Episode9; Love enters the room, smile. Where was it before? I explore the kind of loves I've had so far. Just a few sprinkles. Opening a space for the new loves to enter and it has.

Nobody is unsuccessful.  It depends on the definition of success. When I use success for achieving things, managing not to die, adapting at a new country, completely learning a new language and a culture, I feel pretty successful. Find your success bonanza

Episode7; The paper I picked from my Jar of Thoughts is; " You Can't Polist Before You Build":  Another slap on my face. Yes that is exactly what I've always try to do. I like seeing results, getting feedbacks. They are the fun part. 

But, Without taking time and putting the effort into building whatever it is that I desire to have, polishing won't work. It is tempting to skip one or two steps because there is a fee-ling of urgency and as time is running out, however, the best results and the growing sense of joy and satisfaction is putting the work into building it. 

Easier than doing, the polishing part is the getting the feedback. Whilst we are building it, it is hard to put the finger on the outcome, the results. We can feel it, we can anticipate it, we can sense it but nevertheless it is not the reality yet. Naturally we want to skip to the feed back part. There comes the polishing before it is completed. 

Here, I say, stop... Life is too valuable to waste it after sniffing the most amazing food but not yet tasting any of it. 

Episode6; The Power of a daughter of a single mother is unbeatable: This is a fact. As a daughter of a single mother, I have seen some much of everything; loneliness, struggle, love, fear... What that made me become? 

In time, all the little big moments come back to surface and made be a superhuman, an unbeatable woman.

If you are single mother or a child of a single mother, or someone who wants to have insight in these people's lives, this is a most listen episode.

Again, I am bare to my bones.

Episode5, A challenging statement. I will never win an argument because no arguments can be won, or I am not fit to win. On the flip side, it might be telling me by not winning an argument I will win the argument considering it through the impact and after affects perspective.

Todays episode is really short. A sweet breeze for the takers.

#4 Overpowering parents are a gift to learn to stand for our own mind and to learn to negotiate the bitterness in a sweet manner.

This is a long one, but it says a lot to me. Having a very dominating and critical mother, It has taken me a long time and so much effort to realize that her overpowering manner was a gift. A realization that has changed my life. 

It is character building, it forced me to live like a hermit as well as run away from homeland, from her. All to come to a realization that I am as good as it gets, I am brilliant and my mind is solid.  But it was a journey.

Episode3, The note I picked from my jar of thoughts is; When Nothing Works!.  This episode is filled with insights to my secret way of finding my purpose in life, figuring out what to do when nothing works, how to choose a path when things are critical. It shines torch on what to do when all crash under the feet. Starting or moving on has never been this light, fluff and easy.

2nd Episode,  "Things do ... own things, I don...... to be", some of it is washed and not visible. Is it a reminder to mind my own business or possible it encourages for following my own path and not to look around much for influence.  What is my conclusion? 

Short stories from my youth accompanies this late night conversation to myself.  The right and wrong deminished and life has a clarity when I unfocus on things/people surround me.

So Says my jar of thoughts. First picked note to my self by my younger self is; "It is not your fault". I divide it into pieces; "what is fault?, is fault exist as a concept? and if it does, whose fault is it?"