The Silver Bells by Pseudonumb

My heart is cold as ice, ice, baby.

It lives in a cave of my own making.

But I don’t need no one to save me—

Just a few more months of hibernating.

I’m sorry if I missed a memo,

The first half of my life was a demo.

Maybe this time around I’ll get things right,

Or maybe I’ll fade away into the night.

I kinda know when something’s bad for me right from the start.

I just gotta listen a little closer to my heart.

Cos sometimes I drown it out so I can’t hear, oh,

When the pain of grief is the only thing I fear.

I’ve been living in an endless time loop;

Every day’s another chance to reboot.

But still, I’m covered up in cobwebs.

How long have I been here without friends?

Pain and circumstance devoured up my youth,

Now I feel this urgency to just move,

Away from all this endless nothing.

Maybe I need to believe in something.

I kinda know when something’s bad for me right from the start.

I just gotta listen a little closer to my heart.

Cos sometimes I drown it out so I can’t hear, oh,

When the pain of grief is the only thing I fear.

I keep holding on to past transgressions.

Maybe this is my confession.

I didn’t always know what I was doing.

I don’t know who I thought I was fooling.

It’s hard to own up to your own fuck-ups.

I think it’s high time I have had enough,

Of leaving behind a trail of chaos.

Maybe what I need is still out there, waiting.

I kinda know when something’s bad for me right from the start.

I just gotta listen a little closer to my heart.

Cos sometimes I drown it out so I can’t hear, oh,

When the pain of grief is the only thing I fear.

It’s been a season since my light went away.

I’m trying to hold onto any reason to stay.

But the darkness has taken a hold;

It’s left a blemish on my soul.

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Can you reignite the spark?

Is redemption that hard?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

The soul’s the driver of my body-mobile.

My heart’s an engine, but now it’s standing still.

Can I remember how to take the wheel?

Banish the darkness, or I’ll never heal

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Can you reignite the spark?

Is redemption that hard?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

I can’t tell where my true self went to.

Maybe it fell. Maybe I’m meant to,

Slither ‘round searching, grasping with my hands.

Like writing my secrets on the shoreline in the sand.

Where did the light go?

Where did my light go?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Can you reignite the spark?

Is redemption that hard?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Can you reignite the spark?

Is redemption that hard?

Can you see? Can you see in the dark?

Wake up, darling, you’ve slept too long,

Your life is wasting away.

While the world spins round like a top,

You’re stuck inside of your own head all day.

Are you there? You’ve stopped replying.

We’re worried, are you OK?

We miss you, please don’t forget us.

We really hope that you choose to stay.

The days go by,

I’m fading fast.

Perpetuated,

By my own past.

It hurts to breathe.

It hurts to wake.

Don’t know how much,

More I can take.

Talk to us like you once did when,

You felt like you were still alive.

Don’t let the sadness take over,

Don’t let it eat away at your insides.

Remember that we all love you,

And all that you have survived.

If you give up now, you’ll miss out,

On everything you wanted in life.

I wish I could Eternal Sunshine,

The hurt right out of your mind.

Maybe then you wouldn’t feel like,

You’re struggling for air all of the time.

I wish I could erase it wholly,

From the depths of your heart.

Maybe then you wouldn’t always feel,

Like you are unraveling apart.

The days go by,

I’m fading fast.

Perpetuated,

By my own past.

It hurts to breathe.

It hurts to wake.

Don’t know how much,

More I can take.

The days go by,

It’s almost gone.

I can’t explain,

But I won’t give up.

It hurts to breathe,

A little less.

Don’t know how long,

Til it comes back.

But I’m still here,

I swear I am.

Promise I’ll stay,

Long as I can.

Life is cruel,

And life is sweet.

I’m holding on,

To everything...

All of these words,

Trapped inside my mouth,

Maybe one day,

They’ll find their way back out.

Collecting like sand,

At the bottom of the sea.

If you have a better plan,

Just whisper it to me.

No one understands,

Anything I say.

