💫 Host Note

This episode is one of the most honest I’ve ever recorded.It’s not about rejecting love — it’s about remembering what love feels like when it’s sacred, not scripted.Take a deep breath before you press play… this one might just shift something inside you. 💖

🎧 Listen now:👉 She Said No to Marriage — and Here’s Why(Press play above or wherever you listen to Reimagined Truths: The Podcast.)

🌿 Intro

Before you judge the title, breathe.This isn’t about rejecting love — it’s about remembering what love actually is.

I’ve spent years unlearning what the world told me a “good woman” should be: quiet, accommodating, waiting to be chosen.But lately, I’ve realized something deeper.

I was never meant to wait for a ring.I was meant to return to my own frequency — and only from that wholeness could divine union even recognize me.

🎧 Listen to the full episode:👉 She Said No to Marriage — and Here’s Why(Press play above or wherever you listen to Reimagined Truths: The Podcast.)

🔮 Theme

Sovereignty · Alignment · The True Meaning of Sacred Union

🕊️ Sacred Teaching

This week’s episode explores the difference between love we perform and love that remembers.It’s a reflection on sovereignty, healing, and what it truly means to love without disappearing.

💫 The full message is in the audio — take a quiet moment and let it speak to you.

✍🏾 Reflection Prompt

Where have you mistaken attachment for alignment?Write down one moment when you knew your spirit was dimming for the sake of connection —and what that moment revealed about your own power.

🌸 Spiritual Activation

Take a deep breath.Place one hand over your heart 💗 and one over your womb or solar plexus ☀️

Say aloud:

“I call back every fragment of my energy I gave away for the illusion of belonging.I am whole.I am worthy of recognition, not reduction.When divine reflection appears, I will remember — not surrender.”

🕯️ Breathe again.Let your body feel the truth of those words.

💌 Closing Invitation

If this message touched you — if you’ve ever felt torn between love and self-honor —let this be your reminder:✨ Sacred union begins within.

💬 Share your reflections in the comments,📤 Forward this to someone still learning the difference between being chosen and being aligned,and 🌕 follow Awaken + Return for more soul medicine —where remembrance becomes the real revolution.

Yisra El Apriale

🔊 The One Who Remembers

A lesson on bloodline healing, embodiment, and becoming the answer.

Have you ever noticed how healing doesn’t announce itself? No fireworks, no halos — just a quiet moment when you realize you didn’t flinch this time. That’s what this episode is about. Religion told many of us to look up for salvation. But the ancestors whispered, “Look back, look in.” When I asked Spirit who told me to heal the bloodline, the answer was simple: No one told me. I remembered.

✨ Key Teaching

Healing isn’t proof of worthiness; it’s remembrance. You’re not fixing what’s broken—you’re re-membering what got scattered. The nervous system becomes the altar, the breath becomes the prayer, and the body finally feels safe enough to stay present while the lineage exhales through you.

🕊️ Journal Prompts

1. When did I first realize a family pattern was living through me?

2. What moment showed me that peace can exist without explanation?

3. What part of my body relaxes when I remind myself, “I am safe now”?

🔥 Spiritual Practice The Water Offering of Remembrance

Tonight, pour a glass of cool water and say: “

* For every ancestor who could not rest, I offer calm.

* For every ancestor who could not love, I offer openness.

* For every ancestor who could not dream, I offer vision.”

Leave the water overnight. In the morning, pour it out on the earth or down the drain with gratitude. That’s how remembrance becomes motion.

🌻 Affirmation

“I am the one who remembers. The one who heals what was hidden. The one who turns survival into song.”

💬 Closing Reflection

If you’ve ever felt like the weight of the family landed on your shoulders, know this: you weren’t chosen because you’re perfect. You were chosen because you were ready. The remembering is happening through you, not to you.

~Yisra El Apriale

We were taught to picture heaven like a payday.

Mansions. Gold streets. Crowns. Every single thing we were denied on earth, waiting for us up in the clouds. And let’s be real — that idea is appealing, especially if life on earth has been heavy, unfair, or stripped.

But I want to ask you a question that may cut deeper than you expect:

👉🏾 If heaven didn’t come with mansions, gold streets, or a crown — would you still want it?

The Marketing of Heaven

From pulpits to funeral programs, heaven has been marketed like a luxury resort package. No bills, no tears, no pain, all-inclusive joy. We’ve been taught to treat it like the ultimate vacation after the grind of life.

And for a people who’ve endured centuries of oppression and lack, that promise hit different. It sounded like hope. It sounded like justice. It sounded like, finally, our turn.

