In this episode (which doesn't have a single edit), I finally sit down with my dearest friend, and a huge inspiration to me—Professor Dr. David Tripp. Together we rest in his nest in East LA and think out loud together, moving slowly and sideways through things like (but not limited to) philosophy, queer theory, feminist killjoys, the void, hope, power dynamics, authority figures, the human chorus, and our lived experiences. Trying to give this a proper synopsis feels impossible so I’m going to keep this brief and simply encourage you to listen. And please do message me and share your thoughts if you feel inspired.

Huge thanks again to my dude Dr. David Tripp. I cherish you.

xSylvia

Content Warning

This episode includes swearing and unsanitized conversations about power, queerness, failure, and the emotional costs of optimism under capitalism. We touch on themes of disillusionment, grief, domestication, and the unraveling of inherited life scripts, which may feel activating for listeners navigating identity, belonging, or burnout. Please listen with care and leave what doesn’t serve you.

Some of the books + thinkers referenced in the episode: (my sincere apologies if I’m missing someone)

Jack Halberstam

The Queer Art of Failure (2011), Duke University PressReframes failure as a queer strategy that resists capitalist ideas of success, productivity, and linear progress.

Jack Halberstam

In a Queer Time and Place (2005), New York University PressIntroduces queer temporality as a disruption of normative timelines around adulthood, reproduction, and achievement.

Lauren Berlant

Cruel Optimism (2011), Duke University PressNames the way we stay attached to hopes and fantasies that once promised survival but now block our flourishing.

Sara Ahmed

Willful Subjects (2014), Duke University PressExplores how refusal and noncompliance are framed as problems when they interrupt social norms and power.

Sara Ahmed

Living a Feminist Life (2017), Duke University PressIntroduces the Feminist Killjoy and examines how happiness and positivity function as tools of social control.

James C. Scott

Seeing Like a State (1998), Yale University PressReferenced in relation to legibility, domestication, and the dangers of systems that demand simplification and compliance.

Michel Foucault

Selected writings

Referenced in relation to how power operates through normalization, self-surveillance, and internalized control rather than overt force.