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In this episode of Queerly Beloved, Wil is joined by Langston Kahn, a Black, queer teacher and shamanic practitioner whose work focuses on radical human transformation, ancestral healing, and restoring an authentic relationship with our emotions.

Langston’s work lives at a powerful crossroads, weaving together somatic practice, contemporary shamanic traditions, initiations into traditions of the African diaspora, and deep relationship with helping spirits and ancestors.

In our conversation, we explore Langston’s origin story and the early spiritual experiences that helped shape his path. We talk about helping spirits, ancestral healing, and what it means to remember that support from the unseen world may already be reaching toward us.

We also dive into shamanism, what that word means, and how to approach this kind of spiritual work with integrity and discernment. Langston shares beautifully about the impact of colonialism on our relationship with ritual, ancestors, magic, community, and the sacred, and how healing may involve reclaiming ways of being that have been severed or forgotten.

This is a rich, mystical, grounded, and deeply nourishing conversation about spirit, lineage, queerness, healing, and what it means to become resilient, creative, and courageous enough to bring healing into a fractured culture.

Connect with Langston Kahn:
 https://langstonkahn.com/

Learn more about Wil here:
https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

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In this solo episode of Queerly Beloved, Wil shares reflections from a recent journey to Costa Rica, where he sat with Grandmother Ayahuasca and received powerful teachings about aliveness.

After moving through a season of heaviness, collective grief, personal transition, and emotional numbness, Wil felt called back to the jungle through a series of signs and synchronicities. What unfolded was a deep remembering: that aliveness is not just joy or happiness, but the willingness to feel the full range of human emotion like grief, gratitude, desire, tenderness, fear, sensuality, wonder, and everything in between.

Wil explores how the jungle itself became part of the medicine: the river, the organic meals, the nourishing conversations, the singing, the dancing, the screen-free spaciousness, and the daily ritual of swimming naked in the cold flowing water of the Tulärí River.

This episode is an invitation to examine where we may be numbing out, where we may have turned down the volume on our own lives, and what it means to return to the body, the heart, and the sacred experience of being fully here.

This episode is for anyone who has been feeling numb, disconnected, overwhelmed, or like they are watching their life instead of fully living it.

May it serve as a reminder that your aliveness is already within you, waiting to be remembered.

You are not here just to just get through your life.
 You are here to live it.

Wil will be returning to the same retreat center in Costa Rica mentioned here to host an Awakened Hearts New Year’s Eve Retreat: A Jungle Journey into Connection, Authenticity and Aliveness.

This 7-day retreat will be an intimate gathering for GBTQ men to reconnect with their hearts, release old stories and patterns, and step into more authentic and alive ways of being, while being surrounded by the beauty of the Costa Rican jungle.

To learn more, visit: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/awakened-hearts-nye

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In this episode of Queerly Beloved, Wil is joined by Oneika Mays, a mindfulness teacher, yoga teacher, licensed massage therapist, and author whose work is devoted to making contemplative practice more accessible to communities that have too often been left out of mainstream wellness spaces.

Oneika has taught at Rikers Island, Kripalu, the Omega Institute, Lincoln Center, and beyond. She is also faculty at Embodied Philosophy/Yoga International, has been featured on SiriusXM and numerous podcasts, and is the author of the debut book Sit With Me: A No-BS Journey to Mindfulness and Meditation. Her work brings mindfulness down to earth, offering a practice that is honest, compassionate, embodied, and rooted in real life.

In our conversation, we explore a wide range of rich and meaningful topics, ranging from working with inmates to the social dynamics in The Traitors. We also explore dream work as spiritual practice, loving-kindness, creating safety inside ourselves, the art of compassionate nonattachment and other juicy topics!

This is a grounded, soulful, and very human conversation about what it means to stay present, care deeply, and keep coming back to ourselves.

Connect with Oneika Mays:
https://www.oneikamays.com/about-5

Get her book:
Sit With Me: A No-BS Journey to Mindfulness and Meditation

Learn more about Wil here- https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

Check out the Awakened Hearts retreat here- https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/singles

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In this episode of Queerly Beloved, Wil sits down with Maria Martinez, a Cosmic Weaver, Quantum Alchemist, and multidimensional healer who has been aware of the unseen realms since childhood. Coming from a lineage of shamans, Maria describes a life shaped by early encounters with spirits, relationships with guides and higher selves, and a deep connection to divine intelligence across timelines and dimensions.  

