As the new year comes,

each day is a new kind of

dilemma, as my heart

begins to think about

whether certain things

would begin from where

I left or whether something

new will surprise me,

honestly, it gives me a lot of

anxiety because firstly I wasn't

even ready to leave things behind,

and to accept alternatives that

were enforced upon me without my will,

and secondly, it is really scary

to begin with something new.