This one song is probably the most challenging one I have ever written... I had to write it, with the open wounds exposed... that had been buried so deeply... it has taken me over a decade to finish it.... some would call it denial (in the beginning process of writing this)... but for me, I describe it as therapy in the chaos... and now, it has the eyes of both a wounded soul to the journey of redemption and mercy.
I began writing this one on the floor of an empty house, divorce papers still warm on the table.
I thought I’d outrun the ghosts in Arizona.
Seven years clean, in 2012... a beautiful, happy marriage, a life I’d fought tooth and nail to build.
Then certain “family” came knocking—whispers, judgments, old wounds ripped wide open.
They didn’t just haunt me.
They walked right into my home and tore it apart from the inside.
What was left was a mutually agreed goodbye to the man I loved… and the same aching hole I’ve carried since the night I drove west and left my babies sleeping.
This duet is me expressing the regret and prayers I still wake up to every morning.
And the singers:
her: a close friend, maybe me...
him: maybe my then husband, maybe my dad, maybe the hope of my kids one day—answering with the forgiveness I’m terrified I don’t deserve.
It’s therapy set to music.
Raw. Heart-wrenching. The kind of song you play when the walls are closing in and you need to remember you’re still breathing.
If you’ve ever had the past reach into your present and shatter everything you thought was safe… this one’s going to feel like it was written in your own handwriting.