Together, Wil and Maria explore what it means to feel at home in your own truth, how authenticity can become a spiritual frequency, and how Maria experiences different higher aspects of herself that support her healing work. They also talk about astral mission work, the role of sacred guidance, multidimensional consciousness, timeline healing, and the restoration of what Maria calls the divine blueprint.  

Maria also reflects on what it was like growing up with these gifts, seeing spirits with both her inner and outer vision, and eventually being supported by a shamanic mentor who helped her develop healthy spiritual boundaries and a deeper understanding of her path. This is a conversation about sovereignty, spiritual remembrance, and the possibility that we are far more vast than we’ve been taught to believe.  

Wil also recieves a clearing from Maria that is meant for the listeners as well. It's a clearing of blockages to abundance and is a fascinating example of Maria's work (plus it can possibly produce positive results like it did for Wil!). 

Learn more about Maria and book a free visionary session here- https://www.360prosperity.com/

Schedule a free discovery session with Maria: HERE

Learn more about Wil here- https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

Check out the Awakened Hearts retreat here- https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/singles

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In this episode, Wil Fisher sits down with Simon Magnus, a facilitator, teacher, and creator who has spent the last 25 years blending movement, intimacy work, conscious kink, ecstatic dance, somatic practice, and theatre into powerful, playful, and transformational experiences. Simon creates bold yet safe spaces where connection thrives—inviting people to drop performance, meet honestly, and explore embodied love, surrender, and truth.

Together, they dive into a rich conversation on sacredness, presence, play, sexuality, surrender, and self-discovery. They explore how conscious kink can become a healing and transformative practice, how improvisation and intimacy share the same essential ingredients, and why reverence, curiosity, and embodied presence can open the door to more freedom, peace, and aliveness.

Together, they explore:

• Sacredness, reverence, and the power of presence
• Animism and relating to the world as alive
• Enoughness and the paradox of self-development
• The connection between improv, creativity, and erotic expression
• Surrender as a practice of trust, attunement, and embodiment
• How conscious kink can support healing and transformation
• Exploring hidden parts of self through ritual, archetype, and play
• Pleasure, pain, and the path toward deeper peace
• Why adult play matters—and what it can teach us about intimacy and freedom

Links + Resources

Learn more about Simon: www.playfull-living.com

The Rite of Surrender retreat: www.terraviva.love/rite-of-surrender

Register for the Q&A call: Zoom registration link

Learn more about Wil: www.wil-fullyliving.com

Awakened Hearts for Single Gay Men: www.wil-fullyliving.com/singles

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In this episode, Wil Fisher sits down with Annie Schuessler-Zam, a trauma healer who uses Brainspotting and Parts Work to help people release stuck emotional pain. Annie was a licensed psychotherapist for 20 years and now works outside of the medical model. She also runs workshops for folks who are estranged from a parent and want to create their most beautiful and meaningful lives, and she’s the host of Rebel Therapist, a podcast devoted to healers doing their own personal work.

Together, they explore:

• Parts Work / IFS as an invitation to create enough inner safety for our younger “exiled” parts to come forward with their messages.
• Attachment wounds, tenderness, and what it’s like when insecurity shows up in close relationships—and why that can actually be a sign of healing.
• The difference between soothing a part versus accidentally silencing it with quick “you’re fine” band-aids.
• Disclosure + discernment: how to know what to share, why you’re sharing it, and how to stay resourced when feedback isn’t gentle.
• The myth that healers should have it all together—and why it’s actually a red flag when a healer isn’t doing their own work.
• “Healing waves”: why the work doesn’t really end, but our capacity to ride it can deepen over time.
• Estrangement in queer communities: finding your place on the estrangement continuum with integrity and self-trust.
• A practical framework for boundaries: choosing the level of contact that allows you to have your best relationship with yourself and the people you love.
• Chosen family, grief, and the complex emotions that can arise when an estranged parent dies.
• Compassion and boundaries: how forgiveness and love don’t require continued access or self-sacrifice.

