Reflections- Esmay in the mirror

We seek to understand the meaning of our life, our souls purpose, with all of life's challenges we can feel lost and confused, overwhelmed, even misunderstood. 😪It can even feel like others seem to have the answers, have it all worked out, why can't I ❓Well I only know one thing for certain... The answers are within, in each and everyone one of us. Once we connect with ourselves, through loving kindness, self compassion and forgiveness to name a few, we are closer to the answers we seek, we are in the most favorable position to be the best version of ourselves and live an abundant life with purpose, make meaningful connections with others that make a difference. 👩‍❤️‍👩

I am yet to have this all worked out... I'm a 48 year old social worker , whom has spent most of my life avoiding my own problems, and focusing on supporting others with theirs. 🦋

Problem is, here I am... unfulfilled, confused about my identity, lacking self worth and feeling constantly self critical, I feel alone.😪

My marriage is in trouble... I don't know if I like my job any more, I'm menopausal, recently diagnosed with ADHD, in therapy for childhood trauma and battling a 30 year issue with problematic binge drinking... Reflecting today, the last day before a new year... 31st December, 2024, and two days out from a binge drinking episode that projects the most ugly parts of me and my ego, what did I achieve this year, what didn't I?🌸 Why do I feel so sad about it all - I have a deep a heavy ache in my chest, my throat.

Not just today, but each week, I ask you to please join me, give me a chance, as I share in each episode, in the most vulnerable way, how I'm navigating my life issues, the ones that effect us all at some level, through sharing my experiences, reflections and learning, I hope to educate, empower, build a community of support and understanding. I hope that this will bring myself and each of you closer to self love and self actualization, through meaningful connections.

Let's grow and learn together. I hope to share my own thoughts and feelings raw and unpolished, draw on my acquired professional knowledge, share tips, strategies and tools that support mental health, I might even experiment ( currently exploring some spiritual strategies), with some and share... I'd like to hear wisdom and stories from others, from you and hopefully interview some experts in these matters too.

TBH, I don't know a thing about podcasting, I'm going to learn this as I go too... So bare with me... Hopefully content to come will be more engaging, graphics, music, interaction.... And if I get enough support from you all that what I've got to say matters and is helpful to others... I'll hopefully be courageous, show my face, shout my name and be proud of me and Esmay.👩‍❤️‍👩 , who knows my dreams of publishing a book might even come true!

We don't have to face any of this alone, let's work it out together, come on this journey with me.... Who knows what insights or reflections we might discover and what this might mean for each of us. 🎭

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