"Do you repress: Anger, Pain, Sadness?" Are you using addictive consumption to stuff your feelings? Aversion leads to deeper suffering—not just for ourselves, but for the ones we love, too.
Here's a calm, trauma-sensitive, gently guided meditation. It uses self-compassion & mindfulness to help with acceptance of difficult emotions. If you can sit *with* the emotion, you won't have to act out. "You have already survived many strong emotions," Thích Nhất Hạnh once said. I know you got this.