ReRooting

Rebelle wonders whether houses themselves let you know when they want you to go.

Finally out of brain fog, Rebelle reflects on the meaning attached to being in a “good” mood and on what living as a hermit in Lisbon has meant as their time in Portugal approaches its end.

As Rebelle tries to manage another week of small successes with feeling majorly depressed, they talk about the difficulty and importance around untangling their thoughts and feelings from how things were in the past. A quote by psychologist Nedra Tawwab on the impacts of manipulation on the brain inspired the thoughts in this episode.

Rebelle’s Fibromyalgia flares up and they are reminded that it is ok to feel disappointed and down about life sometimes.

Rebelle discovers possible family ties to Portugal and a renewed sense of purpose for the the rest of their time there.

A recent job inquiry has Rebelle relistening to her past work in music. They think about the projects themselves, how their relationship to making music has shifted since they left the industry 6 years prior after a fibromyalgia diagnosis, and the cosmic hilarity of it all.

Recorded a few days before the 2023 New Year, Rebelle reflects on some significant growth.

Rebelle visits the only synagogue in Lisbon. The Sha’are Tikvah Synagogue was just built in 1904 and is only one of five synagogues in all of Portugal. The only way to enter the synagogue is to either be a member, schedule a guided tour, or fill out a request to attend services.The Spanish and Portuguese Inquisitions decimated the Jewish populations of the Iberian Peninsula beginning in Spain in 1492 with the Alhambra Edict, followed by the Portuguese in 1496. The Portuguese Inquisition was formally established in 1536 and was not extinguished until 1821. For more information, head to cilisboa.org

Rebelle battles an infestation and irrational fears.

Rebelle talks burnout and trying to make finding a more permanent home a reality by the end of next year.