i'm tired of being nice

you want the story of what happened this year? or at least my side of the story? here it is.

october 4th. happy birthday.

sounds recorded september 2024...

i was really into my poetry back then. i think i'm becoming a planet earth person. you said you knew the rules. the things that are really worth doing are the things that scare you.

this is a chance for it all to come full circle. i can only control the mayhem i create around me. you want me to be your villain? i'll be your villain.

at least i'm trying.

originally recorded august 2nd. the wheel keeps turning.

i don't hate you. i hate this idea that you're the best.

i had to make a decision: life, or no life.

we've got things to do.

these people aren't your friends. they're paid to kiss your feet. they don't know what i know. i still love who? i still see who in bed? you spent so much time believing all the lies to keep the dream alive... or at least i did.

recorded late july 2024. the final word. breaking the vow of silence. washing my hands clean. they forgot to come and get me. i keep having dreams where i eat you, but i feel like i want to be your mother. why don't you write about death? walk away as the door slams.

recorded june 5th. intense pain is a wonderful thing. the things that are the most important to you become crystal clear. you start to begin to learn the meaning of life. don't bury me on the lone prairie. the reason is who?

recorded may 30th. the pain is the only thing that's real.

back on the soapbox.