"The most painful thing in the world is to be on the outside."

Rav Lebish Hundert explores a radical perspective on Passover cleaning: it isn't about the dust, it's about the "Mashu"—that tiny, almost invisible mental block that keeps us from connecting to Hashem and those we love.

In this episode, we learn:

• Why jealousy is a "spiritual mistake" based on a lack of self-knowledge.

• How to stop blaming the world and start taking ownership of your own "inner house."

good shabbos!

In this profound episode, Rav Leibish Hundert dives into the core of Hisbodedus (Jewish meditation/secluded prayer), focusing on the concept of Ne’emanus v’Hismasrus Muchletus—Total Loyalty and Self-Surrender.

Drawing from the teachings of Rebbe Nachman of Breslov and the Sefer Hishtapchus HaNefesh, Rav Leibish explores why true spiritual connection requires us to leave "not even a hair’s breadth" of our lives hidden from the Creator.

Highlights of this session include:

• The Spiritual Filibuster: How pouring your heart out to Hashem can "talk His ear off," potentially halting negative decrees and focusing Divine energy entirely on your needs.

• The "Locked Room" Metaphor: Why keeping even one small part of your life (business, embarrassments, or self-reliance) separate from God prevents a truly "open" relationship.

• Chametz of the Heart: Recorded in the shadow of Pesach, Rav Leibish likens our hidden secrets and areas of false independence to chametz—the leaven that must be scrubbed away to achieve a clean heart.

• From "Baby Food" to Maturity: Understanding the stages of spiritual growth, from total dependency on Hashem (receiving) to active, creative contribution (giving).

• A Moment of Reality: Mid-way through the shiur, an air raid siren (azaka) forces the group into a safe room, providing a raw, real-time example of "running to the Source" under pressure.

Join Rav Leibish for a transformative discussion on how to stop "fooling ourselves" and start relating to Hashem with the absolute transparency of a true friend.

Why does the Mishnah call the night of the search for chametz (leavened bread) "light"?

In this episode of the Shlomo Carlebach Series, Rav Leibish explores the profound spiritual preparation for Passover. Drawing on the wisdom of the Mei HaShiloach and Rav Shlomo’s soul-stirring insights, we learn that the physical act of cleaning for Pesach is a "vessel" for a much greater heavenly gift: true freedom.

In this episode, you’ll discover:

• The Gift of Freedom: Why real freedom isn't something we create, but a gift from Heaven that no one can take away.

• Knowing Your Root: How the "Light of the 14th" helps us recognize our unique place in God's heart.

• The "Two-Feet" Analogy: Why we can only truly search for our flaws (chametz) once we realize our immense potential and greatness.

• The Power of Connection: Insights into how our simple actions—like saying "Good Morning" to a child or straightening a Kippah—vibrate through the highest heavens.

Whether you are preparing for your Seder or searching for deeper self-awareness, this teaching offers a roadmap to finding your spiritual home and the light within.

Good shabbos!

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Restoration isn’t about becoming someone new — it’s about returning to who you already are.

In this installment of the Meshiv Nafshi series, we explore what it means to rebuild after distance, confusion, or spiritual fatigue. How do we reconnect? How do we come back without shame? And what does real teshuvah look like in daily life?

A grounded, practical teaching on renewal and inner alignment.

Recorded on Feb 19, 2026.

Reb Shlomo taught that every Jew carries a holy fire — even when it feels buried.

This class reflects on teachings inspired by Reb Shlomo Carlebach: longing, brokenness, song, and the courage to love beyond judgment. What does it mean to see the holiness in yourself — and in others?

A warm, searching exploration of Jewish spiritual resilience.

Recorded on Feb 22, 2026.

There’s a kind of brokenness that opens the heart.

This shiur continues exploring the teachings and spirit of Reb Shlomo Carlebach — vulnerability, prayer, and the holiness inside emotional struggle. What does it mean to be both brokenhearted and deeply alive?

A reflective, soulful class on authentic avodah.

Recorded on Feb 15, 2026.

What happens when tefillah stops being formal and becomes personal?

This session in the Hitbodedut series goes deeper into direct conversation with Hashem — honesty, resistance, silence, and the courage to speak without scripts. We examine how personal prayer reshapes emotional life and builds real relationship.

A practical and spiritual guide to living with awareness.

Recorded on Feb 24, 2026.

Why is it sometimes hardest to speak when we need to most?

In this installment of the Hitbodedut series, we explore the resistance that shows up in personal prayer — distraction, silence, discomfort — and how to move through it. Practical insights into building consistency and emotional honesty before Hashem.

A grounded class on turning inward without escaping reality.

Recorded on Feb 10, 2026.