But let me tell you the truth: that version of heaven is not hope. It’s frustration with a bow on it. It’s disappointment recycled into a promise.

The Lie That Was Sold

Our enslaved ancestors were deliberately taught this heaven. Not the heaven of union with Source — but the heaven of delay.

The message was clear:“Don’t fight. Don’t rebel. Don’t resist. Your reward is in heaven.”

That doctrine numbed generations into waiting. It stripped away urgency. It told people that their pain was holy, that their chains were temporary tickets to a future crown.

But let’s call it what it was: control. Psychological control disguised as faith.

And here’s the part we don’t like to admit — that lie didn’t just keep slaves in chains. It’s still echoing today.

Many of us are still waiting on heaven as reparations. We think, if my oppressor got wealth on earth, then I’ll get wealth in heaven. But family, that’s not liberation. That’s just changing the location of the game.

What Heaven Really Is

Let’s reset the definition.

Heaven is not “later.”Heaven is not “someday.”Heaven is not a wishlist of things.

Perfection — the Source of all life — did not design heaven as a mall in the sky.

Heaven is alignment.Heaven is wholeness.Heaven is the return to union with Perfection.

That’s why I asked you earlier: If all heaven offered was Presence — no gold, no mansion, no crown — would that be enough for you?

Because if your hunger for heaven is only about things, then you’re not seeking God. You’re seeking a shopping mall. And malls close.

The Trap We Fall Into

See, this is the trap: We turned heaven into payback.

We said, “If they had it here, I’ll have it there.” But that’s still comparison. That’s still lack. That’s still playing by the same rules the system set up.

No wonder so many live in disappointment. They keep waiting on death to deliver what life has already made available.

The truth? Heaven is not revenge for lack. Heaven is restoration from lack.

The Awakening

So here’s the call: stop waiting to die for heaven.

Heaven is not a gated community in the clouds. Heaven is a state of return. It’s a remembering. It’s waking up and realizing that you can live whole, right here, right now.

When you strip away all the illusions, heaven is simply this: oneness with Perfection.

And that’s not a future promise. That’s a present invitation.

Your Work This Week

So let me leave you with a challenge. Journal on this. Meditate on this.

👉🏾 Ask yourself: “If all heaven offered me was Perfection — no rewards, no mansion, no crown — would I still long for it?”

Because once you know your answer, you’ll stop chasing a heaven of things. And you’ll start living a heaven of presence.

Family, heaven doesn’t start after your last breath.Heaven starts the moment you awaken.

🌿 Stay Connected

If this message stirred something in you, don’t just sit with it — stay connected.

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* Join me live every Monday at 9pm for Q&A on TikTok

* Reach me directly at www.awakenandreturn.com

This is Return of the Redeemed. Until next time — awaken, remember, return.

Obedience Is Not Required

Welcome. I’m Yisra El, and I’m so glad you’re here.

Tonight, we’re stepping into a truth that can shift the way you move through life.This message is for anyone ready to release old lies, move from fear, and step fully into alignment and presence.Take a moment, breathe, and get ready to feel it in your spirit.

Reflection Question

Which feels heavier: obedience or presence?Pause and really feel that question. Notice your energy, your reaction, your body.

Core Teaching

* Obedience = fear-based compliance.

* Rituals or actions done out of obligation = hollow.

* Spirit doesn’t need performance—it wants presence.

* Alignment = moving in rhythm with Spirit, fully awake, fully yourself.

* Presence = energy, trust, action from insight, not fear.

Compare the energy:

* Obedience: heavy, restrictive, tied to guilt/shame.

* Presence: light, expansive, freeing.

Notice where your life has been moving from fear instead of alignment.

Journaling / Reflection Prompt

One action I can take this week aligned, not out of fear…Take a few moments to write it down. Let it guide you.

Closing Affirmation

Obedience was for chains. Presence is freedom.Spirit doesn’t want your performance—it wants your alignment, your energy, your yes.

Mantra for today:I move in presence. I align with Spirit. I am free.

Call to Stay Connected

If this invoked something in your spirit, subscribe to this Substack to stay connected.Follow me on TikTok for more messages like this, and step fully into your alignment and presence.

They told you God made you.But they never told you which god.

This week, I’m not pulling any punches.We’re exposing the one who built this trap we’ve been calling “truth.”His name is Yaldabaoth—the blind, arrogant force behind the systems of shame, obedience, and control.

