I’ve realized that I’ve never really understood the struggles my friends were going through. I’d always been the therapist or advice friend. And now being on the other side and not doing well at all it’s so hard. I understand so much except I’ve always had smile depression where I could just hide it. Now it become severe depression which is kind of what happens with too much of masking you sadness and untreated adhd. It’s a real struggle right now. It’s just hard. Everything has to happen for a reason I just hate feeling this sadness.