can always cancel it and fly if I want or it If I ended up getting a new car or something, which is pretty unlikely, then I can always decide to drive. And driving would be a lot more expensive though, I might decide to buy a cheap car down there temporarily find out if I can do that if I can insure it, I don't know how that works. So I can take the insurance off my car and put it as storage insurance possibly save some money that way. And I also looked into a little bit of stuff around subletting my place, because I might be able to get a little bit of money from that. Even though I don't own this place, and most of it I wouldn't get I would just get a little bit because it's my furniture and stuff, but could be helpful. So still lots to do. still lots to think about and I'm thinking about a few other things as well.

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