The Bible said, “You were made in His image.”But the Gnostic texts say he was copying an image he didn’t understand.

And the breath that gave you real life?That didn’t come from him.

🎧 In this episode:

* Who is the false god—and why is he still being worshipped?

* Why your body was never the problem.

* What it means to reclaim the truth about your divine origin.

You weren’t made in his image.You were made in the image before the lie.

🕯️ Breathwork for the Week:

“I return to the image before the lie.”

Listen to the episode now:🎧 Week 3: The False God – Exposing the Architect of Illusion

🙌🏾 If this truth hit your spirit:

Share it.Subscribe.And let someone else know—it’s not rebellion. It’s remembrance.

🎧 Listen to the full episode above📖 Theme: The Fall of Wisdom Is the Beginning of Her Return🔥 Key Truth: You were not cast out—you volunteered to descend and remember.

Welcome back to Reimagined Truths, where we reclaim the stories that tradition buried, and walk the path of soul remembrance.

This week, we follow Sophia, the embodiment of Divine Wisdom, as she descends—not in punishment, but in purpose.

Her story isn’t about failure. It’s about the sacred journey of remembering who you are after being told you were something else.

📖 Gnostic Texts Referenced

* The Apocryphon of John

* And Sophia, who is the wisdom of insight… wanted to bring forth something like herself. Without the consent of the Spirit, she brought forth... and it became a lion-faced serpent.”

* The Hypostasis of the Archons (Reality of the Rulers)

* Sophia, who is called Pistis, wanted to create something, alone… and from her was emitted an imperfect being.”

* The Gospel of Truth

* Forgetfulness did not come into being from the Father… It came into being because the Father was not known.

🔍 In This Episode, We Explore:

1. Who is Sophia?The Divine Feminine principle in Gnostic cosmology—Wisdom made manifest. Not a metaphor, but a living presence. She is the one who knew, and still fell, for the sake of becoming you.

2. What is the Descent?Sophia didn’t fall out of sin—she descended out of longing. Her desire to know the unknowable led her to create outside the bounds of Divine Order. The result was separation, fragmentation, exile. But even in her fall, she carried Light.

3. Wisdom in ExileYou know what it feels like to be out of place. Misunderstood. Called too much.Sophia is the soul mirror for that experience. Her story is your story. She is the archetype of the forgotten one who remembers anyway.

4. The Cry for ReturnIn Pistis Sophia, she sings 13 laments—each one a cry for reunion, not rescue.She doesn't need to be saved. She needs to be seen, reclaimed, and rejoined with her divine fullness. So do you.

5. What This Means for YouYou are not wrong for the descent. You’re not broken. You’re on assignment.Wisdom didn’t fall from grace—she expanded the path to include grace in the dark.The ache you carry? It’s not your shame. It’s your signal that the return has already begun.

🧠 Key Teaching:

Exile is not a curse—it’s a calling.Sophia descended so that Wisdom could rise in flesh. So could you.

✍🏾 Journaling Prompt:

Where have I mistaken my descent for failure?Where have I exiled my own wisdom out of fear of being seen?

🕯️ Spiritual Activation

I return what was scattered. I reclaim what was buried.I remember the part of me that never forgot who I was.

If Sophia’s story stirred something deep in your spirit, don’t silence it.Let her rise through you. Share this message. Invite another seeker to remember with you.

And join me next week for Week 3: The False God – Exposing the Architect of Illusion.

Because…

✨ You were not cast out.You descended with Light.And now—it’s your turn to rise.

🎧 Listen to the full episode above📖 Theme: The Origins of Gnosis🔥 Key Truth: Gnosis doesn’t ask you to believe—it invites you to remember.

Welcome to the Reimagined Truths: The Podcast. Today, we begin where all sacred remembrance starts—not with doctrine, not with dogma, but with Light. A Wordless Light. A knowing that existed before we were taught who to be.

This episode is an invitation into Gnosis—not knowledge of the mind, but knowing of the soul.

📖 Sacred Texts Referenced

“I am the voice that spoke softly. I dwell in those who know me.”— Trimorphic Protennoia

🔍 In This Episode, We Explore:

* What Gnosis really is—and why it’s not about belief.

* The ancient origins of Gnostic wisdom, from Egypt to early Christianity.

* How power, patriarchy, and empire tried to bury the feminine, intuitive path.

* The 1945 discovery at Nag Hammadi—and why those texts were hidden.

* Why this sacred wisdom is resurfacing now—and what it means for you.

🔥 Key Teaching:

You are not just a student of Gnosticism. You are a descendant of divine memory. The Light never left—it lives in you.

