In the ongoing series Unexpected Turns, Host Laura Wilcox welcomes guest Tanna, whose early search for validation from good grades and athletics led to her severe struggle with an eating disorder in her college years.
As Tanna reflects on her time denying the stronghold of her eating disorder, she describes it as a "bony prison." A bony frame was all she had left after she isolated herself to avoid food.
As her parents brought up Tanna's low weight and eating habits, she denied any problems. Tanna only participated half-heartedly in initial appointments with therapy and nutrition counseling until her dad gave her an ultimatum. When she was forced to choose her eating disorder or her family, she understood she was at rock bottom.
God led Tanna to a Christian eating disorder treatment center where healing could happen. Though she was surrounded by depression and heartache, her environment was drenched in hopeful Bible truths. Tanna began reading the Bible and learning more about who Jesus was. She saw that she could never truly get rid of her eating disorder unless she replaced the lies she had believed with the truths of a new identity in Christ. She clung to 2 Corinthians 4:7-10 and 2 Corinthians 5:17, which told her no matter how crushed and fragile she felt, she could trust God to put away old patterns and make her a new creation, leaving her eating disorder behind.
That process didn't happen overnight though. After leaving her treatment center, she found herself a year and a half later having returned to some of her eating restrictions. Though she felt a lot of shame having to seek more treatment at an outpatient facility, she realized in time that God had taken away all her shame in Christ, no matter how many times she needed help. At the end of this treatment plan, she kept a support team in place even after she believed she didn't need it. Read Tanna's story, "Food Freedom," to hear more about her journey.
Tanna's advice to those who suffer from eating disorders is to seek and lean on help and community. "The Enemy loves it when we are silent---especially with eating disorders." She encourages women to use NEDA (National Eating Disorders Association) to help them find resources in their area.
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