I talk about having to give Fran his first testosterone shot at home and how anxiety-inducing and nerve-wracking an experience that was.  I also talk about how I was supposed to take part in a full-weekend online retreat and how I ultimately didn't feel like it and how the thought of the retreat and people trying to direct my time and tell me what to do produced anger and resistance in me.  I wanted to spend time over the weekend taking care of myself, but not in the same way that the retreat wanted me to.