✍🏾 Journaling Prompt:

What do you instinctively know about the Divinethat religion told you to question or deny?

Where did that knowing begin in you?

🧘🏾‍♀️ Spiritual Practice: Sacred Name Recall

* Write down all the names the world has called you.

* Now, sit with Spirit. Ask: What name did You call me before I was born?

* Say it aloud. Let it activate the memory in your bones.

🕯️ Spiritual Activation

Light a candle and declare:

“I am the voice. I am the light. I am the one who remembers.And I carry the knowledge that cannot be destroyed.”

If this episode stirred something in you—don’t rush past it.Honor it. Journal it. Share it with someone else walking the path of reclamation.

There’s a specific kind of faith that doesn’t wait for proof.It builds the room before the guest arrives.It packs the bag before the itinerary is sent.It prepares—not out of panic, but out of obedience.

This week’s word came through strong: The blessing is in the preparation.

We spend so much time praying for the promise… but do we ever stop to prepare the space?We ask for more, but do we create containers for the more to live in?

🌧️ Ask Noah.

He built an ark under a blue sky.No thunder. No clouds. No forecast.Just a word from God—and that was enough.

"By faith, Noah… prepared an ark." (Hebrews 11:7)

Faith that doesn’t move isn’t faith—it’s fantasy.Faith builds. Faith moves. Faith prepares.

🫙 Ask the Widow.

She gathered jars with no oil in sight.She followed divine instruction even when it looked foolish.And every single jar she prepared got filled.Not one was left empty.

"Don’t ask for just a few." (2 Kings 4:3)

The size of the miracle was determined by the size of her readiness.

🕯️ Ask the Wise Ones.

Five had oil. Five did not.Same opportunity. Different outcome.

"Those who were ready went in… and the door was shut." (Matthew 25:10)

The door wasn’t opened to the most talented.The door opened to the most prepared.

🪡 Preparation Is Prophetic

Sometimes God gives the instruction before the clarity.You feel the nudge to start organizing, planning, making space.It doesn’t make sense… yet.But that nesting feeling isn’t wrong. It’s sacred.Just like a mother prepares the nursery before the baby comes,God is asking you to prepare the place for the blessing to land.

🍷 And here’s the thing:

"You can’t put new wine into old wineskins." (Luke 5:37)God won’t pour new revelation, new provision, new favor into structures that haven’t been made new.Sometimes, your transformation is the preparation.

💭 So here’s your invitation this week:

* Ask Spirit: What am I being invited to prepare for right now?

* Take action: Clean the space. Write the vision. Update the resume. Make the room.

* Affirm: “I will obey the nudge to prepare—even when it makes no sense. My preparation is my praise.”

The blessing is coming.But it’s looking for somewhere to land.Will it find you ready?

—💌 With love and faith in motion,Reimagined Truths

Rage Is Not a Sin. It’s a Signal.Somewhere along the way, we were taught that anger makes us unholy.Especially if we’re women.Especially if we’re Black.Especially if we dare to be spiritual and angry at the same time.

But Jesus flipped tables.The prophets shouted in the streets.Jeremiah said the Word of God felt like fire shut up in his bones.That wasn’t sin. That was sacred disruption.

Rage is not the opposite of peace—it’s the declaration that peace has been violated.

🔥 You’re Not Broken. You’re Burning.I need you to hear this with your whole heart:

Your rage is not shameful.It’s sacred.It’s purposeful.It’s revealing what matters most to you.

You didn’t just “snap out of nowhere.”You’ve been carrying things for a long time. You’ve been silenced, dismissed, overlooked. And now the fire is speaking.

What if the fire is your confirmation?

📣 What’s Rising in You Right Now?Hit reply or drop a comment:When was the last time you felt your rage rising?What was it trying to tell you?

And if this message lit something in you, share it with someone who needs to know their fire is holy too.

And you start like this:

“I sat with this message for days. I tried to make it pretty. I tried to make it powerful.But I couldn’t find the fire because I couldn’t find Her.Not in my body. Not in my face. Not in my mirror.And that… is exactly where the work begins.”

What if Week 3 isn’t a celebration?

What if it’s a lament?

A grief soaked confession of what white supremacy did to your theology, to your mirror, to your knowing?

What if this is the week you say:

“I don’t always believe I carry the image of God.But I want to.And I’m willing to fight for it.”

That would be the most liberating, disruptive, truth-telling sermon of the series.

When You Can't See God Reflection Guide