I’m feeling a bit bitter now. It’s funny how swift my mood changes. Just yesterday I felt on top of the world. I felt that I could conquer the world. But look at me now! (Ops, you can’t) listen to my speech and what you can grasp is that I will have ungrammatically sentence productions, interjections, and word finding difficulties, poor sequencing in retelling or describing a story and topic maintenance. Haha yes! I am analysing myself. My very own speech and language abilities at my lowest level of functionality (if only u get what I mean). This happens to me all the time, most frequently during my dark days. Regardless of which languages I used, I would face this kind of ordeal. I dealt with this situation when I decided to use my first language (Bahasa Malaysia) too. But sometimes, when the communication challenges became so severe, that I misinterpreted things and got myself extremely frustrated from being unable to express myself, or people just refused to understand even if I explained myself, I would go silence. It’s heartbreaking. This what I have to go through each time I deal with my own mood disorder.