Connect with Annie:

• Website: https://anniezam.com/
  
  
• Wil’s interview on Annie's podcast Rebel Therapist: https://anniezam.com/podcast/256
  
  

Connect with Wil:

• Website: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com
  
  
• Awakened Hearts for Single Gay Men retreat: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/singles
  
  
• Instagram: @wilfish99

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In this solo episode, Wil Fisher explores the energetic invitation of the Year of the Fire Horse and what it’s calling forward—especially for the Achiever-Performer archetype in gay culture: the successful, polished man who looks like he’s thriving… but feels a quiet ache underneath. This is a conversation about moving from performance to presence, from being admired to being known, and from surface-level connection into real intimacy, community, and spiritual aliveness.

Wil shares a personal Fire Island story about “curating belonging,” unpacks how people-pleasing and performative confidence keep us from being truly seen, and offers a simple somatic check-in to help you distinguish anxiety from intuition—including the moment many of us recognize: the quiet “Uber home” realization that enough is enough.

What You’ll Hear In This Episode

• What “Fire Horse energy” symbolizes: momentum, intensity, and the end of stagnation
• Why performative success can still leave you feeling lonely and unseen
• The Achiever-Performer pattern in dating, friendship, masculinity, and spirituality
• The difference between being desired vs. being nourished
• “Stop auditioning. Start choosing.” (and what that means for dating)
• A grounded take on spirituality for queer men: spiritual without religious
• A quick somatic practice to listen to your body’s truth
• 3 practical actions to choose depth this week

Key Takeaways / Quotes

• “This is not the year to be impressive. This is the year to be true.”
• “Not playing it safe isn’t being reckless—it’s being honest.”
• “Admiration without being known is a beautiful-looking loneliness.”
• “Anxiety is fear about the future. Intuition is a quiet voice of knowing.”
• “If your inner voice is saying ‘enough is enough,’ trust it.”

Somatic Check-In (Try This During the Episode)

1. Take one deeper breath than usual.
2. Ask: What do I know that I’ve been avoiding?
3. Ask: Where do I feel it in my body?
4. Ask: If I trusted this knowing, what would I do differently this week?

Your “Permission Slip” Challenge (3 Actions This Week)

1. Tell one friend the truth about what you’re craving.
2. Ask a deeper question on a date (and answer it honestly too).
3. Say yes to support—choose a space that’s built for depth and real connection.

Retreats Mentioned

• Awakened Hearts for Singles (May 7–10, Joshua Tree) -  https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/singles
• Awakened Hearts for Community (April 16–19) - https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/events

Connect with Wil here- https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

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In this episode, Wil Fisher sits down with Ash Ryzen Witham, a queer, nonbinary trauma-informed Somatic Coach and Connection & Embodiment Facilitator. Ash supports personal and collective transformation by guiding people into deeper connection with themselves, each other, and life itself through somatic wisdom, embodied and authentic relating practices, and movement + expression. Their work is rooted in the belief that the ache, tension, and longing we carry are not “problems to fix,” but raw material for personal evolution, where the art of alchemy truly lives.

Together, they explore:

Somatic coaching as a path to self-trust and the body as our most honest guide.
 Nervous system regulation in intense times and why safety isn’t a concept, it’s a felt experience.
 “First responders”: the early signals in the body that let us intervene before activation takes the wheel.
 How to work with emotions in a way that’s compassionate, practical, and grounded in real life (not bypass-y).
 Authentic Relating as a practice of truth + care: saying what’s real while staying connected to impact.
 Belonging vs. fitting in and how self-belonging becomes the foundation for healthy community.
 Holding multiple truths in queer spaces with more curiosity, less fragility, and more capacity for nuance.
 Alchemy as transmutation: turning pain, tension, and longing into power, meaning, and movement.
 Ash’s queer journey, representation, and the ways “coming out” can be a lifelong unfolding.
 Ecstatic dance as an embodied portal back into aliveness, joy, and community.

