Ritual Alchemist

In this episode we discuss a recent ceremony experience. We explore themes of trust, vulnerability, and the human need for control in relationships. We share about the fear of showing one's true self, the belief that one must be needed to be loved, and the tendency to overcompensate through people-pleasing. We also discuss the challenges and fears associated with asking for support and being vulnerable about our limitations.

Timestamps:

0:30 What Are Altered States? The role of psychedelics in self-healing and inner work for Brittany

8:47 Ellee’s first experience holding space + why support and safe facilitation matter

18:09 The path to this recent ceremony: 5+ journeys and the evolution of trust

23:09 Inside the ceremony: surrender, weaving energies, and embodied receiving

27:35 Trust, control, and the body’s fear of being loved for who you are

32:49 “Just Die”: The confrontation and liberation of letting go

35:55 Psilocybin as a consent-based medicine: what it means and why it matters

40:32 Stories we hear vs. the truth of the experience: myths, fears, and breakthroughs

43:38 Curious about ceremony? Where to begin, what to ask, and how to listen for the call

Listener Challenge:

• Ask your body if you’re curious. What does it feel like to hold curiosity without rushing it?

• If called, take a small step toward that curiosity—listen to a podcast, read a book, or start a conversation with someone you trust.

• Journal Prompt: “Where in my life am I being invited to receive more than I allow?”
  

Mentions:

-Podcast that inspired Brittany to work with psilocybin: https://open.spotify.com/episode/2XeXhVhmLHtCyhiRgscfdj?si=93331d2189e8490c 

-Resources on psilocybin:

https://open.spotify.com/episode/56SxktoJH9fyNuIclP3BWm?si=0b17145e34554e47 

https://open.spotify.com/episode/1aIpXK0HyrauQIX58jDP2P?si=6fb163d5bd8c4169 

-Link to Michal Pollen’s book https://michaelpollan.com/books/how-to-change-your-mind/

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What happens when your body knows the truth before your brain can catch up? In this episode, we explore how to recognize the subtle—and sometimes not-so-subtle—signals of your intuition, and how to start honoring them. From noticing trauma responses to understanding somatic cues, we dig into the art of self-trust and how to discern truth in a noisy world. We also dive into tools like astrology and human design to support your inner cartography, introduce the concept of "The Shimmer" (shoutout to Erick Godsey), and offer practices to help you reclaim your attention from the forces that drain it.

🔑 Timestamps

1:40 – Waking up to the body’s signals when we’re being inauthentic

7:10 – Trauma responses vs. intuition: learning the difference

19:50 – Authenticity, honesty, and reclaiming your inner authority

27:16 – Inner Cartography: astrology, human design & self-mapping

32:39 – The Shimmer: creative potential or energy drain?

43:01 – Conscious consumption: food, media, and reclaiming your attention

🌀 Journal Prompts

• What does my body feel like when I'm in alignment?

• What does my body feel like when I’m out of alignment?

• How do I feel after consuming different types of food, media, or digital content?

• Where is my attention being pulled? How can I reclaim it for creativity instead of consumption?
  

✨ Challenge of the Week Take one physical action to reclaim your attention and energy. Delete an app that drains you, put your phone in another room to focus, meditate (yes, really), or eat for clarity by choosing foods that nourish your intuition. Try it—and notice how it feels to own your focus instead of giving it away.

💻 Mentioned Resources

• Erick Godsey’s Shimmer Assessment Tool: https://shimmer.scoreapp.com/
  

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In this heartfelt episode, Brittany and Ellee share their profound journey over the past year, starting with reflections on a life-changing trip to Scotland. They recount experiences at ancient standing stones, personal initiations, and monumental shifts that followed.

Through moments of grief, radical decisions, and facing fears, they emphasize the importance of self-trust and inner strength.

The narrative touches on leaving a job, navigating relationship transitions, and embracing personal power, culminating in a discussion about the power of community and ritual.

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In This Episode, We Discuss:

• The Void & The Ego Pendulum – Why awakening feels like free fall and the natural oscillation between self-doubt and grandiosity.
• Your Spiritual First-Aid Kit – Practical tools like movement, journaling, breathwork, and play to help you ground in the chaos.
• Filling vs. Facing the Void – How to recognize distractions vs. true healing, and why what you reach for in discomfort has something to teach you.
• Boundaries & Navigating Relationships – What happens when the people around you don’t understand your awakening, and how to hold your truth without needing validation?
• Finding Safe Community – How to recognize predatory energy in spiritual spaces, avoid giving away your power, and find true mirrors who support your growth.

Practical Application & Journal Prompts for This Week:

📖 Journal Prompt: What do I reach for when I fall into the void? Notice your instinctive coping mechanisms without judgment. What are they trying to tell you?

🔥 Challenge: Take one action this week that honors your intuition. Maybe that means canceling plans when your body says no, or making a choice without seeking external validation. Then journal about how it feels.

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Awakening isn’t something you plan—it happens when your soul can no longer ignore the call. In this episode, we explore the moment you realize you can’t stay the same, the fear of stepping into the unknown, and the chaos that follows.

We discuss the ego pendulum—why awakening can feel like a wild swing between doubt and grandiosity, how to discern intuition from programming, and why trusting yourself is the key to navigating this journey.

If you’ve ever felt like your life doesn’t fit anymore, like something is shifting inside you, but you don’t know where it’s leading—you’re not crazy, and you’re not alone.

In This Episode, We Cover:

• The signs of awakening—how to recognize the call
• Why awakening isn’t just light & love—it’s also grief, rage, and deep questioning
• The ego pendulum—why you might swing between doubt & grandiosity
• How to discern intuition vs. programming & trust your inner voice
• Choosing your hard

📖 Journal Prompts:

1. Where in my life do I feel restless, uncomfortable, or like something isn’t fitting anymore?

2. When have I ignored my intuition before? What happened?

3. What does expansion feel like in my body? What does contraction feel like?

🔥 Integration Challenge:

This week, notice where fear is keeping you from taking action.

• Is there a decision you’re avoiding because it feels unknown?

• Practice trusting your gut on a small decision & see how it feels.

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