Push(ed) to Start

2025 still isn't done cleaning house & the podcast got caught in the sweep! If I've learned anything this year it's honoring how you feel, being honest, and not being afraid to let go. With that said, this is the final episode of Pushed to Start (at least for now). Thank you so much for supporting me especially throughout my inconsistency. Until we meet again friends, take care of yourselves.

Mushroom coffee, micro-divorces, and lots of tequila! To say the last month and a half has been a whirlwind would be an understatement. But rev your engines because we're back babes! In this brief check in I'll get you up to speed on all that's taken place during this brief hiatus, detail all the thought behind my birthday photoshoot, and introduce a series I started over on the clock app -- "The Mirror." (we'll get back to Part 2 of "The Starting Over Season" soon, too)

No sources for this episode, all straight from the dome.

So you’re starting to see signs that a quantum leap is on the horizon, exciting right? Probably not when that sign looks like things falling apart. It can feel so unexpected and honestly just flatout unfair. You realize out of nowhere you’re being forced to start over and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. Well, what does it look like to welcome it and all it’s possibilities? I’ve broken it down into 2 steps. We’ll explore the first in this episode — Disciplining the Ego.

Resources for this episode: 

MEDIUM| How to Let Go of Your Ego: Discipline is Freedom is Flow

https://kevinzhensei.medium.com/how-to-let-go-of-your-ego-discipline-is-freedom-is-flow-a6fbec969edf 

LUKIN CENTER | Controlling Your Ego: 5 Powerful Benefits of a Humble Mindset

https://www.lukincenter.com/controlling-your-ego-5-powerful-benefits-of-a-humble-mindset/#:~:text=Those%20with%20an%20inflated%20ego,elements%20of%20transparency%20and%20trust 

LINKEDIN | The Art of Letting Go: How to Deal with Your Ego to Achieve Success?

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/art-letting-go-how-deal-your-ego-achieve/

MEL ROBBINS, “THE LET THEM THEORY”

https://www.melrobbins.com/book/the-let-them-theory/ 

Focus 1: The Unexpected Quantum Leap.

Part 2: Exorcising Apathy

In Part 2, the last part of focus on the Unexpected Quantum Leaping we’re talking about the emotion of it all. While it seems very attractive in a world full of negative emotions, we’ll explore why apathy may not be the defense you think it is. Sources linked below. 

Quora | What's wrong with being apathetic?

https://www.quora.com/Whats-wrong-with-being-apathetic

Berkeley Wellbeing | List of Emotions

https://www.berkeleywellbeing.com/list-of-emotions.html#:~:text=List%20of%20Emotions:%20271%20Emotion,The%20Berkeley%20Well%2DBeing%20Institute 

Apathy is a valid response to a world that demands everyone to be care dispensers.

https://www.reddit.com/r/DeepThoughts/comments/yzf26x/apathy_is_a_valid_response_to_a_world_that/ 

Science Direct | Apathy Case Study

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0022395624000852#:~:text=However%2C%20the%20knowledge%20of%20the,the%20alteration%20of%20specific%20mechanisms 

News Medical Life Sciences | What is Apathy and Why Does it Occur?

 https://www.news-medical.net/health/What-is-Apathy-and-Why-Does-it-Occur.aspx#:~:text=Apathy%20is%20different%20from%20a,itself%20is%20not%20intrinsically%20reduced

“Mad” - Solange Knowles

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BTqNemB6mio&list=RDBTqNemB6mio&start_radio=1&pp=ygULU09MQU5HRSBNQUSgBwE%3D 

Focus 1: The Unexpected Quantum Leap. Part 1: Acceptance.

Sources Referenced:

Forbes on Quantum Leaps - https://www.forbes.com/councils/forbescoachescouncil/2023/06/06/quantum-leap-101/

Abasto on Spiritual Quantum Leaps - https://abasto.com/en/advice/spiritual-quantum-leap/

Medium on Spiritual Quantum Leaps - https://bevin-niemann-cortez.medium.com/when-you-experience-a-quantum-leap-27441b9532ed 

Mel Robbins' The Let Them Theory - https://www.melrobbins.com/book/the-let-them-theory/

No one loves a rebrand more than a 30-something hyper self-aware millennial who's just been thrown a huge ass curveball. As I bid farewell to "A Conversation with AC", I welcome you to our new journey together. "Push(ed) to Start" holds a lot of meaning. You know that intimidating big red button you're too afraid to touch? You know the sound your engine makes when you push that ignition? You know that time you got desperate & told God to do the work for you because you didn't have the courage to do it yourself? We avoid starting because starting is full of uncomfortable truths about ourselves & our choices.

This is what happens when there's no time left for our avoidance. This is what happens when you get pushed to start.