Rozarie's Room

Don't mind me I'm just in another state of existential anxiety. The season 3 finale begins with a general how am I feeling? Type of check in. September & October can feel like a rough time for me as I anticipate the end of the year. I've been in a “trying my best” type of mood just carrying on with things.

I talk about doomscrolling into the rabbit hole of conspiracy theories and manifestation vs goal setting before starting my entertainment roundup of sorts.

Survivor 45 is pretty good!

A no spoilers version of my thoughts on Baldur’s Gate 3.

Getting back into Modded Minecraft

The excitement of Secret Life SMP dropping

Why I’m not watching the FNAF movie

Recent music finds: Jordan Ward & Teezo Touchdown

Post pandemic, America is deep in a loneliness epidemic as social isolation is at an all time high.

I've decided to be tactfully vulnerable and share my struggles with friendships, mainly desiring new friendships but struggling with social anxiety especially when getting to know people. I talk through and own some insecurities about my social life in hopes that you can find solidarity.

I also dive into what my healing journey has looked like, and what exactly is the work? It's important to point out that the rhetoric surrounding healing and self worth on social media lacks nuance and can be a slippery slope into more shame and isolation.

Remember: Prioritize joy even when you feel like crap!

How To Raise Your Self-Esteem by Nathaniel Branden

To Be Magnetic by Lacy Phillips

S2 E3 It's OK To Be Weird.

Sorry I missed last episode guys, Mercury was LITERALLY in retrograde. Plus like, every other planet or something. Today I'll be giving an overview of my understanding of astrology! Our favorite coping mechanism.

I wanted to acknowledge my perspective is through tropical astrology and the placidus house system. Recognizing the systems of astrology forming your understanding helps combat the muddy waters of appropriation and losing nuance to social media content made for generalized audiences.

I'll give a taste of information about houses, planets, signs, degrees, aspects, transits, rulers, and more. But of course, I'm not a professional. This episode is for entertainment purposes only. Assume nothing and do your own research!

Astrology 101 YouTube video with visuals

Astrology for Real Life by Theresa Reade (workbook)

Moon Matters Podcast

TimePassages / Astrograph (I recommend their premium app on either google play or the app store.)

Let's revisit the good old times, talking about music and games!

On the music side: my opinion on Travis Scott's UTOPIA as an outsider who's never listened to Rodeo or Astroworld, thoughts on some up and coming artists, and take on Kiana Ledé's recent album Grudges. I also ponder who I think could be the top artists on my Spotify Wrapped for 2023, and where I stand on being a "stan" vs a fan of an artist.

On the gaming side: my first solo platinum being Cult of the Lamb, and my first platinum (with help) being Elden Ring. I'm currently replaying Elden Ring to claim every achievement on my own! I've also revisited the Sims 4, pleasantly surprised to see some new updates, and mention my experience playing iconic open world titles such as The Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom and Ghost of Tsushima.

Links mentioned:

It’s OK To Be Weird

Sunshine (Summer 2023 Playlist)

Blue Water Road Episode

Gov Ball Episode

Something Are Better Left Unfinished

A follow up from the previous episode! Let’s discuss what it’s been like post big chop, breaking my computer and getting a new one, and the transformative energy I’ve been going through lately.

What is the lion’s gate portal? I don’t know! I did go on an astrology tangent in this one too.

When it comes to recentering myself, I think about short term vs long term goals, and habits to maintain vs things that can be checked off a list.

I’m figuring out my creativity and how to approach my creative endeavors. Also navigating going through changes and detaching from the identity of who I “used to be.” Getting comfortable with who I am in the present moment.  Feeling like no one’s like me but everyone is the same, including me. Yin yang!

Hate your life? Have you tried letting go of the past and trying new habits? (sarcasm)

It’s a little over halfway through the year and I find myself questioning my progress on self imposed goals once again.

Lately, this has meant rearranging my frequently used spaces after a feng shui learning binge, purging my clothes by donating and selling a bunch, and navigating the guilt that comes with letting go of what didn’t work.

I've also made the choice to do the big chop and say goodbye to my self proclaimed “purple era.” Removing bleach fried hair will leave me with a pixie cut. You know what they say, hair holds memories and trauma. But for me, this means saying goodbye to the magic of 2022. 

This episode does ramble about self help and gratitude, with a general theme of making choices for my own benefit despite what other people might say.

Doom scrolling leading to high screen time? I've been there. Today, I'm talking about how I've started being more intentional with my time on social media.

Being someone who grew up during the inception of social media (hello fellow gen-zers), it's become crucial for me to mute, unfollow, and hit "not interested" on content that keeps me stuck in negative or emotional thought loops.

I'll go into my experience as someone exploring self expression through content creation, giving the creator vs consumer perspective,  describing the difference between a content creator and an influencer, and giving tips to have a better time on social media.

I binged a queer reality dating show and it was everything I needed... Until it wasn't. This show was entertaining and had me thinking about my desires in marriage and relationships. 

Then it got uncomfortable. The traumas and triggers holding the cast members back from marriage were unavoidable. (content warning, domestic violence is discussed in this episode and shown in The Ultimatum)

I couldn't let a certain someone's actions fly under the radar. I try my best to hold abusers accountable.

I decided to spill my thoughts and feelings on this experimental approach to self discovery. I'll go over the pressure on women and femmes to get married and have kids sooner rather than later, why we shouldn’t diagnose real people in entertainment, and pondering how far can self sacrificing go?

TIMESTAMPS
00:00 Intro, my perspective, premise of the show

07:24 Vanessa

12:16 Xander

14:42 Yoly

17:02 Mal

18:56 Lexi

23:06 Rae

27:00 Tiff

29:26 Mildred

37:22 Aussie

40:31 Sam

43:16 Closing thoughts

I mean seriously, why didn't Netflix have any therapists on set?

Let's sit down and have an honest chat. I took a break from this podcast for about a year. And now I'm back! What happened, you ask? Well...

I don’t want to force myself to create something I’m not proud of.

But at the same time, I don't want my perfectionism to hold me back from pursuing my passions. So here I am, being my authentic self on this platform, without a content strategy.

I'm committing to showing up even when my head is spinning from all of the what ifs. Buckle up for Season 3 of Rozarie's Room! I hope you stick with me as I grow and explore my creative side once again.

We're back at it a year later :) 

Today I give a review on my first festival experience, discussing which artists I decided to watch, gen z's lack of concert etiquette, and more.  

This episode covers the lead up to Gov Ball from the moment the lineup was announced, to the smoke from Canadian wildfires blanketing New York City days before the festival. 

From starting the days with good vibes to the mood being soured by rough and rowdy crowds, this festival was full of ups and downs. Did New York City's only big festival this year live up to expectations?

Artists mentioned include: Ice Spice, Metro Boomin, Lil Uzi Vert, Kenny Beats, ODESZA, PinkPantheress, Pusha T, Lil Nas X, Kendrick Lamar.