Connect with Ash:
 Website: www.ashwitham.com
 Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alchemy.with.ash/

Connect with Wil:
 Website: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

Instagram: @wilfish99

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In this episode, Wil Fisher sits down with Brian G. Murphy, an activist, educator, and certified relationship coach. Brian is the co-founder of QueerTheology.com (a resource hub, podcast, and online community exploring how queerness and spirituality enrich one another) and the founder of Relationshift, a coaching practice supporting LGBTQ+ and polyamorous folks in building thriving relationships on their own terms. Brian is also the co-author of Queers The Word, and his first solo book, Love Beyond Monogamy.

Together, they explore:

• Moving beyond the “clobber passages” and why queerness doesn’t belong in a defensive posture.
• Polyamory + non-monogamy as a spiritual path and what monogamous folks can learn from it.
• Sex, smut, and the sacred: how hookup culture can be approached with intention instead of shame
• Queer ritual in plain sight (Fire Island as pilgrimage, weekly rhythms, chosen family as spiritual practice).
• Taboo topics with tenderness: orgies, douching-as-ritual, and what “purity/contamination” stories do to the soul.
• Kink, light, and healing and how “taboo” can become a site of liberation.
• What it can look like to return to (or leave) Christianity with agency after religious trauma.
• Why progressive spiritual spaces need to define their terms (God, miracle, resurrection) so people feel safe to receive.

This is a conversation about queerness as holy, pleasure as portal, and choosing a shame-free spirituality that actually feels like good news.

Connect with Brian:
 Queer Theology: https://www.queertheology.com/

Queerness Every Day Challenge: https://www.queertheology.com/challenge/

Love Beyond Monogamy Book: https://www.queertheology.com/books/

 Brian’s website: https://www.briangerald.com/

Relationship coaching (Relationshift): https://www.briangerald.com/relationship-coaching/

Connect with Wil:
 Website: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

Instagram: @wilfish99

Watch the interviews on YouTube:
 https://www.youtube.com/@willfullyliving4357

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In this episode, Wil sits down with Mira Funk, LCSW (she/her), a Harvard-educated queer, nonbinary psychotherapist and psychedelic guide specializing in 5-MeO-DMT, N,N-DMT, and salvia divinorum. Mira brings a rare “neuroscience geek meets sacred mystery” approach to psychedelic healing and integration—bridging somatic work, nondual spirituality, and practical trauma-informed care.

Together, Wil and Mira explore what 5-MeO-DMT is (and what it isn’t), why dosing and context matter so much, and how this medicine can support deep healing—especially around fear, shame, the nervous system, and identity. They also discuss gender liberation, the body’s role in trauma storage and release, and why Mira is passionate about ethical and precise approaches to working with 5-MeO-DMT.

In This Episode, We Explore

• The “geek vs. woo” false split—and why both languages can point to the same mystery
• 5-MeO-DMT vs. N,N-DMT vs. “DMT” as a broader tryptamine family
• What 5-MeO-DMT can feel like: expansion, presence, release, and the “deep tissue massage” metaphor
• Trauma-informed step-wise sessions: “dip a toe,” integrate, then gradually deepen
• The “full release” / unity-consciousness territory—and why it’s not the only point of healing
• Fear of death, “annihilation anxiety,” and the ripple effects of practicing surrender
• Wil shares a powerful one-on-one, ritualized death/rebirth experience in an MDMA-assisted therapy session
• Psychedelics and gender exploration: shame, freedom, identity, and the paradox of nonduality + authenticity
• Mira’s experience of gender liberation and family repair—including staying in relationship without abandoning self
• Rectal administration of 5-MeO-DMT: what it is, how it’s handled ethically/privately, and why it can be uniquely pelvic/root-focused for some people
• A grounded take on “code of reality” laser experiments: perception, priming, meaning-making, and humility
• Why Mira believes 5-MeO-DMT can be a powerful option for both first-timers and experienced psychonauts—when held safely

Connect with Mira Funk

Website: https://www.unjourneying.com/

Youtube Channel : https://www.youtube.com/@unjourneying

Connect with Wil

Website & coaching: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/

Upcoming Awakened Hearts Group Retreat: https://www.wil-fullyliving.com/events

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