Porn To Paradise: My Journey From Self-Indulgence To Meaning, Beauty & Something Bigger Than Myself

A part of me does love PRORORnographee. Own up to this. 

A podcast with no listens/views is a prayer to God.

Talking to God regardless of feelings.

nothing special. sticking to the plan. fail. get back up. move on. be human.

Forgot to mention I bought the dude at the No Frills a chocolate bar for letting me in when the store was closing. Coleson, you da man. 

The beginning of recording every day for my own mental health journey and to hopefully inspire other average bros. 

End music: The Lonely Shepherd (JAMES LAST, GHEORGHE ZAMFIR)

Observation: feelings of resentment at random attractive women. 

Theory: the more you indulge in porn, the more you will hate beautiful women in real life. 

The paradox of uncontrolled desire is that I hate what I lust after, because 1) I cannot get it and 2) I know that it has control over me.

The key is to separate these feelings from the woman herself. Otherwise you end up seeing women as the enemy. 

They are not. Instead they are merely the hosts that our parasitical desires have hijacked.

Isaiah Chapter 53

Music: Band of Brothers, Suite 2 (Michael Kamen)

"For he bore the sin of many,

V - vision

I - intention

M - means

https://dwillard.org/articles/beyond-pornography

Chapter One