It’s like what they hear,

Is bad autotranslate.

And I feel like maybe,

I’m just not the same;

That there’s something disconnected,

Deep inside my brain.

I don’t have the spoons,

To explain myself again.

So maybe I’ll just,

Nod and pretend.

In through one ear,

And right out through the eyes.

Like they heard what they wanted,

And believe their own lies.

No one understands

No one understands,

Anything I say.

It’s like what they hear,

Is bad autotranslate.

And I feel like maybe,

I’m just not the same;

That there’s something disconnected,

Deep inside my brain.

Can you hear me?

Can you see me?

Do you need me?

Can you free me?

Ghost around ever bend,

Reaching out, creeping in.

Haunted halls, whispered secrets—

Nobody I know believes it.

Woman with a white dress on

Dripping wet, says, “Child, come.”

Man in red stands at the door

Turning right, walks off the porch

Can you hear me?

Can you see me?

Do you need me?

Can you free me?

Grandma sitting all alone,

Tells me she’s been gone too long.

Demon crouching in the corner,

Grins as I scream bloody murder.

The attic door is nailed shut,

But footsteps fall up above.

Voice behind you speaks your name,

No one’s there. Are you sane?

Can you hear me?

Can you see me?

Do you need me?

Can you free me?

Are they all just voices in your head,

Or have you been speaking to the dead?

And does this mean until the end,

Your life will always be filled with dread?

I felt someone looking at me,

One night when I was trying to sleep.

Cracked one eye, then looked up;

A man of Shadow in the dark.

Eyes were red as burning coals.

I prayed he wouldn’t eat my soul.

Reptilian wings scrape the ceiling.

Close my eyes. “Maybe I’m dreaming…”

Can you hear me?

Can you see me?

Do you need me?

Can you free me?

Every January,

When the moon is full,

All the Weres prepare,

For the night of the wolf.

It’s a right of passage,

For the young and the old,

Are you prepared for

The night of the wolf? (X2)

Underneath the cold,

Winter skies,

In the forest,

A secret lies.

The Pack gathers,

In the night,

To protect their land,

From the Shadow’s blight.

Every January,

When the moon is full,

All the Weres prepare,

For the night of the wolf.

It’s a right of passage,

For the young and the old,

Are you prepared for

The night of the wolf? (X2)

All your bones,

Will shatter then mend.

Your form will change,

Again and again.

If we all,

Survive this night,

We’ll let out a howl,

That’ll echo through time.

Every January,

When the moon is full,

All the Weres prepare,

For the night of the wolf.

It’s a right of passage,

For the young and the old,

Are you prepared for

The night of the wolf? (X2)

Gather near,

Listen here;

Bare your teeth,

Show no fear.

The time is now,

This is war.

Shadows creep in,

Like through open sores...

Time, oh, time passes.

Behind eyes, turns to ashes.

One step forward.

Three steps back.

I can’t remember what it feels to be glad...

I feel like this would be a good track for a cinematic/trailer. Maybe the theme song of a show. Not sure what I'll use it for yet, but I hope you all enjoy it in the meantime!

THE LAST DAY

We had no idea what was in store for us. But as I write this, know that it wasn’t without horror.

The end was coming. It was plain as day. Everyone could see it. The asteroid was bigger than the moon. It was only a matter of time. Riots, looting...worse. It was all happening. War in the streets. But that wasn’t what scared us most.

Vic and I first heard the music when we were running from a mustard gas attack, and by then it was already too late.

The front doors opened, and smoke poured out. Hands, so many hands; grabbing, pulling, tightening. They offered us drinks and drugs and food and anything we could possibly desire. It was chaos, and everyone was smiling, singing, laughing, and dancing. Partying it up as the world came to an end.

We could not escape. This was worse than the gas.

As the soiree swirled around us, we went to the window to watch as the asteroid blocked out the sun.

Without turning to me, Vic took my hand in his and said, “How unlucky for us; the Earth was abundant.”

And then—